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Running with a hard-on

Young master I want you to think shit head think for yourself ,, in fact thaqt is why I write so poorly not only because I am not a writer but , if my words are like a puzzle if you gotta think to understand wht the fuck I am writing about ,, I did my job ... I got your stupid lazy ass thinking .... JOB 1 DONE .. get you thinking for yourself ....

So on my run this morning I had this up and down hard on ....over and over ... so I came back did my usual get my good girl up for a morning pee that way getting fucked will not be painful having full bladder and backed up kidneys ( wow interesting how much concern a man who calls him self a MASTER  would have for some one he calls a slave ..... why ... value her importance in my life ,, the difference she is from the norm .. ? )  and had her be my puppy and I just unzipped and fucked her .... Have her feel my pants against her naked body ....... OK JUST THINK YOUNG MASTER .... Have fucked a girl her naked submissive ... your toy .... And did you use her ,,, you dressed .... Way back when slaves were naked and owners were allowed clothes .... Just think about growning up in a world like that well for 1000's of years in the history of your ancestors your DNA well that was life ,, real salvery ... slaves were expensive tools , something gto be valued ..... to be values ,,, like I see so many guys who treat their car or truck better than they treat their family and wife ..... VALUE ...... they treat a tool a car / truck a tool with importance .... Their woman well there are large dynamaic to explain why he treats her like shit ,,, I wonder what the dynamics are and how they evolved .... If she were a slave he may care more about her ...... hmmmmm interesting .

Fucking her with my clothes on ,,, just unzipping and sticking myself in her ,,, FORCING , yes penetrating her ,,,, if my dick is soft it folds and does not make penentration ,,,, ever had that shithead? Maybe it was because you fucke so much and yet still wanted more then you did not have a quality hard on strong enough to force its way into her ... to PENENTRATE her ........ to dominant her .... To push your self into her body ... think about our NATURE . Honestly I think I may never have done that , becaue I felt it an insult to pleasure myself ,, to not be concerned about her ,, first , to put her feelings in front of my needs ,,,,,,,, so I of course would think about making sex a tender activity ,,, make sure we were some what equal ,, her naked and me naked .... Yes using a woman ok , sure I know for a fact I have done that .... But to have her exposed naked and myself dressed ,,, just coming to her fucking her then kissing her , say thank you and leave ..... that honestly I think would have caused al LOAD OF SHIT ,,, it would have caused a fight a problem ..... BUT THEN AGAIN I know now the deep fanasty life of the female of most girls ,, the unspoken fanasty ,, un spoken because to speak her real deepest dreams of natures dirives ,, would be to go against the  FEMEINST  gains that have been made ,, the feminist gains that have brought all the happiness todays world ,,, the drug abouse the hiding confusions , the drpessions , the loneliness .... All the fun . ( FUCK TODAYS WORLD AND VALUES AND THE SO CALLED FUN ! )

OHHHH my god  I felt good , fucking her like that , a bit .. yes a bit a prat of me was linked to the progressive nice guy male the concerned male ,, and felt like I was disrespecting her ............. But then another part honestly ,,, the real deepest part of me ... the part of me I have TWISTED ! ... ignored ,, felt it was bad ,, not considerate of female equality .... We are not equal .. sure we are equal in some ways yes ,, but in the way we were designed to interact ........ the nature of the PENETRATOR and the penetrated ........ IT FELT GOOD ( yes kinda kinky , it is only kinky the first time ) and it felt even better when her hand reached between her legs ass to caress my balls while I fucked her and encountering my pants leg she grabed my pants pulling on my pants then with town hands she nmoaned louder and pulled me harder ,,,,,,,, her animal loved the idea she was getting fucked! Disrespected ...... USED ! like she is designed to be used . ........  I was respecting her deepest inner nature ...... SHE CAN NOT TELL ME HER INNER SECRET WANTS , THE DEEPEST FANSTY THAT SHE HERSELF WILL NOT EVEN ALLOW HERSELF TO REALIZE SHE HAS ....... I came failry fast and she was content she is always content when I just use her ,,, but this time was even more so ,, was she content to feel her eslf ,, her inner being ,,, fiannlay be respected ,,, for me to respect her by DISRESPECT ........ no dipshit it is not disrespect .... No no insult ,,, in the fact the opposite .. yes opposite ,, I pasted my polite training . to allow US to experience out true inner nature ,, I gave her a gift of my strength to LEAD US out of Eygpt ,,, out of th rules and training all the lies that have been thrust on our minds .. lead us back to our true inner beings .......... Me TARZAN you jane !

It was like having her kneel before me yesterday ,,, no not for sex , but to just hold her next to my body , to cuddle her , to feel her presence and to experience her expressing her CHOICE ,, HER FREEDOM OF CHOICE ,, to follow my orders ( orders ? does the word the idea of giving your equal orders ,, it is fanasty shithead , but after you fall in love with her , the idea of ordering and even the idea that she would follow the oreder  well is ... not even fanasty .... .. orders ) each little act , done once , and will be done much more often , each act ,,, makes me feel ! ... it makes me feel ... feel so unreal ...... feelings that I am realy being myself ,,,,, and I still go to work , take out the garabage empty the dishes in the am .... But only difference is that I do not resent the female in my life ,, that deep down feeling that unspoken confusion , and un felt resentment .....  AN UN FELT .......... NOT EVEN NOTICED ? yes sipshit , you have been insulting your instinct ,, you have been insulted since you were a baby ,, your true nature .... Your INSTINCT was twisted confusion , inslted ,,, then buried to the point you have never realized the level of damamge .............. think dipshit ,, think my friend young master ,, this will take time give yourself time to FEEL ,, you need the COMPARITIVE experiences to feel ! to learn what my ideas mean in your life ,,, to again realize the naute of MAN not the lies of your masters ... the twisting damamges their words have caused ,,, YOU AER A LOVING DOMINANT ! by nature ,, the cave man protecting the cave ,, going out to hunt and fight for his females and children ,, the good male instinctual animal .... And to be respected and loved you need to be allowed to fuck at your own will and desire ,,, because that is the nature of a PENETRATOR !    

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The BDSM closet

That word should ,,, fuck ,,, young master that word ,,, controls you in so many fucking ways .... The idea that you do get this feeling of SHOULD and HAVE TO ... the fact that you feel ... feel because of those words is evidence of th HUMAN nature in fact the natue of all animals to protect life ......... yes we all feed off other species ,,, I violently kill poor helpless LETTUCE being , life yes a happy leaf vegetable sunny itself waiting for its time to enjoy sex ,  like a girls flowers they say gets beautiful for sex , so does a life a lettuce want to have sex , to go to flower ..... BUT NO  the cruel violent animal I am with teeth designed to eat leafy vegetables more than teeth to puncture tough animal hide ... I kill lettuce ... but not my own kind .... Not my own ,, unless stressed ... most animals o not kill members of its own kind unless they are stressed .   CORE VALUES  should ,,, the basic GOOD ! in humans , that a political system of crowd control of population manipulation stems back ,, to the wise thinker of ancient Eygpt  knew and the Romans learned from to create their BOOK .... The book of SHOULDS where they told you that you were born EVIL and dirty .... And you needed them to become clean .... ? huh ... realy feel the drive to respect the shoulds in your life and understand ,,, that if you if human kind really was evil we would have killed our species off ! but we did not we did develop communities to protect ourselves and our families from other groups of humans who felt stressed and there by acted in greedy ways ,,, killing and stealing , in a world with many opportunities ......... feel the inner shoulds you have .

Being gay or lesbian .... Is living against a SHOULD ..... the core valueof loving and caring for another human is respected in those worlds those relationships ... the real core value of HUMANITY is expressed there ! but only because the idea that they do not make kids ... that was the problem to kings of old . reigon tied itself with kings and kings with religions ... kings need armies to protect the lands and to become larger to act out of greed in INHUMAN WAYS .... War ! they needed human tools people they could kill and use ,,, like beasts of burden ..... and gay people do not make babies ! hence the SHOULD not be gay ! dipshit as I wrote before 3 percent of births come with birthdefects ,,, a constant fact ,,, so the idea that sexuall defects ( defect sounds bad , it is not defective just ,,, just ,, is what iit is .... Not defect ) but defect , would allow for a possible of 3 percent of the population being gay .... Not the close to 15 percent we have today that represents ,, the sexual confusion of IGNORING THE TOA ... our inner nature . but having the guts to come out of the closet ............. And guess what for the most part today most people are accepting of gays ... big deal we all say what ever works for them ........

Well dipshit ,,,,, your respect for the inner animal truths of you aren your girl ,,, the understanding of the FACT . of Penitrator  and penetrated .... I have this thing that grows ahrd ,, I have this inner knowing that ,, that thing is supposed to be forced into another human ..... I FORCE IT INSIDE , I PUSH IT IN , OVER AND OVER AND OVER I FORCE IT BACK AND FORCE INSIDE THE BODY OF ANOTHER HUMAN ..... this is not inhuman or outside of core values .....  and the girls who know who feel who touch their animal self ..... realize that the pussy between their legs is empty ... yes they feel the emptiness ....... They know they nust submit to being penetrated ! .... To allow me to enter her forcefully , to control her hold her so that I can better and use her body for my PENETRATION..... yin and yang ,, basic ... natural good shit ..... DOM/sub lifestyle is very respectful of this truth ......... I am talking 24/7 relationships .. but even the SCENE only players , well they try ,, but they fear the SHOULD .. they fear and hide in the closet because of the fear about being found out ! .....

FOUND OUT? That people find that you and the female respct your inner animal ,, the nature of human kind ,,, in fact respect even the written words in their good book ,,, the book of should" s ..?

Now dumbfuck ,,, think about this , everday people see you and your subbie those who know you and the lifestyle choices of you two ,.,, well what do they see?  A happy couple?  You going to work everday like th good man you are ?  the tow of you functioning paying bills living the life right ... she cleaning and taking care of your house for you ,,,, loving you by her service to you ,, and you being the amle you like to be , going out into the world conquering shit everyday making some cash , enough to live comfortably on the ,, returning to have recreation ,,,, recreation ,, our only real true ... reaction for our species ... SEX .... Remember most sprots and most hobbies are some how related to work or food gathering again work ,,t hey are not rue recreation from an instinctual level ,, and drinking or watching tv ... well both of those are have their real roots in self destructive behavior the acts of human who hate life ......... ( we talked about this before but I will revisit the ideas someday )   Everyday people the world of shoulds see the expeterior of your life and see ... THE RIGHT AND GOOD ......... if they only knew that I am a sick shithead? You think to yourself ,,, but are you?  Both you and your subbie are happy and heathy , actually most of us are in better heath than the populations  averages ...   you if you have earned the right to be master ,,, must have first been able to master yourself right ?  great !  better than a lot of people correct ?.... but when the neighbors here your subbie screaming ,,, more MASTER PHILIP , more FUCK ME HARDER MASTER PHILIP ,,,,, when hear screams sound gagged or muffled ... and then the neighbors talk to you ..... maybe the both of you .... That person who pushes a book of should on you ... a book in which they describe your life style of DOM/sub ........ when they ... thye ... judge you because you use a whip to excite the body of a girl ,,,,, to excite !

Ever been to DISNEY , Bush Garden  or any theme park fuck even a local fair and rode the rides .... The rides are built around fear ! ... the fear of death ! ,, of stimuting excitement in an extreme ... EXTREME ... by threatening your inner animal with death ! and body damage ...... with fear of possible pain ... but the threat of real great pain and death .... Is the whip erally any different .... Is me holding her by the  throat realy that much different ,,, excitement ,,, is me choking her with my dick down her throat really any different ,, the safe guards that are built in amusement ,  a muse ment ( fun and excitement )  park rides ........ safe guards that my inner good human nature ... my love .. for living things ...... that I pull my hard , engorged extened cock out of her throat after I notice her struggle and let her gasp for air ....... Safe guards built into my DNA , love.

So ....... Out of the closet ,,, family friends ... my children old enough to understand the symbolism of the words .... MASTER PHILIP ........ have you got the guts to face the shoulds to understand how you ,,, you , a MASTER  have let yourself be mastered! When the reality is what you are doing is more natural and healthy than what the world of shoulds is living ... look at the the STAT ,, the amount of drunk worthless shits out there .. people who hit each other out of frustration and anger and CONFUSIONS .... I do not hit I excite , I drive and feell my nature and let my subbie feel her inner drive and nature , giving her ......... the OP ! to be a female..... the real her that the world of should has raped form her forced her to ignore , to live up to their SHOULDS ....... (  one of the cores of Zhungzi's Toa is the respect for our inner nature ... not the shoulds of Menicus )

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Master Philip do you want.....

Those words have been of such use for both of us to help us , remember each day wht we want .... What we want .... Both of us .. she does want the life style as much as you ... and you young master are the type of male that is very hard to find ,,, you are not perfect in fact your expectation for yourself is very un realistic .... You young master push yourself to create her smile as if you in some way are responsible ,,, but you are not.... You are not really ... try to think about all the time you are not in direct contact with her ... all the time you are out at work or where ever the time you are not in direct , in her life with your presence ,,, does she smile? Does she fuction ? of course she does ... yet her smile while you are there in the house with her ,, you feel that ,, some how you are responsible for her her smile or lack of smile ... when in fact .... The OUTSIDE world is more in control of her smile or lack of than you many times ..... BUT DIPSHIT , when she has to say to you something like MASTER PHILIP do you want to fuck me in the ass , along with her asking if I wanted to have get me the cell phone or get me a pen while I was on the phone or get me a coffee ..... the so many times she is just being polite and asking if she can help me out in some tiny way , make my life easy in so many little ways ,,, she has to think to her self " I am also going to offer to let my MASTER PHILIP pleasure himself some way with my body ... I am going to offer to stop my outside life for a while and just be with him ........ and I choose to do that ! "

And what it does for you .... Dumbfuck is fanastic ,,, hearing her say MASTER is music ... watching her shyly offer herself to you ... to push past her own programming to be openly submissive makes it all so real .

WOW communication .... Hmm interesting even the Vanilla world PRO's relationship professionals they talk about ,, talking ,, using our voice , but in their world you young master use your voice to act in an unnatural way a submissive a way of begging the female in your life ,, begging for her attention .. begging to get the thing which should never have to be g begged for ... but because of the stupid story the fairy tale that says ,, she is not an animal ... so her sexual drives and organs are almost separated from her own mind ...... so that she for gets her RESPONSIBILITY like in the marriage vows of old ,, to provide you with sex as you need ......... and what is worse she forgets how much fun getting fucked is ... the feel good the fun ,, the connection to you .... WOW communicating ..........   Communicating and ,,, and reminding eachother of the reasons you two ,, first even really talked , dated , kissed ........ WHY DI YOU TWO  kiss?  Did she kiss you that first time because she was thinking IF I KISS HIM HE MAY TEACH ME HOW TO RIGG PLASTIC WORMS SO THAT I CAN GO BASS FISHING ALLL BY MYSELF ?   do the girls you know really want to enjoy their firsts kisses thinking that the relationship with that male will be about ,,,, learning the shit important to him or teaching him the things important in her world ...... does that male really need to understand the details or practice putting a tampon in his pussy ( ooops I forgot he ain't got a pussy ) no ,, no ,,, no ,, talking leads to dating ... dating leads to kissing ..... kissing leads to fucking ........ fucking leads to laying down afterwards both of us tired , her body still cumming twitching ,,, cuddled up next me and we go to sleep .... Her in that safest place in the world that place in MIND BODY AND SPIRIT ,, where she is submissive to a male and the feeling of being protected by his arms ..... real deep down nature shit ... DNA shit ........... Communication starts it and amaintains it ,, what are you 2 really saying in your commucnation . is it just about the job ? the out side workd ?

Oooooh next is my safe word ,,,, in none of my study reading or anything else have I seen the idea of a masters SAFE word , actually the idea of safe word  for a MASTER at first glance seems WRONG ! ... but like so many other things at life ,,, you gotta realy think about it ..... safe  word ,,,, what comes to mind ais a person who has put her SAFETY in the hands of another .......... With this word she signals problems and then trusts the person to think about her to VALUE her ...... and then change what ever is happening to her ,, it maybe my actions th strength of my bite  or it maybe ,, the way she is sitting  and it is hurting her back ,,, but whatever is hurting she depends on me to value her and make it better ......but a master's safe word ,,,, I do not realy put my safety in her hands ... but to be honest with yourself you do put your love into her ..... you trsut her there to consider you .... And when you hurt you expect her to think about that and to VALUE YOU also and stop and change ,, whatever she can so that you hurt no longer also .... The fanasty of the silent slave someone who does not have her won thoughts or actions unless you let her ........ honestly my friend such a person is a pain in the ass , you need to think for her in every way then ... correct .. she LOSES value sinceshe can no longer use her brain to anticipate ways to make you life easier .... And she can not act with out your direction .... THE SLAVE FANASTY .... Sure maybe in role play ,,,to help swing the pendulum back towards submission to help her and you regain the YING AND YAN ... of your in nature's but I also value the intelligence of the  person ... like a good true master should .... SO to title the key word I have been using in our discuisuon  ,, titling it to be a safe word .... At certain level helps her remember how much she values , em ... VALUES'S , you dipshit ,, you YOUNG MASTER are a male she hdoes not come acrros very often 1 in 100 ..... a man who would study pussy like her studies fishing hunting or cars ....... A man who loves pussy ,, who has found the scent and taste of his inner drives .. are tied to that opening between the legs of female humans .... His truth in his inner animal ,, his protective nature and shi desire to find recreation in sex ,,, since I reality ,, fishing is food gathing that is work ! hunting is instinctual food gathering , again work ,, fixing up  a car as a hobby is working with beasts of burden like ox or horse or cow again that is work ... our only real recreation is SEX !     you dumbfuck now realize you hunger and love of her sex! And she VALUES THAT IN YOU !

And your safe word reminds her tht by choice you have put your safety in her hands ,,,, by choice ,, by choice ,, and if she does not respect that .... Well if you do not respect her safe word and you let her HURT  you ignore her when she is in pain while hwer back is hurting or some stupid plastic flower has fallen on the bed trapping itself under her creating sicomfort ... if you ignore the owwwies as you bite her ... if I damage her to often what will happen ? wel for her own safety she will have to leave ......... well dipshit ,,, when you use your safe word ....... STOP ....... In times when you are talking with her ,, when you start to feel those unnatural   UNNATURAL  feeling of submitting to her mentally .... When you say your SAFE word ..... she can remember how much she values you , how important you are to her ,,, why , why , why she even kissed you in the 1^st place ......... AND YOU direct things like a master should ...... you reponsiblity to LEAD !  by using a safe word ...... STOP ,, stop talking ,,, ( I am feeling wrong about in the converstion we are now happening ,,,,, you feel a something ... and you take the lead to tell her .... And end the hurt ... to allow her to remember how much she values you .... Or in time you also would leave like she would leave if you did not respect her safe word. )

Ooooh some thing real cool .. left field , but the fact that you dipshit , have a PMS cycle also ,,, your Testostrone levels change monthly .... The drug of men ,, like the girls estrogen which effects moods enhances her mood , makes it MORE ,, make her feelings ,,, feel MORE .... Your man drug , makes you feel ....... MORE and gues what shit head you have monthly cycles of higher and lower levels ,, you have a PERIOD ! AND PMS. THESE INNER CHEMICALS  are very strong do not!!!!! Ignore the facts about you inner drug factory your hormones 

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Just say fuck it ..........

Young master say it , she wants to serve and fucking is natural , in service she is finnaly free of STRESS ! Yes , the girl is free of stress she can fimmaly hand over her problems relax and do just what pleases you .. like like ... getting fucked .... Even if she does not climax every time so what , she has had lots of relationships where she idi not climax every time because the male was lacking in in dersire .. in a desire like I have to hear and see and ... feel a woman cummm , my big fun , yet some times I am just hard and gotta relieve the pressure ... and it is nice to just relieve the pressure not feel like I gotta make every act of sex .. to be a memory .. something special ... I can just say fuck and she will OBEY ........

LOVE HONOR AND OBEY .......... The wisdom of the ages destroyed by todays feminisn and we now have a world full of deressed females ,, 1 in 4 ,,, sick SICK , ths system is SICK !  we destroyed the idea of obey ,, we forgot the instinct of a good man ,,, in today training our young males to weak and not responsible males ..... the seeds you sow will ....... Willl ........... WELL we got some fucked up shit going on lots of unhappiness .. sure you got money ,, now you spend it on therapists and chemicals .......

Ohhh look here at the BDSM life style young master ,, I am surprised most people who trash me ( other than for my grammer and spelling ) trash me for my ideas ,,, they are MEN .  the girls read my shit and critic they discuss they feel already a lot of fantasy along the lines of my writing ........ they are looking to learn!  You! Dumbfuck well you are not open looking at the reality all around you ... LOOK DIPSHIT HERE AT THE CONTRACT .... Me a real person here some real words . These are the notes as of last nite ... this is  a season contract 3 month

Slave Debbie's

 I am asking for training in learning how to be the save girl you want and desire . ( she private notes she .. the female wants to be what you want! She wants to make you ahppy and there by gaining your devotion for ever ... cool idea young master to that girls want this the first thing she wrote interesting huh ? )         I am giving you control over my body and mind . You will have my best interest at heart ... then she scratched out and I will submit to you ,,,

She stops her preamble here to talk to me more we were both together writing our first drafts and talking a lot about the process ...          other notes she made she titled a list EXPECTAIONS HE HAS OF ME  followed by wht the master slave means to me ... my views of slavery ... my responsiblitlies  .. my motives ( hey that sounds like wht I have been doing during all ,, all , all ,,, my writing for over a year self understanding ). Then another preamble ... I Debbie give responsiblitly ro my Master Philip of taking me into consideration in our everyday ... ( MASTER/salve is more than just ordering her to suck your dick on command )                  she started another page Titled my responsibilities .. ( again her desire to serve is strong )  cleaning the house ... doing the laundry .. cooking ,, making the bed .. taking care of myself ( important to me because she is important to me and she can forget to take care of herself .... Hey dipshit you look around you at the 60 out of 10 girls who are getting FAT ! drinking to much and just not taking care of themselves )  .... Then she  writes ..... be willing to submit sexually whenever and where ever .. learn to speak the word MASTER PHILIP more freely ........ learn to speak the words he wants to hear ...... learn to stop before I speak listen and think .... Let go of my dominance ..... OK SHE  wrote that over 3 pages some here and there just notes ,,,,while I wrote this

MASTER PHILIP's

As a master I am expressing my nature as builder of MY ife and style of living . This urge is not met disrupts my world. I accept this truth about myself. The title and the expectation of power going along with the title MASTER  , I feel carry braod reaching rights covering aspects of my slaves life in and out of the bedroom. Yet as MASTER I understand full well and deeply the value a person who would commit to me in such a form as to become my " Slave "

My Responsibilitie will be to first and always // to the best of my JUDGEMENT AND ABLITLY  act or request that my slave act in a way good and healthy for her in the long term! To increase her " Value " in her own self worth and in my reliance in her and her value and love in my eyes and heart.

I epect Slave debbie to trust my ideas , at once! Yet stop any activity which she may feel is DANGEROUS ant once . If Slave Debbie disagrees with any.. of my ideas she can reply in writing at anytime ( this was my preamble )  

Then I went on to important issues

Sexual issues .... Slave Debbie will be monagomous 1 on 1 with Master Philip .. requests of Master Philip within legal terms will be followed at once  ( basically the above says anything goes within legal limits )... Slave Debbie to be faithful and self control in flirting ane will stop when I use a safe / stop word . Master Philip understands the nature of a pretty woman to naturally attract male attention an un intentional flirting as part and parcel of being a female .

Master Philip to be faithful and self contro flirting when he realizes and will accept ..... Slave Debbie will understand the nature of the male to express caring and protectivenese that Master Phil may show to varied females .  ( OK understand we just went thru a time when I used a [pet word that I call my Debbie ,, well I used that same word with an ex - wife ..... wow big problem but understandable .... And the poly writing of my past few weeks ... all have a part to play in this being a big topic for me ! the competitive nature can be creatively harnessed or it can destroy ... like fire is our friend if controlled !other wise it will destroy )

Ok sex part is pretty easy ... whatever I want when I want and she has a safe word ,,, we just firmed up our safe word ........ owwie has become my barometer word I tell her state by her use and volume of the word .... So that could not be used as a safe word a word I will stop the scene and totally !   so ,, the word that came out of her ,,, was STOP !  simple easy to understand and a word she has as of yet never realy used ..... owwies was the safe word but honestly she also used it to tell me , what her state was not to STOP ! so I now have a hard safe word ,, that means I can dowhtever I want .... And I will not stop unless I get a STOP! Or I get tired or she gets tired or whatever .... But I am free to do whatever I want except ,, bagging , scat , and blood sport ...

On the non - sexual side ........... carreer , finances , house hold  , family , kids ....... Boiled down to this 1 ideas .... Listen to what I say , go ahead and question me about anything if you feel the need .. but first trust that I do things and recommend thngs that I feel are in the best interest of everyone .. look at the life I have already built ! so it goes back to listen do what I want if you have a problem please write it down .... If you she needs to understand and learn please tell me that you want to learn ....I HAVE A SAFE WORD IN THE NON SEXUAL WORLD .. it is here where my domance is tested most oftern sexual dominace is an effect of nature but in the outer world she has become a DOM by default .... So my level so safe words go as such ,, .... Listen ... hear me ... stop ... some time what she feels is learning asking questions I perceive as a buck .... When it goes on to long .... At that time I expect a written dialog for me to better be able to discuss the topic with in 24 hours ! 

Punsihment ... we have already had a spanking for punishment for learning for discipline ... and that will be one of the major tools I will use to say .... I feel bucked !  Since the emotionall hurt I caused her was so fresh she fears it's repetition and she wants some sort of visible way of seeing that I care enough to go out of my way to show I heard her PAIN ... so she asked I bring her a flower ... I said I would buy her an ORCHID ... it lives for a long time easy to grow around my house wilf out in thress ( I already have 20 in the wild ) plus the expression of my feelings I can express in the varied nature of these flowers . So I also have a punishment a responsibility act.

I had written a clause saying that we would not include any 3^rd party f during these 3 months ........ she wants to ignore this to delete it , since well it is a painful reality of our pasts and our natures .. I agreed and scratched out all reference to 3^rd party ( 1 on 1 I feel I want yes ,, I feel it is improbable not impossible but almost unnatural ... but yet I want a 1 on 1 also so I scatched it out freely )

Now you gotta get the idea we had 5 books on the BDSM life style that we have been studying for weeks we used these as reference ... along with the vows we each had used in our past marriages ... and our experiences .. to come up with the above ruff drafts of a 3 month  BDSM life style contract .... Not to type it up fill in the list of activities we agree to explore during these 3 months yes I a certain limits of interest myself that are similar to hers ... but I respect the idea that other things maybe tried after the 3 months ...... the desire for the subbie to explore SUBSPACE , the high of the Endorphine the drug store of the human body ,, the generating of self medications ,a dn recreational naturally produces chemcils ... SEX CREATES FEEL GOOD HORMONES ... a lil' spice ,, a little sting produces natures own herion endorhines ... BDSM is not weird ,, just read the books shit head .... STUDY PUSSY LIKE YOU WOULD FISHING !

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Her Gift ..... submission

Ok , so young master I hope you have had enough girlfriends in your life to understand the difference between a girl who is really trying to be submissive and a girl who does not understand the concept of being femine and submissive of being more inline with her inner nature ......... I have I dipshit repeated the idea of our inner animal natures as eveidenced by the way we fuck , and how important and driving the sex .. our need , our compulsion to have sex is ..... dipshit have you taken the time to notice the girls magaizines at the store counter .... Just read them and understand if it is about how she dresses ,,, that is attraction seduction ,,, sex ! ,,, if it is about relationships ,,, hey again deirectly about male and female , and why do we bond ,, because she ,, she feels empty with out a dick inside her body ,,, really dipshit they ffeel a hoolow feeling that is sort of painful ........ is the headline about losing weight ... hey attraction sedcuition sex! And well if the headline says the Positions that HE desires     well can it get any clearer sex!  .... Look at the advertising how the companies use good looking females to attract attention ....... Sex sex sex sex ... so dumbfuck please do not lie to yourself ........

This is important because like in the movie THE STORY OF   O     the line where Sir. Stephen talks to O and says ,,, that her choice to be in the life style is for her to free herself , her sexuality ........ even though you feel that the girls you are fucking are free sexually , they are not in that they must be sexually assertive to get you ,,, you shy fuck to get your sttention and get you on top of them and hard fucking them .... Now I am not blaming you honest I am not young master you are truly a victim of your NURTURE  not your nature ,,, the training you have been given to be civil ,, well civil is fine ,, but sex is not civil , it is hot forceful and passionate and lust full , it is raw desire and feelings ... it is sweaty and full of real life mistakes .... Not like fanasty since somethings are not going to go perfect! Like it does in the dream state the fansty state , in the fansty state , the way I rub her clit in her mind is perfcet and she cummms ahrd and quickly ......... and you also dipshit are kinda a victim to fantasy .... You live in your dreams so often that your dick your libido does not function as well in real life ..... evidence that this is a problem is that by age 25 you have a 1 in 2 ,, that is 1 in 2 ,,, that is insane .. 1 in2 chance or guarantee of having erectile disfunction ..... it is mental .  the difference between fantasy and what is your reality ......... but

SHE GIVES you a gift ! I am here to please you! And I KNOW that my happiness is tied to me succeeding in pleasing you ........ I finally understand that truth in myself !  hey a girl who is living like that gives you a gift that no other chick ever really gave over the long run .... Now the formal MASTER PHILIP reminds both of you of her gift . The trust to accept it , sounds like something impossible to be of problem , but dipshit depending on your back ground that will be a stumbling block ,,,, her formal use of Of MASTER will help ....... Then tthen then ... there is the stupid little things that life is full of ........ like insulting the gift her has given you.  The competive nature of the female as shown in her study in her magazines , her study and concern about seduction and sex ,, well the evidence about her her concern about competition is an every minute part of her life .... ( the drive behind poly , yet the choice of sisterhood tempered that nature ..... but we my girl and I are finally BACK ON THE BDSM TRACK .... No poly writing )  . There is a nature in me ... to be nice to females .. to be concermed and protective etc. etc .... It is in my nature ...... even when that female my have in the past PISSED ME THE FUCK OFF! BIG TIME . I will still have certain instinctual reactions to her ........ and that could trigger the insult! To the gift your subbie has given you !

In your contract , you and she wrote that you are to help her in ways ,, many many ways ,,, wand well understanding the dynamsics of your nature is 1 and her own nature is the other .......... Just like her if I fulfill her inner core balues there is now way any other male will get open access to her pussy ,, it is in lock doen reerved for me .... And like wise as she also is fulfilling my core vlues , well I am focused on getting back home to her ASAP because with her I have what I want ,,, my core values ,, so chasing hunting other pussy is a non event ... but yes you will be polite and happy for other women ,,,,,, and that will cuse her problems ..her ? your subbie shithead it will cause her problems especially when you understand how much she has given you ,,, how many mental barriers she has pasted in herself to give herself to you as your subbie ........ the programming she has already re - written in her mind .. the effort .. then for her that gift that rust can be insulted very quicly ,,, the trust broken .... It is OK the learning curve for both of you is important ....... HER FANASTY of you also comes into play , her fanasty about how you will be after she gives you her gift ........ and then the reality .. it takes times ,, it takes your mastery and concern young mster .

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Belt whipping a feminist ? by her choice !

Ok , my girl is not like an extremist feminist , but she has proven herself in the world . able to handle the pressure to be The Manager in the restaurant business for years , being the boss , completeing a tech. school and shit .... All the things that femeinism helped women feel comfortable doing , well ......... yesterday she submitted not to sex play spanking or a whipping using that fancy whip bought at a sex toy store ... no ! no playing no fun for either of us .   She got disiplilned by me in a way I have never even done to any of the 7 children I have raised ( steps and bio's ) ... I never spanked any of my kids only once did the eye for  an eye with one lil' one ...like they suggest you got a biter well bite him back ... he will get the message ... biting hurts!  BUT , it was so fucking strange unreal for both of us .....

Young master ,,, when you do this someday ,, not for play but by agreement you will understand the difference ... the difference between play and discipline you taking a right that she gives to you ,, a right she freely gives to you to teach her to be what YOU WANT ! .... Thank god for all the books we have been studying and , I am glad I had studied discipline when it comes to my kids because both learning was blened yesterday after .... She had a hard time in sayig what I wanted her to say ... remember yesterday's blog where I was talking about when she offeres me something regular like my second cup of coffee after work ,,, I want her to ... my desire ... my want .. is that she offers her SELF sexually .... With her spoken words directly and use the word the title MASTER when addressing me ! and the good girl in her would not let her say the words .... Hmmm interesting ,,, I KNOW DIPSHIT the girls can be so slutty especially in the beginning of the relationship they throw themselves into your arms , their legs spread wide with the slightest of touch ,,,, it feels as if ,, they are coming on to you ,,, but as I have heard form the vast majority of girls I have had ,,,, they always feel like it was me... ME who was coming on to them .... When I felt many many  many times I was being led to the bed by their hand ........ CONFUSIONS .... That later on expresses it self over and over in the lack of sex in the relationship ,, you do and did respect her ,,, in your mind she was ALMOST THE AGGRESSOR sexually , you ,,, mr. nice guy ,,,,yuyou were not being bossy demanding or disrespectful ,, the girl was hot and you fucked her ... and fucked her , and fucked her ,, and ,, and ... and ... THIS DEEP confusion , the fucked up fairy tale shit kept her from doing exactly what I wanted and that meant I had to LOVE HER ,,, to teach her to become what I want ........ and words ,,, words will not do the trick ...... I do not care what all the books say ...... HERE IN THE MALE/ female REALTIONSHIP  the expression of pyshical dominace is needed ...... real discomfort ,, embarrsement ,, hum ... mil .... Lity ( humiliation ? ) being human .. a female human the 1 who is penetrated ... by a penetrator ...  she is designed to be submissive , in her body in sex ,,, it is the natural design of her kind .. of her sex ..... I AM BUILT to pentrate to force myself into her body and continue to ram myself into over and over ,, THINK DUMBASS ,r eally think see feel ..sex! So to love her to prove I think she is worth my time I must give her that ,,, that ,, my time ,,,I must want her enough to go out of the way to discipline ,, to teach her exactly what I want .   Or I could just say from a distance ,,, just words traveling thru empty space whether the space is 2 feet or the other side of a mountain valley way over yonder ,,, I could have just told her to discipline herself .... And NOT GIVEN HER MY TIME ! she knows what was wrong she is super smart ,,, educated , a manger my equal .... The idea  that I need to whip her to teach her ... MY LESSON .. well it honestly fellt so fake to each of us .......... But we did  IT!

In discipline with kids you set up a special for time out , that way displine is not subconciuosly associated with regular life ,, like wise with YOUR  subbie YOUNG MASTER   you must make this separate for a spanking or whipping for SM sexual excitement ! in SM she in her mind trips she gets high on endorphins and she enters " Subspace " some of the best drugs MONEY can not buy .... The purchase price is submission !   so make sure your discipline is different .... I took off the fuuzy covering from the ahnd cuffs .... The idea  of bondage in discipline ... go hadn in hand BDSM  bondage and discipline ... BD .... Then I just exposed her ass , not sex no kissing ,,, just bend over and I used an item a STRAP  a leather barbers strap that she already told me hurts .... And reddened her ass ,, I honestly was holding back ,,, but that things just cuts into soft ass flesh like nothing else ,,, you can not bring it down in a non - painful way ... and during the discipline we went over what I wanted to hear from her .... Now understand I was patient , I encouraged her to say the humiliating expression the offer .. the words , and " do you want another coffee honey? And would you like to fuck my pussy MASTER ! "  I waited , and she stammered ,,, I whispered the words into her ear , and she shyed away .......... I said again this is what I want form you ... I want to you to ask to offer yourself to me for my use ,,,  and with a giggle she said she could not do it , to say those few words .... And I aid IT IS OK but I will have to discipline you , ... well it was right at the time dinner was being finished the buzzer stqrted buzzing as we entered the house  it was time for the FAMILY dinner ,,  a DAD a mom and 2 children having dinner ,,, The DAD and the mom knowing all the while when dinner is done she will get disciplined she will get HIT! Buy the male in her life her lover , the guy she loves that she trusts ,,, this guy is going to hit her body ,, to teach her something !!! isn't this agaist the law or something ? isn't this ABUSE !  ( honestly , young master my well trained legal law abiding inner self was saying that to me! Isn't this abuse ? )  NO .... NO .... NO  a 1000 times NO!  

Todays woman wanted to be equal ,, and she is unhappy on anti depressants .... Hiding in recreational drugs and alcohol in number reaching 3  three women out of every 4 .. in pain ,, sure she has equality and and and ,, INTERANAL unhappiness ,, emptiness and pain ! they ,, so women still drunk with their own equality think their happiness will be found in further controlling you young master ,, in directing you in taking control of the familya dn relationship ,,, but the figures the STATS they do not lie ! the un happiness is every where ,, her inner animals    cry out in pain then hide in escape ( food , TV , drugs beer or work or hobbys ) or medications , illness and doctors getting their attention by purchsasing the attention of a Therapsit or doctor ........ purschasing attention ,, pursching the the concerm of the time of another person ....

I gave her my concerm , my time .... My love with that leather strap across her ass! Then covered her bottom and held her and kissed her ,, both of us felt confusions ... there was not sex or fun or passion .... This was DISIPLINE ! not a game. .......... Think about this dipshit it is way deeper than the words I write fuckhead way ficking more confusing against the grain of your life long PROGRAMING AND HERS .

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Would like a blow job with the coffee?

I am laughing to myself like a teenager when I think about that phrase , we ,,, we adults t hink about sex as the same as teenagers we ...You also young master fucking play ili' games and chuckle and laugh hiding you discomfort and shyness ........ and I gotta realized my own tendency to atleast feel it , not ignore it , because everytime I gnore reality it comes back later creeping back into pyshce  into my personality and bites me in the ass , and that hurts , and fucks things up ........... WHAT DO I WANT ! she wants to be my TREASURE ! the idea of being treasured by me made he weep her head down hiding it to herself ,, her deepest inner desire to be wanted and needed by some one who feels her presence in his life makes her his greatest treasure ..... MY GREATEST TREASURE . but to realize that I must realize myself and my wants ,,, and those wants reflect things that I feel are personal and private weakness on my part ......... ( even though it may not be really weakness ... but male egop views it as such )

In advertising ... sometimes the headline must first ID the need ,, the problem that the reader my have in their life , the subhead hints at that your product/service satifies the problem the reader has ,, then the body goes over the details .... Often my style of approaching my girl is to first present my logic ,,, to talk about the problem ( which maybe my my own ) then the logic the benefit to her then the solutions ......... it can seem every much a hassle ,,,, but to just present the soloution often leads to a buck form the people I am looking to lead ......... old mamagement habits .

So , the issue is sex ..... great fun for her great fun and a need of mine .... Now a good girl does not like to ask for sex ,, she has been trained by the world not to ask for sex or ... or offer sex ... good girls do not do that .. right ! .... But is my treasure my slave is she supposed to satisfy the world  OR ME?  Me I need to train her to satify me .. what I want .. what will make me happiest amd most relaxed , yet a part of me is always tied to my own old programming of what is correct and moral ( kinda moral is the worng word ) but what is right .... I gotta pass these things or the old problems will return ,, that is a fact ,, we have seen it in our own life just over the last few weeks ,,, I saw it yesterday in meeting a friend at the supermarket and finding out hee is in divorce court ,,,, again over and over the fairy tale the WAY that SHOULD work DOES NOT ! work .  And I want this very pretty girl Debbie to be my truest treasure ,,, I gotta have the wear with all to do what is right for us! .......... And that meant thinking about wants and whys ,,,, and the whys were important but I amy get into them later important young mster for you to think about your past and learn form it ,,,,

So my problem is sex , amking sure it is the constant recreation ,, that we engage in sex first watch movies , or do other things second , because when a couple is engaged in sex play in the sexual teasing like I did to her yesterday ,,, she and I are closer than at any other time ,, I am totally focused on her and she on me , and we are high our blood streams full of feel good hormones the drugs of love and desire ....... There is no real good reason that any thing else should interfere wit our BEST time our closet time our ex time,,, really every time that fairy tale idea that other things like sports or movies or work or money or anything else  is equal in importance to sex , the people who live as the Fairy tale recommends ,, well they become the friend I met in the supermarket line ,,,, now , look at DOM/subbies who truly live the lifestyle fully ,,, that she gives totally of herself , gives up her ego with her DOM ,,, then they make it and make it strong for ever that I have seen ,,, but the EGO of both must mesh ,, the DOM must build his in terms of the relationship and she must decrease hers in terms of the relationship .... I was reading about submissive ego in a book about a female Domonmatirx pro who became a Subbie/slave and found happiness becoming a treasure by becoming an OBJECT .... The extreme lead to actually her becoming the most important thing in her masters life by becoming something that form the outside was treated as having no ... no .. value .. strange ( yin and yang if you think deeply ) 

The problem stated above .... The solution we already both accept the MASTER/slave contract .... The 3 month training contract .... Think of it like a plant ,, the seed of a relationship will germinate in a few days ,, the love willl grow .. the baby plant pokes it's leaf above the soil ,,, but it takes a season for the roots to grow for the plant to become stable ..... a season a summer ...3 months ... now 21 days will make a habit but even positive habits are very easy to fall out of ...... so the 3 months helps the need ,, the roots to grown deep into our souls and understanding .........

Here is a detail .... An order from MASTER  ( the I want you to form a DOM to a true subbie who hearing those words thinks first of his want .... Or does she ? what comes to mind first ? honestly later ia the relationship goes into the Fairy tale state what does come th mind of the subbie after the first dating weeks passby ? ) she already askes me if I want this or that , if I want another coffee . or if she should take away the paltes or the coffee cups .... are you done? Do you want me to take your cup ? ..... what would you like for dinner ? so many thing she offers to do for me .......... Well now add something to each and everyone of those loving questions of service offer ... yes offer .... Offer YOURSELF slave girl ( I have been using salve girl in person at certain minutes of desire and passion to prep the  mind to touch the fansty ) oooh the want K.I.S.S keep it simple sam ..... after each of her questions I want her to say ... do you want a blow job with that .. and to make sure that she offers each genral type of sex act I expect her to change the offer each time , blow job ... do you want to fuck my pussy .. my ass ... hand job .. do you want to tease and play with me just to watch me cummm MASTER ?  mpw saying master out in the vanilla world can be uncomfortable for both of us our family listening even though the adults family members know our LIFE STYLE  chooses the younger ones will be confused and also strangers ....... Asking things like that aloud can also be uncomfortable but a whisper in my ear can work wonders ... so ... in the presence of other whisper your other offer in my ear .  

We have not realy gotten into DISIPLINE to spanking for a real reason .... Here is an OP ... ( honestly this ties big time into my past confusuions about BDSM over a decade ago having a girl who I spanked to satify her sexual desries , but was finding that she was twisting it in her mind and experience into pusnishment ... wow I was not ready way back then .... But NOW ... I am more ready ... WHEN THE STUDENT IS READY THE TEACHER WILL APPEAR )  to disiplein ,,, to live and understand the truth under lieing a current popular movie Running With Scissors .... The idea the love of putting out limits and holding the ones you love to those limits ,,, especially in a MASTER / slave learning contract .  I have to discipline her , to spank her for real with my RIGHT TO DO IT  understond and wanted ... wanted .. by both ... she in tears weeping on her knees in front of me ... wants to be A TREASURE !   I must be a man ! and spank that qwhich I love an respect ... I respect ofr her strength her intelligence her guts ... her in every way the fairy tale says should be enough for us to live happy ever after YET WE WOULD FAIL IN THE FAITY TALE WORLD ...... can you feel young amster the confusion have you felt it in your own life ?

Now the idea of offering sex ..... gives me the right to take her up on the offer 10 times a day ........... we will be doing that activity which we human animals were designed to enjoy as our main ,,, main form of recreation ,, the core ,, that brought her and I together ,, you andevery woman you have ever been sexual with became sexual because of ... our animal deepest DNA drive for sex .. recreational sex ,, we as animals are NOT ! limited to having sex during a rutting season like many animals NO! we are designed to enjoy lots and lots of recreational sex ... like we did bofre all the great fun things that money can buy came into our lives before stores and shit and buyin beer and watching TV .. our animal recreation was to spend all day just fucking slowly watching your female CUMM!

By forcing her to offer sex to me ... I force her to break her good girl persona.. her fake fairy tale self .. in my presence and become a treasure to me!  A TREASURE TO ME .... To me , my treasure . She offers her body for OUR RECREATION . ( why do I want this , that oges back to all my past training and programming to deal with females stemming as far back as the interactions with the mother ... dipshit my friend you gotta kinda go over all your programming and interactions and learn what is GOOOD FOR YOU ! ,, THEN let her satify that that need for .. the BOTH of you . what is good for you is what is good for her RiGHT that is what she says when she askes to become your subbie your slave girl )

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Sexual peace and ........

That translates into life peace , understanding she has earned a piece of the world finally somewhere and with wome one where she has proven that she has worth .  The world has lied to the submissive girl to often saying YES we respect you and love now ......GO AWAY ... and this reality every where she goes has hurt the girl that comes to you until the point she really nneds of you ! you ... YOUNG MASTER to change to become what is deep in you a MASTER , dipshit a master like I was talking with you Saturady night and I was talking about that feeling you have , that something you keep trying to push down , because you have been told all your life that you should be NICE and POLITE that you try to ignore the feeling of INSULT you feel in the words and actions of the girlsin your life , to the point you have confused your own nture ,, TWISTED  your own INSTINCT ... an instinct to be a dependable reasonable Mr.  MR.    that prefix we still use that spems for the history of the human animal that we all realy deeply feel ,,, you my fine young friend are a MR. ,,,,, MASTER . TO BE RESPECTED  in and out of the sexual bedroom ... to amny good men ... dipshit are so confused that we can not even accept ,, feely given total submission ,,, FREEDOM OF CHOICE ,  she has gone out of her way to show you her submission to prove it ,,, and when she fails you she says " I AM SOPRRY "  she feels bad in fact she wants discipline for her trangressions to learn to be better to porve to you that she is really really trying to be a girl you will always want ...... earning a place in life finally ,,, somewhere she can believe she will be VALUED ,, and by some one who will not throw her away but see in her a value that he ... you dumbfuck  , you are her .. he ... you will make the effort to trin her into whatever it is that you desire ,, whtever it is that you can not live without ... WHATEVER you want !  receive her gift do not confuse her any longer with to many choices or decisions ,, having her guess at what you want .........

This NICE GUY  age ,, has confused both of you ...... both wanting the other to be happy neither one can read the deepest thoughts of the other or feel those little tiny injury and insults we by accident cause in the heart and mind of the other ,,, so instead of continueing in the world of confusion ......... The MASTER says ,, enough ,,, I want you I care enough to trin you exactly into the type of girl I have ALWAYS needed ..... and guess what , dipshit ... guess what fool ... that , that , act on your part to say that you will put in the effort to train her ,,, you love and desire her enough to teach her how to love you ,,, RESPECT  you in and out of bed .. in the exact way that you will finally be happy and calm and relaxed and peaceful ... your effort ! to become her private MASTER ,...  gives her concrete evidence of your love for her !   concrete ,,,, and the best way to make sure you both rmemeber , because life is busy so much shit going on ,,, WRIT E THE GOD DAMMED ..... CONTRACT ....  OR YOU BOTH WILL FORGET THE CONCEPTS RETURN TO FAILED PLANS AND FAIRY TALE BELIEFS ,,, AND WELL YOU WILL EACH START TO DEEP DOWN hate the other for small insults and hurts ,,, when in reality she wanted in the first place to become your property to become trained by you as you have always dreamed a girl could be trained by you ,,,, but you ... your deep nice guy training has not allowed you to think outside of the polite nice guy box .... The failed box of the fairy tale ....... Just hink about it ,, finally one girl who will be absolutely everything and anything that you want when ever she is in your presence ,,, in fact even long distance in another state still she will look to you to be her anchor ,,, you provide so much for this girl ,, and you desire it ..... YES DIPSHIT YOU DERSRVE IT .... You are a good man ... you deserve it!  Get that ideal in your mind ,,, and thenm taking her submission and training her into what you want will be easier ,,, you dumbfuck do deserve it .... She is agood girl and she deserves to finnaly be able to relax and traut that finnaly atleast one man one person in this crazy world see VALUE in her ,, when everyone else has lied to her , left her ,, fired her at work ,, used her abused her mentally physically ,, her money and respect ,t aken stolen used .... Just listen to the stories she talks about .... You finnaly now give her a stable world ,,, and it is that you have creaeted a some what stable world for yourself first ,, that you prove to her ,,, your worth ,,, and now she wants , she begs you PLEASE ACCEPT ME for who I am deep inside ,, do not laugh or think me strange ,,, love be protect ,,, I want nothing more than to serve really!  I will fail , but do not cst me away ,, but train , please train I will listen I will understand your logic in time please take time with me !!!! that is what she is sying .. over and over and over ,, can you here it ,,, is it hard to understand a new language OK , Young Master think about it like a new language ,,,, like Dutch , Spanish , French , your Jargo at work ... she speaks in female-eeeze ... learn to translate her body language and spoken language ,, and the make her happy ,, how BY TRAININ HER TO BE EXACTLY WHAT YOU HAVE ALWAYS WANTED ! every fansty you can live , with a little time and training ,, when she trusts that you have her well fare her safety and life in your heart ,, there is nothing wh  will not be able to learn to do ,,, slowly ,,, so she get used it ,,, and TRUSTS YOU .

THE CONTRACT .... Will help ,,, you will not even neeed to demand her to sign it , she is waiting for you ,, for you to write it ... she is with you knowing that she will sign or do anything for a good man , and she seeing in you a good man ... her MR. Start out with the word master in sex play  I should write about that and how getting close quicly can confuse the slow evolution of " so you say my god my god  ,, who is your god ,, who is your master , feel my cock girl who is your god your master ,,, SAY girl , SAY FUCK ME MASTER say it ! ".... Getting to close to  quick can destroy the op's for that type of play ,,but now make it more than play make it a commitment

Oh here ...her words ,, to you , the words that you want to hear from her .. tell her that!I want to heat this these type of words from you ... for me to really understand and feel ... how important my job is in your life .... I your submissive beg you master for your assistance in my life , in controlling my actions and handling my feelings and desires in and out of your presence . I want to be your slave and to provide you with pleasures and peace in all aspects of your life and world , to please you in any way you want at any time you want . I need your DOMINATION , your control and training to become whatever you want me to be . I am grateful that you ove me ehough to make this effort to own me to teach me to love you as my master and that you desire to have me in your life as your submissive slave . Please teach in any way  you desire , training reaning and discipline me to become the best I can be to make you happy Master . I promise that in the deepest part of my body and mind and heart I want to be submissive to you to kneel before you and love you . I want and ask that you test my trust my reslolve and allow me to prove to my effort and where I fail I will submit to your teaching and training in all good faith and with total effort and concentration on my part to become better in all ways to serve you and there by earn my place in the world my world , which is in your world ..... master pleae I take this list of activities as evidence of my commitment to you , I prosmise to serve you MASTER in these ways and put all my effprt into learning to serve you in other ways as you request ....  AND WELL AFTER THIS is alist of actions that you two have already some what discussed , the things important to you master and realize they are important to her ... remember the depth of her longing to find a GOOD MAN !

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Walk ,, go walk today and tomorrow

It will be an impostion ,, she is outa town with family and friends it is their time with her , ( their time remember ... no master before you ... to please her family and friends the submissive will feel the nned to respect them and not you ) they become to the submissive the master ,, they become a master of sorts a pleaser .... ( notice this in you young master and notice the unfelt resentments you hold ) so I ask her long distanst via email ........ honey go for a walk   just to the end of the block yes I know it maybe wet it maybe clod ( it will be cold that is why I ask only to the end of the block , I expect it to be cold this is amental cleafication as much as physical exercise)

What does it benefit me? If she does this how does this make her DOM smile , well she is important to me the habit she ahs been starting of her daily walk will strengthen her back , her weakest point in the way best and natural for her ,,, ahbit are easy to fall out of and hard to start .... So just making the token the lil' effort keeps her habit in place her choice ,,, next the effect of doing this for PHIL ,,, to leave her family and friends for a few minutes is a mind set on her part a remeinder of her choice of Mr.? master or mister . Letting everyone else wait patiently ,, will they not give her 5 minutes is she not that important ..... she is that important to give her 5 minutes alone .. ( hey kinda like the importance of a son in calling his mother is she not that important ? to just give her a call) the 5 minutes alone outside , cleaning the mind and spirit and she breaths fresh air ,,, and moves her body and heart .... Plus plus a hidden benift ,, to the people important to her is her example! Her going out to walk is an example ! setting this example exercise is important  to someone important to her ......... SO WHAT DO I GET OUT OF THIS ,, as a DOM I am supposed to be expressing my self hidden fanstys right? Why do you like seeing a woman cummmm? Huh why ? well she walking is good for her , the better she is the happier I am ,,,, so I ask walk and I expect to hear ,,, but but but , if I were to talk to her in person ,,, that DOM by default we have trained or let the world train our girls into becoming the girl they in reality fantasize about not being ! ... she will say but but but , she will be thinking about the other masters in her life ,,, pleasing them . yes I know it will be cold but the cold is good for you it is healthy to expose your self to the elements safely to feel nature . sanely .. I just came back from my run the grass wett and cold ... my wett became cold and numb ... it is ok , in fact good for a person in limited ways .

The but but but translated in your heady young master is ..... buck buck buck .. that is what you feel you hear ,, the trust that you will not receive bucks is hard , that is the long time term training and trust building ,,, her in that your request are in reality for her benift no matter how weird ,,, remember your smile is hers ... so so of your wiereder requests mayb ewelll , just semm weird ,,, but they help her because they make you smile ... ohh back to walking ........ she can say yes , and then not do it ,,, do I care will I know ,,, NO I will not know but her inner self will no ,, and the slip down the rod to where she odoes not want to go will return .... Her inner motivations .  to be able to say all this to a DOM girl is difficult to say all thses ideas to your girl will be difficult ..... does not mean you can not find other methods of talking some times , talking in a way that she can not say but but but about giving herself what she wants ............ why did she choose you ? and you ask her to do what ? walk to the end of the block and then back ... today and before you leave tomorrow ............ what will she feel ,, how will she learn ,, and best is that she keeps up her positive habit of walking .

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Jackin' off to ....

I said young master it is what you use during that , during your time releaving pressure , jackin off it is those , dreams ideas thoughts visions , that honestly you push them so far down that they in fact effect you in negative ways ,,, and the idea of expressing your DOM. SIDE COMING OUT OF THE bdsm CLOSET you get to clean up the repressions and free yourself ,,,,,, plus you will do nothing with any girl that the girl does not also want but often she is to shy ( like the good girl she ,,,,) she is to shy to express you lead her where she wants to go respecting her safe word ,,,, NOW SOMEthing about safe words it is frustrating when in the beginning they use the safe word to much but remember this is the beginning with her ... as the trust builds she will use her safe less as you guide her to using it less as you pass thru ..... honestly that is where talking must come in to re -difine ,,,RE DEFINE  her safe word after trust has be felt by her ....... Ohh fuck I am supposed to be talking about jackin'off and fanasty ........ see for the first time im many months I am alone .... Wow this is weird I do not like it ... so I have had to service myself and that means using the largest sexual organ a lot ,,, the largest organ is your brain and fanasty there in .... I also was using some porn that mygirl frined brought ..... interesting to have this access to her fanasty in her choice of which porn she keeps and carries with her in her travels thru life plus remembiong the porn she talked about seeing etc etc.   all hints to places she my want to go but will not say so ,,, she being a good like always , the innocent girl that I want her to stay and your job as master ,,, dipshit is to guide her safely there and back into rel life fanasty and back to being a good girl ... just a girl . Young master if you do not learn to do it then she will live her fanasty with a DUCK  yes and no if it walks like a duck and sounds lika duck it must be a duck and old saying ,,, well if it sounds like a man acts like a man maybe walks like a man but but but YOU HAVE TO BUY IT A ........ PENIS .... It is not a DUCK ! it is not a man !  then why why submit to it .... A fantasy of a fantasy ....... There are not enough DOMINATE males no there are not enough to satify the amount of girl who dream because they all dream every girl every human dreams of things ,,, and why do we dream why do they dream ......

What have I dreamed these last few days ,,,,, I said I am coming out! And I have been saying things to the whole world now for over a year self publishing my book ,,, and world wide web blogging ........ I have taken on the part of teacher and mentor again like I did for Phils Bait and Tackle ,,, taking my limit love for something my limited experience then growning in experience and skill and study then teaching ,,,,,,, her video was a 2 on 1 vidoe many many double pentrations , well that is something I do some what regular anyway using toys and it is great all girls get fanstic orgasisms .......... But that leads me into the idea of more than one girl ,,,,,,, WRONG , my girl needs to know she is special and that she will never never be put aside ,,, that she will be ( I will use the slave words for weeks to explore the swing of a pendulum in the mind of her myself and you dipshit ) she will be my numbe 1 slave ,,, but means she realy realy has to learn to serve me as I realy deeply truly need to feel the peace in my life I have always searched for and she still needs to maintain her freedom of choice and her right to speak ,,,, but the effect of her DOM nature sometimes has caused me stress , a sence of buck lil' thng s in lil' ways small subconsiuio tones of voice ans shit things that are very hard for her to change to switch off like a lite bulb , but things that would leave her in time sometimes what is needed for person to make such changes is extremer levels of training ........ do you got the guts you master do you trust her enough to lead her where she wants to go ..... next for me is the idea of having The Byrd come over and re-build the garage into a good sound proof play room that is big bucks and a year long plan plus ...... ohhh the time needed to explore turst to build her into some one I can not live without ( no I am sorry the idea of some I can not .. can .. like I am trapped that will never happen ,,, but someone I will never ever want to lsend away of to leave ... now that is different )

Now I have a desire to explore some of my theories to the point I was trying to get a young master to work some of my street pick up ideas ,,, to live only thru online picks I feel is weak eventually we all must be reall be face to face so ,,, doing street pick up of girls is good for a males skill level ,,,,,,,, ( THE MENTOR TEACHER IS ME IS ALWAYS THERE my old love , sprot of fishing and now coming out and saying that girls were as important NO! more important and now it is time to creative in that arena ) but to do that type of thing means I will I will end up with submissive girls of al ages shapes and sizes .... Since the demand for male service is there and the masters are not ... I know me I will end up with girls .... And then to qualifiy young masters in a way I feel I truly have men worthy of training of being master those who in some way can master themselves first ,,, then they have the right and responsibility to master the girls who need them

Remember yesterday the idea that the pleser in the girls I being stressed torn apart by the need to please everyone ,,, but if she choose to serve 1 master and only 1 master then ,,, she can quiet the world and finnaly find peace ! the service you provide dipshit ....... Is by letting her do what comes naturally and un... un /// unnaturally to her , what comes in her fanasty life which you will learn by experimentation over the trust building days and thru means of talking .... But I see myself in fansty teaching girls to be submissive , and young men to be Dominate ......but what does that have to do with me ... with me right now as I am thinking and exploring my ideas before I write my first draft of a relationship contract ..... oh the use of wording the importance of words to the deepest parts of the mind ....... That is why in the book they make sure you use words like slave and master the formality I have shunned in my past 10 or so years ago the ideas that over this past summer I started to question myself about ,,, the idea ... am I ready to hear the word SIR ... and what about love ....... Her bing my lover ,, well did my girl friend ( my special friend who is a female ) well did we not do the gushy I love you honey stuff and did it not ........ collapse ? like all the others we each had done in the past ,,, the formality of the MASTER/slave has in it the day to day remeinders of the reason why we both freely choose to be in the relationship ,,, now the idea the use of the words DOM/sub , is kinda surgar coating the MASTER/salve roots ........ but since master slave is often very  pain slut oriented and very etreme I understand the reasons why the use of surgar coated words is important ....... But the truth is every relationship is special and with its own rules choices and shit ......... not some black and white rule book thing ,,, each person is needing something and what are my NEEDS ?

 Sexual and especially non sexuall ,, the sex part is pretty easy it is in all the other shit ,, the other parts of life where the problems build in ili' things we each do that bug the other ,,, and it is here where the choice of DOM/sub can help 1 leads the other put up with ,,, now dipshit ,, you got a good girl following you putting up with you so that she can see you smile?    See your smile , well dipshit some day you may shit on her once tomany times and the subbie may not submit ,, all that means is that you will have to go back out to the street of course .....but ,, but .... That subbie your good girl .. is human .... In the outside world she has to have a safe word also ,,, when your attitude and cations hurt her like you hurt her in BDSM play ,, she has to have a safe word ..... to tell you she has been hurt and needs her master to help her !  you should bwe reading and studing ,, if so you will already understand sexual safe words ,,, now I feel I must give her a everyday safe word ,,, THAT WAY I CAN BE MYSELF AS I AM ,,,,,  not worry and think if I do this or say that will I hurt her feelings?   No I just be mayself the fuck head I really can be ... and if I do hurt her she will tell in her safe word ... and since she is important to me ,,, will stop the pain ! .... I will listen and learn something ( maybe learn something I do have a thick skull in some ways ) ...... but atleast she has a sfe word she can stop the pain ,,, but maybe like in sex , she also will learn .. she will pass certain levels accepting me more and more for who I am ............  her safe word .........

I sex is easy ,, but I bring up other chicks poly and shit ,,,, but that hurts most girls in fact the idea of seeing her tied and fucked by other men that idea hurts ,,, ( I honesty feel that her being fucked by other mean 4 times a year is a gentice deep urge we human fulfilled thru the rituals of festival times of the seasons .... Read TWISTED INSTINCT 4 season for ........ but there is the reminder ....of buying the duck a penis ,, and my delight in her pleaure of using a dildoe on her , that another male is just my right to use a living dildoe in her ,,,,,,,, but what if .. what if she meets another male falls in love or cheats on me .... Behind my back ,,, all these things prove one thing I DIDN NOT MEET HER CORE VALUES ,, it does nean that it does not hurt ... yes , but I have not met what she really did need so she in her free choice has omoved on and I should wish her wll and happiness ...... MASTER YOURSELF dipshit or live in fear ....... Are you master dumbfuck? Am i? .......... But this is where trust is needed .. and our last 5 months have been a great start ... START .... On the road to trust ......  end this blog here and then write a simple first draft incomplete realtionship contract ,,,,,   

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No MASTER before you

Wow has that ever worked for the catholic church or what ,,, the idea that people will choose to serve a master even a master they can not see .... Give it their money , go to war and die for it , adjust their ex life because of it ,,,, 1000's and 1000's of years this idea has HELPED millions find a place in the confusion ........ YES I SAID HELPED even thought governments and churches have abused the trust of the people and had them die in the name of their master - god ...

The subbie the slave ( remember I will use the slave word to explore extremes to mentally swing the pendulum of conditioning you have been exposed to in your life young master ) she is a pleaser she is searching for something ,,,, YOU? Maybe maybe not ......... like in a church people will gladly find peace in service , and to stop the confusion of ages past with to many gods , the Romans learned that 1 god was the ticket ( THEN AND ON SUB GODDS  in the form of the trinity and all the saints and shit ,,, but in the end they are like you just part and parcel of INFINITY the Toa .  So your subbie can get confused to easy and by joining with you she has 1 focus you , your happiness , her esteem in your eyes first .... Everyone else comes second ,,, she must trust that you work in her best interest and that may mean in the best interest of her family or kids , like a religion a good god ,  a good father .  BDSM is so very complex when you study and not just see the sex play of the scene .  Her day to day focus is all about how you feel and think .... WWJD what would jesus do .... She thinks about you .... And the subbie the pleaser all to often can get distracted by the demands of life it causes her stress o , by thinking first about you she has a focus .... No longer is she a victum to " divide and conquer " she can move away from any stress and put the responsibility on you .... Here is some thing tghat happened twice today ..... divided attention on the phone and my reactions to it ... one was my girl friend ..... ( no she is not a slave or even truly yet a real subbie , yet ... no I am wrong  she is inherently subbie but not a lead/ dominated subbie let me say that )  so on the phone with me she , was bing interrupted by 2 other people ,,, I could feel her stress in her voice , the type of stress that brings out in her ... her dominate side the side she realy does not like because having to be DOM is stressful to her ........ no one got her attention she was being torn apart ,,, in the MASTER/ slave contract that she ( a subbie  will have choosen free will like choosing to serve a god from a book an idea a theory)   she would stop and put her attention her focus on just 1 thing 1 person me ..... AHHH freedom , no more reason to be a PLEASER TO THE WHOLE !!! WORLD  any more she only needs to please 1 person and that is me ! Of course because her best interest is my best interest ,,, finding a good girl subbie ain't easy .... I will choose quickly what I feel is best for her ....... And I said " honey 1 thing let me say the car will get fixed isn't that cool , now go do what you gotta do and have a great lil' vaction .......""  I do not have to wait on the phone feeling ignored by her she does not have to worry about me being unhappy .... And the rest of the world , well the rest of the world will have to wait politely because she ahas responsibilities that come before the rest of the world ,,,, she has her MASTER TO  think about ,,, do you get it dipshit ,, do you seee the level of deep helpful service you as king bring to those who let you serve them by ruling them ........ YOU MAKE HER LIFE  way simple she only has to worry about that male you young master who she will come home who she will ( or is planning to ) serve for the rest of her life ,,not these other temporary distractions in her day to day life ........ they can wait patiently or go fuck themselves .

Now dumbfuck when you encounter this I want you to feel if you hesitate for second if your mr.nice guy comes back and you start to let her control you and the phone conversation if she is delaying you and you are letting her do it ?  fine tothine ownsself be true learn dipshit realize what you are doing the .. old programing that  pussy beggar which you were trained to be ...... feel him show up all to often . Yes there seem to be other men more what should I say more DOM bigger stronger their presence send off waves of threatening power ,,,,, but in reality the threat of DOM by power I sweakest in todays legal world ,, if that DOM acts he goes into a cage where he has no pussy into the legal system , so YOUNG MASTER , understand learn for the ancient romans about the mental aspects of SELF CONTROL ... informed choice .

See , the other call later today was from one of my daughters .... That relationship is way different since the day of her birth they talbes have been turned .... I was and still am the beneficial father a leader who cares and protects and yet demands ....... So when she was distracted , I responded without hesitation ....... With " are you talking with ________ or me ? "  forcing her to make the choice at her age is fine she is no longer my lil' girl but our relationship and way of treating and interacting is respectful and carring towars each other ,,, two important people in each others lives .... Respect and love ....

YOUR slave young master ,,, is not a game ,, some one who you will just put a collar on and put in the corner ,,, no that is just fanasty stuff scene stuff .... Study pussy young master study and learn the complexity of BDSM and realize the complexity and meanings and benefits behind the exploring and writing of contracts ....... Explore the extreme because remember the failed relationship of your present and past are only the extreme of todays FAIRY TALE ..... just as MASTER/slave is the extreme of DOM/subbie .....  

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Sex fantasy honesty

We are expected to go for our dreams in things like work to let those dreams guide our choices of carrers and schooling and where we will live even ..... we tell our kids to go after their dreams ,,, but when it comes to one of the deepest most basic drives the basic drive that forces us human to become social in the first place way back in time 2.5 mikkion years ago when we changed probably from and animal that could only enjoy sex during the SEASON like dogs and cats etc ,, to animal who can enjoy recreational sex any time ........... this acting force of sexual recreation is why we are social and not single solitary animals  this most basic drive ,,, we are expected to ignore these DREAMS but live for the dreams of making dirty green sutff to become slaves of happiness thru buying it ,, make money buy shit be happy ..... yet when we look at ourselves and really feel understand our motives we see and understand how much of our happiness it related to socialing , and sex is a social activity ......... deep chemical drives that our body produce chemicals with out our control which force us to think about sex sex sex on a regular basis ,, girls whose lives are interrupted regularly with actual ..! real bleeding for sex .... That warm desire and feeling of lust ,,,, the nned for another person ,, to be social .... DREAMS fanastys ,,, when it is to do with sex , we call it fanasty ,, something unreal that we should not expect to happen ,,,, should no ,, a should , something of outside control ,,, do you like to be controlled young master ,,, YONG MASTER . do you like being controlled I ask ? your shoulds control you dipshit ........ and the idea that you ahould not expect to live your sexual fanasty ..... your dreams ,,, live your dreams we are taught and we do it! We go to college study a trade something we have a desire for ,,, to serve to create in that arena ,,,,, we move to different towns to explore those jobs , we buy houses in neighborhoods that people like ,,, of like careers live in ,,, and dress in the clothes of thoat income level ,,, fitting into a dream .... Yet ignore the most basic drive of humanity to be social , and enjoy FREE natural healthy recreation ..... FUCKING FUCK !   YES FUCKING YOUR DREAM HER DREAM ......... !  yet ignore that and focus on money because a slave to money .

So ,,,,, in the BDSM world , the world of fanasty ,,, the idea that you must , finally tell eome ( in my case everyone ) your sexual fansty ,,, is paramount .. without the dreams there are scenes .  YO DUMBFUCK if you work a job you hate , a job which is not relted to your dream in some vague way ......... you start to hate your job . be hide in dope and drink ... and you search everyday for the chance to change jobs , you complain and live in hell .......... Live your dream job or atleast the core value of your dream job ,,, I wash windows now for 14 years and love it ,,,, I was a Professional sport fisherman my name everyday on the daily news in Miami Florida the world fishing catpital traopical paradise ,, and me ,, yes me PHILIP VANDERMUDE was a frontline everysingle day name in everyhouse of everyfisherman .... I was on top of my sport in the biggest fishing city in the biggest fishing state of the largest fishing country in the whole fucking world ,,,, in ths sport of fishing during the 80's not fucking shabby ! and now I would not go back there and give up my life of today ,,, no fucking way! So the job of your dreams is a deep thing a deepest motive of how you serve your fellow human and yourself .......... BDSM is the idea of living your dreams and how that serves the other humans and yourself ......... YOUR FUCKING DREAMsex ..... and with out knowing what is your dreams ex and then ,,, addressin it , accepting it ,, studing it , and talking to the other humans you want to socialize with ( your choosen partner your girl/s ) ...... how can the dreams your dreams be lived with out the guts to say these are my sicknest dreams ,,, I am awhack motherfucker with fresh pussy smelling panties in my glove compartment not this month's latest copy of the fishing magainzne but my girlsfriends gift her her panties , the smell of her hormones gets me HIGH !  ARE YOU A SICK MOTHER FUCKER AND PROUD OF IT! ,,, IT IS WAY HARD TO COME OUT OF THE CLOSET  !  gotta respect the gays and lesbians who have done it ..... coming out of the bdsm closet is hard ... got the guts YOUNG MASTER?

Living your dreams well , what are your sex ,,, dreams ,,, hint they are those dreams you use when you jack off ,,, accept those dreams , understand the deepest motives in the sickest of them ,,, now do not live the sickest ones except in that you find the true deep thing in it ,, what is the deepest common theme ,,, and then realize there are loads of girls looking to meet you! YOUNG AMSTER , aman with guts enough to come out of the closet and help them live their dreams ,,,g irls are way more sexually free than us ,, remember they have to actually fucking bleed thru their sex oragans for days and days each other , they carry those large heavy tits .... We donot think about sex like they do , the way they color their dface and worry about their looks while we live in jeans and stained t- shirts ....... Realize you dreams , talk about your dreams in fucking detai ,, remember th details ........ of your dreams , and then TREAT THOSE DREAMS like you would treat the dreams you have for your job/career ..     so work just as hard to live your basic desire dreams .... YO ! DIPSHIT EVERYONE HAS THOSE DARK KINKY DREAMS YOU ARE NOT alone ! EVERY fucking priest ,, doctor , shringk ,,, ice good person has deep kinky sex dreams and desires ,,,, in BDSM we say SAFE SANE CONSENT !  ........ but how can you get your dream job until you accept it ,, and then desribe the job to others , who can help you ,,, who will help sexually ? girls will help you sexuaaly .... Not your drunk fishing buudy hanging around the bait shop !   

   YOUR DREAMS , think write accept them , come out of hiding the closet with them ... you exial dreams are only dreams about becoming social in a nautral healthy way ,,,, no matter how sick your dreamsa re ,,, most often the sickest dreams are expressions of repressions ,,,, the deepest drive of humanity is to be social to creat new life ,,, not hurt each other but support each other the drive you have young master is to protect that female you just fucked and stuffed her pussy full of your sperm ,, your inner drive is to help protect her , to make her life comfortable so the child from your sperm will be healthy and strong !   your deepest sex  fansty is in realtiy good!

It is from this your dreams the contracts with your subbie will be written the contracts that help each of you be honest to the other and yourself ,,, the contract both of you can remember , that you have stated , this she stated that ,, a true understanding of LOVE and what it realy means to each and what is expected of each ,,,, truths ... not just happy lies of trying to make each other happy ,,, would you work or study with out knowing understanding certain aspects ... why live love blind ,, and FAIL  like everyone else ?

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Contract? Like a Bussiness ? but this is love?

And we todays lovers have a 60 percent chance of divorce ,,,, our dating relationships are like a 95 percent level of break ups ,,,, and it is my opinion that shit like this , the paim felt by like fucking everyone ,is because we believe that the word ... the fairy tale the word promises ,,,, is , is , is ......... it is real . but not by trusting in something as broad as the idea of what a word can possibly mean ..   what is love , and just saying I love you ,, well how many people have said that to you and how many times have you said that to someone else ,,, and well now look at you ,, YOUNG MASTER ... huh dipshit it has been fucking hard your pain is being expressed in the music you listen to ,,,, dumbfuck you do know the lyrics of your favorite songs right ,,,?  Listen to them ,, like I explored KOrn's music in TWISTED INSTINCT .... I understood that I was .. I was ..felling .. LIKE A FREAK ON A LEASH .   I understood Jons feelings his thoughts you were supposed to be a cheap fuck for me to lay ! LOVE? TO JUST TRUST TO LOVE IS NOT WORKING .... We each want to see the other happy and in that is confusion leading to not smiles and love but ,,,hurt .

So , the contract ,,, spells out the motives of each ... general terms , motives expected from the other ....  I personally am not talking about BOOT LICKING club scene bullshit but yet like pain gives a sensation of flying and freedom to the subbie so , does humility ,,, but that is some very strange shit when done like so many do it ,,not my trip .... What is YOUR TRIP dumbfuck ,, knowing your wants , me right now knowing my real wants , and clearly describing them is the first step ..... and we my subbie and I had to go down the regular road of trusting to the word of love ,,, to again seee it fail ,, and our inner desire for each other has brought us into understanding all the regular solutions which were not solutions to all our past marriages and relationships ..were not! Solutions , so why still do them ,,, huh why do the same old thing ..... how about thinking out side the box of failure !  BUT DOES SHE HAVE TO BE CALLED YOUR SLAVE ,,,?  Hey that maybe her limit maybe she can find no pride in that word , but maybe she can find a pride in that word ........ her pride her motives .... Her real deepest inner wants , the ideas she has thought about from time to time since she was like little now , these drives are to be explored slowly in the hands of a loving DOM ,,,, a wise king and leader she trusts to act in her behalf ........an benefit ,,, and if it is truly for her benefit then you GOOD MAN get what you realy want deep down to see the woman who you love smile ,,, YINI AND FUCKING YANG ,,,, not boot licking unless some how that level of humility serves her because it does serve some girls who am I to judge them ..... writing the contract dipshit is your job as leader not hers ,,, do it for her .... But like we have done these last months going down the regular road of relationship failure ,, honestly trying ,,, but letting a failed system prove again its inherent failures can be needed ..... to get the MO-TI -VATION on both your parts . The internal honesty , you each need to realy be honest , and not just being nice to the other ,,,, it gives each of you time to trust the other ,,,, for me to believe that she realy wants me to lead and discipline ........ and discipline ?  wow that is a concept what is discipline ,,,, is it the game of spanking? Or is that erotic play ( I feel it is erotic play mainly )   discipline is just saying NO ..... and having her stop long enough to listen and not buck not question ,, not complain not fight .... All things that no woman will do with ease . unless she is motivated . I kept talking about motives brought about by competiton in the poly .... The self controls brought about by the urges of nature thru the poly relationship that was built by the women involved .. the poly of my theory also was complex in that the girls have to think and believe and understand ............ THE BDSM contract is the same ,,,,,, the thinking and belief and understanding of motives your inner wants , her inner wants ...... OH dipshit is pussy important enough to study? Yes dumbfuck it is , you really gotta really look at how much of your money your life your efforts are tied in some way to PUSSY ... the car the cool ego you project ,, your choice of jobs to get the cash to get the toys to have the fun that ...... attracts the pussy or keeps the pussy you already have ........ so mush of your life is in part effected by your sex .... Your fucking DNA dipshit ....

So , I need now to brain storm about my own desires and be fucking true , let the chips fall hwere they will ,, be fucking true ,, but like the good and wise ruler ,,, I try attempt to present it in a wayt to allow for the evolution of what we all want ,,, and what is the constant ... since she does loves meshe wants to see me smile.... Simple basic motive ,,, and what makes me smile what makes me sad ,, what makes me stressed ( hey when I am stressed I do not smile )    what do I want , well I want to see her smile why because I love her ,,,, and she smiles when I smile .. so I gotta lower confusion and stress in our relationship ?  hmmm wow fucking simple ..... but why is it hard because ,, you YOUNG MASTER you are not being true , you are lieing to her ,,,,, I say one thing then write another ,,, yes I have been doing that let my subconsiuos mind express itself in my writing not judgeing my words but just writing and what comes out is not the same as the lies the words and manipulations I say to try ,,, try ,, try to make it all better make her ahppy ... I TWISTED MY INSTINCTS .. to fit the femisnt ideals of today ,and got all the unhappiness this new age can give ........ just look around you dumbfuck do the same old thing get the same old results ,,, so it is no gamble to trusth that your are truly a GOOD MAN , and like the good wise king your attempt is always honorable ,,,, so be true to her !  explore your deepest thoughts your deepest inner nature ,, your animal DNA ......

Example ,,, the buck , I must define what I feel the buck is ,, but explore the buck ,, with out the fear of hearing her buck of me describing my ideas of the buck ,,,, just read that line and see understand the level of fear of separation all males have and why we have become so passive on average eventually just becoming drunks out of frustration ..... the buck ,,,, I am male , it is in my DNA accept this ,, work from this idea , and forget for the most part the lies of the fairy tale world that says ,,, just trust the beauty of love ,, ( yes I love ,,, love ... hell that is why we are writing a DOM/sub contract to preserve LOVE ) ... understanding the buck and expressing your ideas without fear or blame ,, to express your ideas may ,,, mya ,,,may ,, feel like BLAME to her and often it is blame ,, you are only human shithead ,,, and if she feels a buck coming a fight a defensive feeling it is because she does feel it it' truth that  she does this ...BUT , BUT , but .... The opening of a buck .... Expect first a trust ....form her then as you both go down the road of life explain your ideas ,, guess what your inner ARMY GENERAL will feel better about her after she trusts you first then you are much more open to explaining your whys and aas you feel she understands your logic you are more likely to her spin because her spin now comes from the girl who really understands your motives .......... Wow much more comples than just saying whatever you think will keep her ahppy or just giving in to whatever she wants or bringing her flowers to say ou are sorry .... Submitting . then leaving her to go get high ,, becaue of pain deep inner unhappiness to the point living under the influence of a drug is better that living !

IT IS EASY AND IT IS NOT EASY ,,, BUT dipshit my friend ,, are you a leader ? yes you are it is iin your DNA now fucking lead .........

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MASTER/salve contracts

The name Master or slave ,,, DOM or subbie ,, gives a feeling to people of the sorth or importance of one [person over another ,,,, nothing can be more wrong ,,,, it is 2 people realizing the animal within and then fighting with life reality and old programming to get back to SYNC with their inner nature ,, onw can not be ... without the other .... Like the title SIR the daily rep[eating of the nature ,, the something my words are not flowing . but the recongning of our ... our choice .... The contract is written ,, it is there to describe our ..our wants ... to help us remember who we realy are and why we went down this road in the first place ....

When we first read about the contract , I said , this is not for us ... at this time ,, we need to study more , to learn about ourselves ...and for us to encounter and address the old habit patterns we will fail back into ... well we did fall back into old patterns ... and now after reading contracts form others in books we are studing about the DOM/sub lifestyle we can no more appriecate ,, the benefits of written contracts and time lines .... The idea we can frame the contract hang it on our bedroom wall to remind ourselves of WHY ,, why we are together ,, it is not just sex and spanking ... no it more real more deep ,, more important ..... it is the everything else that fucks up the great sex ,,,, those parts are what are expressed in the sexual contract , the under lying themes ,, and motives .

Lots more to be writeen by me on the contracts I will suggest . ,my  view of the mountain range ,,,, that consists of 2 mountains .... Each mountain only seeing the other mountain  form one point of view at a time .... Not seeing the volcanic action taking place within. Hidden within .

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Poly Amor Us

Hmmm .... Interesting to find that word in MY FAVORITES on the comp . who was searching it ? I wondered at first , but then more importantly was as I read about the word , the idea of it being a PHILOSOFY ( however you spell it .. ) ...love as a philiosphy .. hmm interesting the idea as said by many many people that men and women see the SEX act differently for the women it is a show of love an expression of love ...( whatever love is honeslty whatever love is ,, it is a word that has meaning from the point of view of your ,, your experience ..... are you the PENETRATOR or the penetrated ? ) so the idea that love is a philosophy that is what I got ,, I wondered again about ... yes love I love the women in my life that I have today ,, the girl I pledged to be in a 1 on 1 with ,,, I must have started to write about the poly because the 1 on 1 was breaking down , I felt like I was going down the same old road as before ... the idea of DOM/sub it seemed disappeared , fault is not important except that I take my share .......... And honestly in that the DOM/sub relationship was failing was my fault ,,,, my want to see her smile ........that is pure SUBMISSIVE behavior on my part ... hmmm interesting . We both had started our relationship committed to being different and I allowed us to go down the same old road ....

 .. kiss kiss I just make the noise and she stops everything her important project , stops right in her tracks and turns to come back to give me a kiss ...... the idea that from the tone of my voice she could sense I thought her actions were a buck and she goes and does the thing I wanted ,,, it makes me wonder ..... the devotion the idea ... the idea that when I allow my self be natural and I enjoy seeing her .. squirm in discomfort she gets devoted to me .... And I let myself like it .... Do the evil thing to like seeing some one in discomfort .... And admit it ... hmmmm interesting I am in reality doing the BEST THING .. but do I  enjoy discomfort as part of nature ? YES ,,, my forcing my hard dick in her pussy is discomfort ... that gasp every girl makes when we enter them , the shock of penetration ! a good ahrd fucking the type of fucking that every girl really likes ,,, AS per data girl like good hard fuckings )  given the choice between long slow and soft , versus hard strong and true ... if they could only have it one way for the rest of their lives .... Only 1 way - not a reality just an question ... the choose hard and true .. why why ?? the girls knew they can self stimulate to get off during the hard and true and get off cumm harder and better , that being stuck the rest of their lives with slow caring and soft where they also have to self stimulate to get off and never feel passion .... True desire animal desire ... hmmmm so why does my nice guy worry so much about her smile? When in reality I do not understand what makes a girl smile ... I AM NOT A GIRL .... How can I really understand them ... so be myself animal self and guess what they are happiest ! then and only then .

THERE was the is girl I knew years ago who did  not know her father ,,, and then later in life he contacted her ... and the reason he gave for not seeing her or talking with her or being daddy to her ,, was .... Was ... WELL it was that he did not want to rock the boat with his current wife ,,,, the female  he had given his honor to his word of love to .... ( the I love you slave effect )  the smile of the woman in your lfie is extremely powerful ,,, one of the cores in TWISTED INSTINCT  is that concept the power of weakness , but look to universe and undertand the power fo dark matter versus visible matter the weak forces that are being studied now a days .... So many times lately I think about the idea was I hiding when I wrote about the POLY ,,, was I living without commitment ? no I the idea of poly needs extreme  commitment on the part of a good man ......... not getting totally tied to just one person ... but is being tied to just 1 person reality or fairy tale ,,,, I love my woman my children my family all in their own way ....... The dream about 1 and 1 meeting and becoming this tory book of love that in reality ,,, in reality ... in reality ... know one can find ........ hmmm interesting .. ( reality no one can find , you really gotta look at all those happy marriages you think you know are happy and look deeply at them )   so , my Debbie and I said we would become DOM/sub do ,, not! .. do the same old thing , but I let us down and I did not lead ... I did not have the guts to chance not seeing her smile ... I did not rust her devotion ,, a devotion I do not understand .... A devotion I have never seen or experienced in my past form any ... any ... ANY  other female towards a male , ( this includes my mom to my dad a couple who from the outside looked like they lived the FIARY TALE , AND FROM THE INSIDE OF THE FAMILY HONESTLY THEIR LIFE WAS VERY CLOSE TO FAIRY TALE LIFE OF HAPPY EVER AFTER .... ONLY because dad was an I love you slave and very happy ... they were just lucky and from an age that divorce was ont common so they made it . )

So ..... the DOM lives his ideas of what life should be and he depends on the subbie to find happiness her own happiness in seeing his ( mine ) ... HIS DREAMS COMING TRUE .....  with that in my mind as my new fairy tale ..... when I say a I WANT YOU TO ... and I get what I want I smile ,,, and then a day or two later it changes ,, my expectation is not met ,, ( even though she thought she did something ,,, her ideas ... not mine .. hers ) my expectation not met ......hmmmm what to do what do say the male in me ,, how to motivate her to get it ..... that what I want may have many different aspects in the want .... Her beeinfits my bennifits ... but in the end ,, is the trust that what I wanted will be what I get , so that I can live my life without to much stress with out her actions being another viariable ..... som one else I have to woryy about letting me down ,,, it is enough that my employees willl let me down and I fire them in droves if I do not get the inner motivations form them ,,,, I am let down by my children because they children only visitors who share my life for a few years ( 18 ) , by friends and family .. by customers and event he stores and restaurants I frequent ..... all the world is a variable  ... and when you have a girl a subbie a slave ? ( the salve of BDSM is a slave of choice ,,, a pride in their service and status  ) a girl who is also a vairiable that all to often when you say  ,,, iwant you to ,,, in reality it will be changed into her ideas ,, to the point that I do not want to have my ideas changed questioned to the point I do not want to talk .... ( felt that in us especially when it comes to her business ,, her business ...her and it should be hers ..... and that bing the case the DOM/sub life should be seprated just o insure the buck of hers is not brought into the rest of the relationship destroying everything ............ )  oh this concept of this problem of going form just GREAT SEX PLAY into 24/7 realtionships and respecting the individuals self determination , the subbie's  Dom in their world out side of the DOM/sub    and how that can fuck up the good life each othe lovers want ,, the DOM and the subbie  .... Ohh young master so much to think about to realize to remember to fail at ... nad then to learn form and start over and over and voer ....

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SEX makes feel good hormones

So , why? Not tease her ! sexually tease her start her own pharmacological lab her body producing the drugs healthful and happy your girl will become ,,, whynot touch her pussy? Young Master I am refereeing to her cycle days especially the day before that bitchiest of days the bloating the uncomfortableness that changes the smile you fell in love with into a person you honestly hardly know ..... yet you know the girl you love is ini the person who now is just complaining about everthing nothing is right in her world .... Yo! Dumbfuck we can not understand .... I REPREAT AND REPEAT ,, we are not the same we are not EQUAL ! you young master do not have the chemicals running thru your body telling it to dissolve it's own skin into a river of blood ... nope we males do not have that ...... PMS actually hormones in general are a fact in the world and day to day life of males and females ,,, you dipshit are some what controlled by a constant flood of micro ,,, micro drips of a very pure perfect drug called the big T testosterone  it happens in larger doses every what is it 45 minutes but the drip is almost constant in micro doses happening every few minutes

Girls have this dissolving of skin cells time , a re- building and richening of those cells time .... A ripening of egg time ..... a traveling of the egg down the tube time ..... and all these times are accompanied with days wotrth of chemicals to start the girl thinking UNCONSCIUOSLY about sex .... Sex ... sex and different sexual needs relating to the needs of the body at the time ,,,, as she starts to ripen and egg is getting ready ,, what type of lover is the girl looking for ,, what type of sex ?  her body wants a father for her egg....? Right like th bird which we evolved form the dino ancestor that is all life on this planet ,, ane egg layer ,,, the female looked for the male who could make a good nest and ,, and looked healthy attractive ,, good tail feathers like the peacock .... The NICE GUY ...... now after the egg releases she need good strong deep fucks to insure she is full of sperm .. logical that the body would want lots of sperm to fertilize the egg ... the body is built to have children ,, the DNA ANIMAL ,, not the feminist woman of today ,, but the flesh and blood animal ... tha we all in reality are ALSO .. we are minds but we are bodies ,, yin and yang ,, wholistic mind/body ......... now as the egg dies if it is not fertilized .... She also wants sex because sex massages her psuuy creates blood flow and ,,, and ,,, she the human female evolved to have sex 24 / 7 so that she kept the male around ,,, yes we have been evolved to service females and receive sex in return ,,,, in a way we evolved into submissive relationship due to our protective urges to see our babies live ,,,, the cave man at the door of the cave fighting off lions and tigers and bears .... But the time of bleeding well she yells her UNCONSIUOS  mind yells GO AWAY male .. I am bleeding ....... And we did , and if you study girls if you live in a home with 3 or more bleeding women you will hear them talk about ,,,, ooooh she bleeds first then me , the her .... The air borne trigger , the smell of other hormones comeing from the skin of one tiriggers the nest and so on ..... but  guess what in the poly what happens is that as one gets close to bleeding she needs strong dominant fucking to create feel good hormones to ease the pain ,,,,, to massage her pussy generate good  blood flow ..... and as she starts to bleed the next in line need the good hard fucking and spanking ,,, and then the next inline needs your male services ,,, your MALE HEALTH SERVICES .... And then the first well she is on the road to ripening and she needs the tender nice guy to fuck her often to fill her pussy ,, keep it sull of live sperm to be ready for the presence of the egg ,,,,, the presence of your sperm she camm feel you shoot it in her ,,, and her bood abosorbs it and the chemicals in your sperm your chemical massengers .....  

So you thought the only place to get helpful drugs was from ,,,, BAYER drug company ,,, NO yoo are a drug company that produces the purest form of feel good ... feel good drugs ,, anti depressants intenteed by nature ... so dipshit the cycle of bleeding and re birth is cool if you think about natures motives and then ,,, then respect them ... BUT ! the compartimentalized girl ,,, theintelligent woman ,, the one of the 2 of us who ... I lived more socially while we were dieing fighting lions and tiger and bears and shit they were evolving into complex social animals ,,,, relying on the group for help ,, while we were 1 on 1 with a lion ,,, in fact in many tribes you coulod not become a amle worthy of having wives , until you made your first FIRST 1 on 1 kill of the worst local predator ,, that danger may have been a lion , or a panther , tiger or bear or human , but the idea that the young master could handle the 1 on 1 pressure meant you could be trusted to handle the pressure alone think on your feet ,,,,,     WE WERE NOT EVOLVED TO WORK IN A GROUP .. girls were evolved to compartimentalized to be able to change personalities as needed to survive in a social world ..... YOUNG MASTER , the frontier farmer was a 1 on 1 basic male ,,, and he was your grand father ? great grand father ?  and his DNA goes back to Georgia man the tool maker of 2.5 million years ,,, so our world is a world of changes fucking up our INSTINCT ... TWISTED INSTINCT ......

I massage girls ,, I almost mediate while I touch and massage a girl .... And it has been my sexual ticket since I was like 21 so I got 26 years of habit patterns built around the massage ...... and 25 years of training by the response I got form the numbers of different women I have touched ,,, the girls know they have some control over their body ,,, they have rights ... yes they want to be taken ,,, to create situations where thye will be rapoed even , to feed that inner need to be hunted by the cave man and taken back to the cave to be fucked as her body screams it needs .. ( her bleeding cycle , remember screams it's needs ) and in the cave she is protected so she can give birth and raise a child in safety and and and ,, she expects to be in a nesting colonly ,,, ( back to the old old DNA )  nesting colonly safety and help durning birthing and those days of caring for a tiny baby ,,, she EXPECTS TO HAVE OTHER WIVES ! IN THE CAVE .... Deep down she wants it , and is happy with it ,,,,, but the greed of buy buy buy mine mine mine ,,,, ohhh that changed things and that started only 2 k years ago in Rome really but even after Rome the idea that men had other women was accepted ,,,, the 1 on 1 is not natural ....ohh shit this bolg was supposed to about how to use the massa