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Running with a hard-on

Young master I want you to think shit head think for yourself ,, in fact thaqt is why I write so poorly not only because I am not a writer but , if my words are like a puzzle if you gotta think to understand wht the fuck I am writing about ,, I did my job ... I got your stupid lazy ass thinking .... JOB 1 DONE .. get you thinking for yourself ....

So on my run this morning I had this up and down hard on ....over and over ... so I came back did my usual get my good girl up for a morning pee that way getting fucked will not be painful having full bladder and backed up kidneys ( wow interesting how much concern a man who calls him self a MASTER  would have for some one he calls a slave ..... why ... value her importance in my life ,, the difference she is from the norm .. ? )  and had her be my puppy and I just unzipped and fucked her .... Have her feel my pants against her naked body ....... OK JUST THINK YOUNG MASTER .... Have fucked a girl her naked submissive ... your toy .... And did you use her ,,, you dressed .... Way back when slaves were naked and owners were allowed clothes .... Just think about growning up in a world like that well for 1000's of years in the history of your ancestors your DNA well that was life ,, real salvery ... slaves were expensive tools , something gto be valued ..... to be values ,,, like I see so many guys who treat their car or truck better than they treat their family and wife ..... VALUE ...... they treat a tool a car / truck a tool with importance .... Their woman well there are large dynamaic to explain why he treats her like shit ,,, I wonder what the dynamics are and how they evolved .... If she were a slave he may care more about her ...... hmmmmm interesting .

Fucking her with my clothes on ,,, just unzipping and sticking myself in her ,,, FORCING , yes penetrating her ,,,, if my dick is soft it folds and does not make penentration ,,,, ever had that shithead? Maybe it was because you fucke so much and yet still wanted more then you did not have a quality hard on strong enough to force its way into her ... to PENENTRATE her ........ to dominant her .... To push your self into her body ... think about our NATURE . Honestly I think I may never have done that , becaue I felt it an insult to pleasure myself ,, to not be concerned about her ,, first , to put her feelings in front of my needs ,,,,,,,, so I of course would think about making sex a tender activity ,,, make sure we were some what equal ,, her naked and me naked .... Yes using a woman ok , sure I know for a fact I have done that .... But to have her exposed naked and myself dressed ,,, just coming to her fucking her then kissing her , say thank you and leave ..... that honestly I think would have caused al LOAD OF SHIT ,,, it would have caused a fight a problem ..... BUT THEN AGAIN I know now the deep fanasty life of the female of most girls ,, the unspoken fanasty ,, un spoken because to speak her real deepest dreams of natures dirives ,, would be to go against the  FEMEINST  gains that have been made ,, the feminist gains that have brought all the happiness todays world ,,, the drug abouse the hiding confusions , the drpessions , the loneliness .... All the fun . ( FUCK TODAYS WORLD AND VALUES AND THE SO CALLED FUN ! )

OHHHH my god  I felt good , fucking her like that , a bit .. yes a bit a prat of me was linked to the progressive nice guy male the concerned male ,, and felt like I was disrespecting her ............. But then another part honestly ,,, the real deepest part of me ... the part of me I have TWISTED ! ... ignored ,, felt it was bad ,, not considerate of female equality .... We are not equal .. sure we are equal in some ways yes ,, but in the way we were designed to interact ........ the nature of the PENETRATOR and the penetrated ........ IT FELT GOOD ( yes kinda kinky , it is only kinky the first time ) and it felt even better when her hand reached between her legs ass to caress my balls while I fucked her and encountering my pants leg she grabed my pants pulling on my pants then with town hands she nmoaned louder and pulled me harder ,,,,,,,, her animal loved the idea she was getting fucked! Disrespected ...... USED ! like she is designed to be used . ........  I was respecting her deepest inner nature ...... SHE CAN NOT TELL ME HER INNER SECRET WANTS , THE DEEPEST FANSTY THAT SHE HERSELF WILL NOT EVEN ALLOW HERSELF TO REALIZE SHE HAS ....... I came failry fast and she was content she is always content when I just use her ,,, but this time was even more so ,, was she content to feel her eslf ,, her inner being ,,, fiannlay be respected ,,, for me to respect her by DISRESPECT ........ no dipshit it is not disrespect .... No no insult ,,, in the fact the opposite .. yes opposite ,, I pasted my polite training . to allow US to experience out true inner nature ,, I gave her a gift of my strength to LEAD US out of Eygpt ,,, out of th rules and training all the lies that have been thrust on our minds .. lead us back to our true inner beings .......... Me TARZAN you jane !

It was like having her kneel before me yesterday ,,, no not for sex , but to just hold her next to my body , to cuddle her , to feel her presence and to experience her expressing her CHOICE ,, HER FREEDOM OF CHOICE ,, to follow my orders ( orders ? does the word the idea of giving your equal orders ,, it is fanasty shithead , but after you fall in love with her , the idea of ordering and even the idea that she would follow the oreder  well is ... not even fanasty .... .. orders ) each little act , done once , and will be done much more often , each act ,,, makes me feel ! ... it makes me feel ... feel so unreal ...... feelings that I am realy being myself ,,,,, and I still go to work , take out the garabage empty the dishes in the am .... But only difference is that I do not resent the female in my life ,, that deep down feeling that unspoken confusion , and un felt resentment .....  AN UN FELT .......... NOT EVEN NOTICED ? yes sipshit , you have been insulting your instinct ,, you have been insulted since you were a baby ,, your true nature .... Your INSTINCT was twisted confusion , inslted ,,, then buried to the point you have never realized the level of damamge .............. think dipshit ,, think my friend young master ,, this will take time give yourself time to FEEL ,, you need the COMPARITIVE experiences to feel ! to learn what my ideas mean in your life ,,, to again realize the naute of MAN not the lies of your masters ... the twisting damamges their words have caused ,,, YOU AER A LOVING DOMINANT ! by nature ,, the cave man protecting the cave ,, going out to hunt and fight for his females and children ,, the good male instinctual animal .... And to be respected and loved you need to be allowed to fuck at your own will and desire ,,, because that is the nature of a PENETRATOR !    

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The BDSM closet

That word should ,,, fuck ,,, young master that word ,,, controls you in so many fucking ways .... The idea that you do get this feeling of SHOULD and HAVE TO ... the fact that you feel ... feel because of those words is evidence of th HUMAN nature in fact the natue of all animals to protect life ......... yes we all feed off other species ,,, I violently kill poor helpless LETTUCE being , life yes a happy leaf vegetable sunny itself waiting for its time to enjoy sex ,  like a girls flowers they say gets beautiful for sex , so does a life a lettuce want to have sex , to go to flower ..... BUT NO  the cruel violent animal I am with teeth designed to eat leafy vegetables more than teeth to puncture tough animal hide ... I kill lettuce ... but not my own kind .... Not my own ,, unless stressed ... most animals o not kill members of its own kind unless they are stressed .   CORE VALUES  should ,,, the basic GOOD ! in humans , that a political system of crowd control of population manipulation stems back ,, to the wise thinker of ancient Eygpt  knew and the Romans learned from to create their BOOK .... The book of SHOULDS where they told you that you were born EVIL and dirty .... And you needed them to become clean .... ? huh ... realy feel the drive to respect the shoulds in your life and understand ,,, that if you if human kind really was evil we would have killed our species off ! but we did not we did develop communities to protect ourselves and our families from other groups of humans who felt stressed and there by acted in greedy ways ,,, killing and stealing , in a world with many opportunities ......... feel the inner shoulds you have .

Being gay or lesbian .... Is living against a SHOULD ..... the core valueof loving and caring for another human is respected in those worlds those relationships ... the real core value of HUMANITY is expressed there ! but only because the idea that they do not make kids ... that was the problem to kings of old . reigon tied itself with kings and kings with religions ... kings need armies to protect the lands and to become larger to act out of greed in INHUMAN WAYS .... War ! they needed human tools people they could kill and use ,,, like beasts of burden ..... and gay people do not make babies ! hence the SHOULD not be gay ! dipshit as I wrote before 3 percent of births come with birthdefects ,,, a constant fact ,,, so the idea that sexuall defects ( defect sounds bad , it is not defective just ,,, just ,, is what iit is .... Not defect ) but defect , would allow for a possible of 3 percent of the population being gay .... Not the close to 15 percent we have today that represents ,, the sexual confusion of IGNORING THE TOA ... our inner nature . but having the guts to come out of the closet ............. And guess what for the most part today most people are accepting of gays ... big deal we all say what ever works for them ........

Well dipshit ,,,,, your respect for the inner animal truths of you aren your girl ,,, the understanding of the FACT . of Penitrator  and penetrated .... I have this thing that grows ahrd ,, I have this inner knowing that ,, that thing is supposed to be forced into another human ..... I FORCE IT INSIDE , I PUSH IT IN , OVER AND OVER AND OVER I FORCE IT BACK AND FORCE INSIDE THE BODY OF ANOTHER HUMAN ..... this is not inhuman or outside of core values .....  and the girls who know who feel who touch their animal self ..... realize that the pussy between their legs is empty ... yes they feel the emptiness ....... They know they nust submit to being penetrated ! .... To allow me to enter her forcefully , to control her hold her so that I can better and use her body for my PENETRATION..... yin and yang ,, basic ... natural good shit ..... DOM/sub lifestyle is very respectful of this truth ......... I am talking 24/7 relationships .. but even the SCENE only players , well they try ,, but they fear the SHOULD .. they fear and hide in the closet because of the fear about being found out ! .....

FOUND OUT? That people find that you and the female respct your inner animal ,, the nature of human kind ,,, in fact respect even the written words in their good book ,,, the book of should" s ..?

Now dumbfuck ,,, think about this , everday people see you and your subbie those who know you and the lifestyle choices of you two ,.,, well what do they see?  A happy couple?  You going to work everday like th good man you are ?  the tow of you functioning paying bills living the life right ... she cleaning and taking care of your house for you ,,,, loving you by her service to you ,, and you being the amle you like to be , going out into the world conquering shit everyday making some cash , enough to live comfortably on the ,, returning to have recreation ,,,, recreation ,, our only real true ... reaction for our species ... SEX .... Remember most sprots and most hobbies are some how related to work or food gathering again work ,,t hey are not rue recreation from an instinctual level ,, and drinking or watching tv ... well both of those are have their real roots in self destructive behavior the acts of human who hate life ......... ( we talked about this before but I will revisit the ideas someday )   Everyday people the world of shoulds see the expeterior of your life and see ... THE RIGHT AND GOOD ......... if they only knew that I am a sick shithead? You think to yourself ,,, but are you?  Both you and your subbie are happy and heathy , actually most of us are in better heath than the populations  averages ...   you if you have earned the right to be master ,,, must have first been able to master yourself right ?  great !  better than a lot of people correct ?.... but when the neighbors here your subbie screaming ,,, more MASTER PHILIP , more FUCK ME HARDER MASTER PHILIP ,,,,, when hear screams sound gagged or muffled ... and then the neighbors talk to you ..... maybe the both of you .... That person who pushes a book of should on you ... a book in which they describe your life style of DOM/sub ........ when they ... thye ... judge you because you use a whip to excite the body of a girl ,,,,, to excite !

Ever been to DISNEY , Bush Garden  or any theme park fuck even a local fair and rode the rides .... The rides are built around fear ! ... the fear of death ! ,, of stimuting excitement in an extreme ... EXTREME ... by threatening your inner animal with death ! and body damage ...... with fear of possible pain ... but the threat of real great pain and death .... Is the whip erally any different .... Is me holding her by the  throat realy that much different ,,, excitement ,,, is me choking her with my dick down her throat really any different ,, the safe guards that are built in amusement ,  a muse ment ( fun and excitement )  park rides ........ safe guards that my inner good human nature ... my love .. for living things ...... that I pull my hard , engorged extened cock out of her throat after I notice her struggle and let her gasp for air ....... Safe guards built into my DNA , love.

So ....... Out of the closet ,,, family friends ... my children old enough to understand the symbolism of the words .... MASTER PHILIP ........ have you got the guts to face the shoulds to understand how you ,,, you , a MASTER  have let yourself be mastered! When the reality is what you are doing is more natural and healthy than what the world of shoulds is living ... look at the the STAT ,, the amount of drunk worthless shits out there .. people who hit each other out of frustration and anger and CONFUSIONS .... I do not hit I excite , I drive and feell my nature and let my subbie feel her inner drive and nature , giving her ......... the OP ! to be a female..... the real her that the world of should has raped form her forced her to ignore , to live up to their SHOULDS ....... (  one of the cores of Zhungzi's Toa is the respect for our inner nature ... not the shoulds of Menicus )

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Master Philip do you want.....

Those words have been of such use for both of us to help us , remember each day wht we want .... What we want .... Both of us .. she does want the life style as much as you ... and you young master are the type of male that is very hard to find ,,, you are not perfect in fact your expectation for yourself is very un realistic .... You young master push yourself to create her smile as if you in some way are responsible ,,, but you are not.... You are not really ... try to think about all the time you are not in direct contact with her ... all the time you are out at work or where ever the time you are not in direct , in her life with your presence ,,, does she smile? Does she fuction ? of course she does ... yet her smile while you are there in the house with her ,, you feel that ,, some how you are responsible for her her smile or lack of smile ... when in fact .... The OUTSIDE world is more in control of her smile or lack of than you many times ..... BUT DIPSHIT , when she has to say to you something like MASTER PHILIP do you want to fuck me in the ass , along with her asking if I wanted to have get me the cell phone or get me a pen while I was on the phone or get me a coffee ..... the so many times she is just being polite and asking if she can help me out in some tiny way , make my life easy in so many little ways ,,, she has to think to her self " I am also going to offer to let my MASTER PHILIP pleasure himself some way with my body ... I am going to offer to stop my outside life for a while and just be with him ........ and I choose to do that ! "

And what it does for you .... Dumbfuck is fanastic ,,, hearing her say MASTER is music ... watching her shyly offer herself to you ... to push past her own programming to be openly submissive makes it all so real .

WOW communication .... Hmm interesting even the Vanilla world PRO's relationship professionals they talk about ,, talking ,, using our voice , but in their world you young master use your voice to act in an unnatural way a submissive a way of begging the female in your life ,, begging for her attention .. begging to get the thing which should never have to be g begged for ... but because of the stupid story the fairy tale that says ,, she is not an animal ... so her sexual drives and organs are almost separated from her own mind ...... so that she for gets her RESPONSIBILITY like in the marriage vows of old ,, to provide you with sex as you need ......... and what is worse she forgets how much fun getting fucked is ... the feel good the fun ,, the connection to you .... WOW communicating ..........   Communicating and ,,, and reminding eachother of the reasons you two ,, first even really talked , dated , kissed ........ WHY DI YOU TWO  kiss?  Did she kiss you that first time because she was thinking IF I KISS HIM HE MAY TEACH ME HOW TO RIGG PLASTIC WORMS SO THAT I CAN GO BASS FISHING ALLL BY MYSELF ?   do the girls you know really want to enjoy their firsts kisses thinking that the relationship with that male will be about ,,,, learning the shit important to him or teaching him the things important in her world ...... does that male really need to understand the details or practice putting a tampon in his pussy ( ooops I forgot he ain't got a pussy ) no ,, no ,,, no ,, talking leads to dating ... dating leads to kissing ..... kissing leads to fucking ........ fucking leads to laying down afterwards both of us tired , her body still cumming twitching ,,, cuddled up next me and we go to sleep .... Her in that safest place in the world that place in MIND BODY AND SPIRIT ,, where she is submissive to a male and the feeling of being protected by his arms ..... real deep down nature shit ... DNA shit ........... Communication starts it and amaintains it ,, what are you 2 really saying in your commucnation . is it just about the job ? the out side workd ?

Oooooh next is my safe word ,,,, in none of my study reading or anything else have I seen the idea of a masters SAFE word , actually the idea of safe word  for a MASTER at first glance seems WRONG ! ... but like so many other things at life ,,, you gotta realy think about it ..... safe  word ,,,, what comes to mind ais a person who has put her SAFETY in the hands of another .......... With this word she signals problems and then trusts the person to think about her to VALUE her ...... and then change what ever is happening to her ,, it maybe my actions th strength of my bite  or it maybe ,, the way she is sitting  and it is hurting her back ,,, but whatever is hurting she depends on me to value her and make it better ......but a master's safe word ,,,, I do not realy put my safety in her hands ... but to be honest with yourself you do put your love into her ..... you trsut her there to consider you .... And when you hurt you expect her to think about that and to VALUE YOU also and stop and change ,, whatever she can so that you hurt no longer also .... The fanasty of the silent slave someone who does not have her won thoughts or actions unless you let her ........ honestly my friend such a person is a pain in the ass , you need to think for her in every way then ... correct .. she LOSES value sinceshe can no longer use her brain to anticipate ways to make you life easier .... And she can not act with out your direction .... THE SLAVE FANASTY .... Sure maybe in role play ,,,to help swing the pendulum back towards submission to help her and you regain the YING AND YAN ... of your in nature's but I also value the intelligence of the  person ... like a good true master should .... SO to title the key word I have been using in our discuisuon  ,, titling it to be a safe word .... At certain level helps her remember how much she values , em ... VALUES'S , you dipshit ,, you YOUNG MASTER are a male she hdoes not come acrros very often 1 in 100 ..... a man who would study pussy like her studies fishing hunting or cars ....... A man who loves pussy ,, who has found the scent and taste of his inner drives .. are tied to that opening between the legs of female humans .... His truth in his inner animal ,, his protective nature and shi desire to find recreation in sex ,,, since I reality ,, fishing is food gathing that is work ! hunting is instinctual food gathering , again work ,, fixing up  a car as a hobby is working with beasts of burden like ox or horse or cow again that is work ... our only real recreation is SEX !     you dumbfuck now realize you hunger and love of her sex! And she VALUES THAT IN YOU !

And your safe word reminds her tht by choice you have put your safety in her hands ,,,, by choice ,, by choice ,, and if she does not respect that .... Well if you do not respect her safe word and you let her HURT  you ignore her when she is in pain while hwer back is hurting or some stupid plastic flower has fallen on the bed trapping itself under her creating sicomfort ... if you ignore the owwwies as you bite her ... if I damage her to often what will happen ? wel for her own safety she will have to leave ......... well dipshit ,,, when you use your safe word ....... STOP ....... In times when you are talking with her ,, when you start to feel those unnatural   UNNATURAL  feeling of submitting to her mentally .... When you say your SAFE word ..... she can remember how much she values you , how important you are to her ,,, why , why , why she even kissed you in the 1^st place ......... AND YOU direct things like a master should ...... you reponsiblity to LEAD !  by using a safe word ...... STOP ,, stop talking ,,, ( I am feeling wrong about in the converstion we are now happening ,,,,, you feel a something ... and you take the lead to tell her .... And end the hurt ... to allow her to remember how much she values you .... Or in time you also would leave like she would leave if you did not respect her safe word. )

Ooooh some thing real cool .. left field , but the fact that you dipshit , have a PMS cycle also ,,, your Testostrone levels change monthly .... The drug of men ,, like the girls estrogen which effects moods enhances her mood , makes it MORE ,, make her feelings ,,, feel MORE .... Your man drug , makes you feel ....... MORE and gues what shit head you have monthly cycles of higher and lower levels ,, you have a PERIOD ! AND PMS. THESE INNER CHEMICALS  are very strong do not!!!!! Ignore the facts about you inner drug factory your hormones 

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Just say fuck it ..........

Young master say it , she wants to serve and fucking is natural , in service she is finnaly free of STRESS ! Yes , the girl is free of stress she can fimmaly hand over her problems relax and do just what pleases you .. like like ... getting fucked .... Even if she does not climax every time so what , she has had lots of relationships where she idi not climax every time because the male was lacking in in dersire .. in a desire like I have to hear and see and ... feel a woman cummm , my big fun , yet some times I am just hard and gotta relieve the pressure ... and it is nice to just relieve the pressure not feel like I gotta make every act of sex .. to be a memory .. something special ... I can just say fuck and she will OBEY ........

LOVE HONOR AND OBEY .......... The wisdom of the ages destroyed by todays feminisn and we now have a world full of deressed females ,, 1 in 4 ,,, sick SICK , ths system is SICK !  we destroyed the idea of obey ,, we forgot the instinct of a good man ,,, in today training our young males to weak and not responsible males ..... the seeds you sow will ....... Willl ........... WELL we got some fucked up shit going on lots of unhappiness .. sure you got money ,, now you spend it on therapists and chemicals .......

Ohhh look here at the BDSM life style young master ,, I am surprised most people who trash me ( other than for my grammer and spelling ) trash me for my ideas ,,, they are MEN .  the girls read my shit and critic they discuss they feel already a lot of fantasy along the lines of my writing ........ they are looking to learn!  You! Dumbfuck well you are not open looking at the reality all around you ... LOOK DIPSHIT HERE AT THE CONTRACT .... Me a real person here some real words . These are the notes as of last nite ... this is  a season contract 3 month

Slave Debbie's

 I am asking for training in learning how to be the save girl you want and desire . ( she private notes she .. the female wants to be what you want! She wants to make you ahppy and there by gaining your devotion for ever ... cool idea young master to that girls want this the first thing she wrote interesting huh ? )         I am giving you control over my body and mind . You will have my best interest at heart ... then she scratched out and I will submit to you ,,,

She stops her preamble here to talk to me more we were both together writing our first drafts and talking a lot about the process ...          other notes she made she titled a list EXPECTAIONS HE HAS OF ME  followed by wht the master slave means to me ... my views of slavery ... my responsiblitlies  .. my motives ( hey that sounds like wht I have been doing during all ,, all , all ,,, my writing for over a year self understanding ). Then another preamble ... I Debbie give responsiblitly ro my Master Philip of taking me into consideration in our everyday ... ( MASTER/salve is more than just ordering her to suck your dick on command )                  she started another page Titled my responsibilities .. ( again her desire to serve is strong )  cleaning the house ... doing the laundry .. cooking ,, making the bed .. taking care of myself ( important to me because she is important to me and she can forget to take care of herself .... Hey dipshit you look around you at the 60 out of 10 girls who are getting FAT ! drinking to much and just not taking care of themselves )  .... Then she  writes ..... be willing to submit sexually whenever and where ever .. learn to speak the word MASTER PHILIP more freely ........ learn to speak the words he wants to hear ...... learn to stop before I speak listen and think .... Let go of my dominance ..... OK SHE  wrote that over 3 pages some here and there just notes ,,,,while I wrote this

MASTER PHILIP's

As a master I am expressing my nature as builder of MY ife and style of living . This urge is not met disrupts my world. I accept this truth about myself. The title and the expectation of power going along with the title MASTER  , I feel carry braod reaching rights covering aspects of my slaves life in and out of the bedroom. Yet as MASTER I understand full well and deeply the value a person who would commit to me in such a form as to become my " Slave "

My Responsibilitie will be to first and always // to the best of my JUDGEMENT AND ABLITLY  act or request that my slave act in a way good and healthy for her in the long term! To increase her " Value " in her own self worth and in my reliance in her and her value and love in my eyes and heart.

I epect Slave debbie to trust my ideas , at once! Yet stop any activity which she may feel is DANGEROUS ant once . If Slave Debbie disagrees with any.. of my ideas she can reply in writing at anytime ( this was my preamble )  

Then I went on to important issues

Sexual issues .... Slave Debbie will be monagomous 1 on 1 with Master Philip .. requests of Master Philip within legal terms will be followed at once  ( basically the above says anything goes within legal limits )... Slave Debbie to be faithful and self control in flirting ane will stop when I use a safe / stop word . Master Philip understands the nature of a pretty woman to naturally attract male attention an un intentional flirting as part and parcel of being a female .

Master Philip to be faithful and self contro flirting when he realizes and will accept ..... Slave Debbie will understand the nature of the male to express caring and protectivenese that Master Phil may show to varied females .  ( OK understand we just went thru a time when I used a [pet word that I call my Debbie ,, well I used that same word with an ex - wife ..... wow big problem but understandable .... And the poly writing of my past few weeks ... all have a part to play in this being a big topic for me ! the competitive nature can be creatively harnessed or it can destroy ... like fire is our friend if controlled !other wise it will destroy )

Ok sex part is pretty easy ... whatever I want when I want and she has a safe word ,,, we just firmed up our safe word ........ owwie has become my barometer word I tell her state by her use and volume of the word .... So that could not be used as a safe word a word I will stop the scene and totally !   so ,, the word that came out of her ,,, was STOP !  simple easy to understand and a word she has as of yet never realy used ..... owwies was the safe word but honestly she also used it to tell me , what her state was not to STOP ! so I now have a hard safe word ,, that means I can dowhtever I want .... And I will not stop unless I get a STOP! Or I get tired or she gets tired or whatever .... But I am free to do whatever I want except ,, bagging , scat , and blood sport ...

On the non - sexual side ........... carreer , finances , house hold  , family , kids ....... Boiled down to this 1 ideas .... Listen to what I say , go ahead and question me about anything if you feel the need .. but first trust that I do things and recommend thngs that I feel are in the best interest of everyone .. look at the life I have already built ! so it goes back to listen do what I want if you have a problem please write it down .... If you she needs to understand and learn please tell me that you want to learn ....I HAVE A SAFE WORD IN THE NON SEXUAL WORLD .. it is here where my domance is tested most oftern sexual dominace is an effect of nature but in the outer world she has become a DOM by default .... So my level so safe words go as such ,, .... Listen ... hear me ... stop ... some time what she feels is learning asking questions I perceive as a buck .... When it goes on to long .... At that time I expect a written dialog for me to better be able to discuss the topic with in 24 hours ! 

Punsihment ... we have already had a spanking for punishment for learning for discipline ... and that will be one of the major tools I will use to say .... I feel bucked !  Since the emotionall hurt I caused her was so fresh she fears it's repetition and she wants some sort of visible way of seeing that I care enough to go out of my way to show I heard her PAIN ... so she asked I bring her a flower ... I said I would buy her an ORCHID ... it lives for a long time easy to grow around my house wilf out in thress ( I already have 20 in the wild ) plus the expression of my feelings I can express in the varied nature of these flowers . So I also have a punishment a responsibility act.

I had written a clause saying that we would not include any 3^rd party f during these 3 months ........ she wants to ignore this to delete it , since well it is a painful reality of our pasts and our natures .. I agreed and scratched out all reference to 3^rd party ( 1 on 1 I feel I want yes ,, I feel it is improbable not impossible but almost unnatural ... but yet I want a 1 on 1 also so I scatched it out freely )

Now you gotta get the idea we had 5 books on the BDSM life style that we have been studying for weeks we used these as reference ... along with the vows we each had used in our past marriages ... and our experiences .. to come up with the above ruff drafts of a 3 month  BDSM life style contract .... Not to type it up fill in the list of activities we agree to explore during these 3 months yes I a certain limits of interest myself that are similar to hers ... but I respect the idea that other things maybe tried after the 3 months ...... the desire for the subbie to explore SUBSPACE , the high of the Endorphine the drug store of the human body ,, the generating of self medications ,a dn recreational naturally produces chemcils ... SEX CREATES FEEL GOOD HORMONES ... a lil' spice ,, a little sting produces natures own herion endorhines ... BDSM is not weird ,, just read the books shit head .... STUDY PUSSY LIKE YOU WOULD FISHING !

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Her Gift ..... submission

Ok , so young master I hope you have had enough girlfriends in your life to understand the difference between a girl who is really trying to be submissive and a girl who does not understand the concept of being femine and submissive of being more inline with her inner nature ......... I have I dipshit repeated the idea of our inner animal natures as eveidenced by the way we fuck , and how important and driving the sex .. our need , our compulsion to have sex is ..... dipshit have you taken the time to notice the girls magaizines at the store counter .... Just read them and understand if it is about how she dresses ,,, that is attraction seduction ,,, sex ! ,,, if it is about relationships ,,, hey again deirectly about male and female , and why do we bond ,, because she ,, she feels empty with out a dick inside her body ,,, really dipshit they ffeel a hoolow feeling that is sort of painful ........ is the headline about losing weight ... hey attraction sedcuition sex! And well if the headline says the Positions that HE desires     well can it get any clearer sex!  .... Look at the advertising how the companies use good looking females to attract attention ....... Sex sex sex sex ... so dumbfuck please do not lie to yourself ........

This is important because like in the movie THE STORY OF   O     the line where Sir. Stephen talks to O and says ,,, that her choice to be in the life style is for her to free herself , her sexuality ........ even though you feel that the girls you are fucking are free sexually , they are not in that they must be sexually assertive to get you ,,, you shy fuck to get your sttention and get you on top of them and hard fucking them .... Now I am not blaming you honest I am not young master you are truly a victim of your NURTURE  not your nature ,,, the training you have been given to be civil ,, well civil is fine ,, but sex is not civil , it is hot forceful and passionate and lust full , it is raw desire and feelings ... it is sweaty and full of real life mistakes .... Not like fanasty since somethings are not going to go perfect! Like it does in the dream state the fansty state , in the fansty state , the way I rub her clit in her mind is perfcet and she cummms ahrd and quickly ......... and you also dipshit are kinda a victim to fantasy .... You live in your dreams so often that your dick your libido does not function as well in real life ..... evidence that this is a problem is that by age 25 you have a 1 in 2 ,, that is 1 in 2 ,,, that is insane .. 1 in2 chance or guarantee of having erectile disfunction ..... it is mental .  the difference between fantasy and what is your reality ......... but

SHE GIVES you a gift ! I am here to please you! And I KNOW that my happiness is tied to me succeeding in pleasing you ........ I finally understand that truth in myself !  hey a girl who is living like that gives you a gift that no other chick ever really gave over the long run .... Now the formal MASTER PHILIP reminds both of you of her gift . The trust to accept it , sounds like something impossible to be of problem , but dipshit depending on your back ground that will be a stumbling block ,,,, her formal use of Of MASTER will help ....... Then tthen then ... there is the stupid little things that life is full of ........ like insulting the gift her has given you.  The competive nature of the female as shown in her study in her magazines , her study and concern about seduction and sex ,, well the evidence about her her concern about competition is an every minute part of her life .... ( the drive behind poly , yet the choice of sisterhood tempered that nature ..... but we my girl and I are finally BACK ON THE BDSM TRACK .... No poly writing )  . There is a nature in me ... to be nice to females .. to be concermed and protective etc. etc .... It is in my nature ...... even when that female my have in the past PISSED ME THE FUCK OFF! BIG TIME . I will still have certain instinctual reactions to her ........ and that could trigger the insult! To the gift your subbie has given you !

In your contract , you and she wrote that you are to help her in ways ,, many many ways ,,, wand well understanding the dynamsics of your nature is 1 and her own nature is the other .......... Just like her if I fulfill her inner core balues there is now way any other male will get open access to her pussy ,, it is in lock doen reerved for me .... And like wise as she also is fulfilling my core vlues , well I am focused on getting back home to her ASAP because with her I have what I want ,,, my core values ,, so chasing hunting other pussy is a non event ... but yes you will be polite and happy for other women ,,,,,, and that will cuse her problems ..her ? your subbie shithead it will cause her problems especially when you understand how much she has given you ,,, how many mental barriers she has pasted in herself to give herself to you as your subbie ........ the programming she has already re - written in her mind .. the effort .. then for her that gift that rust can be insulted very quicly ,,, the trust broken .... It is OK the learning curve for both of you is important ....... HER FANASTY of you also comes into play , her fanasty about how you will be after she gives you her gift ........ and then the reality .. it takes times ,, it takes your mastery and concern young mster .

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Belt whipping a feminist ? by her choice !

Ok , my girl is not like an extremist feminist , but she has proven herself in the world . able to handle the pressure to be The Manager in the restaurant business for years , being the boss , completeing a tech. school and shit .... All the things that femeinism helped women feel comfortable doing , well ......... yesterday she submitted not to sex play spanking or a whipping using that fancy whip bought at a sex toy store ... no ! no playing no fun for either of us .   She got disiplilned by me in a way I have never even done to any of the 7 children I have raised ( steps and bio's ) ... I never spanked any of my kids only once did the eye for  an eye with one lil' one ...like they suggest you got a biter well bite him back ... he will get the message ... biting hurts!  BUT , it was so fucking strange unreal for both of us .....

Young master ,,, when you do this someday ,, not for play but by agreement you will understand the difference ... the difference between play and discipline you taking a right that she gives to you ,, a right she freely gives to you to teach her to be what YOU WANT ! .... Thank god for all the books we have been studying and , I am glad I had studied discipline when it comes to my kids because both learning was blened yesterday after .... She had a hard time in sayig what I wanted her to say ... remember yesterday's blog where I was talking about when she offeres me something regular like my second cup of coffee after work ,,, I want her to ... my desire ... my want .. is that she offers her SELF sexually .... With her spoken words directly and use the word the title MASTER when addressing me ! and the good girl in her would not let her say the words .... Hmmm interesting ,,, I KNOW DIPSHIT the girls can be so slutty especially in the beginning of the relationship they throw themselves into your arms , their legs spread wide with the slightest of touch ,,,, it feels as if ,, they are coming on to you ,,, but as I have heard form the vast majority of girls I have had ,,,, they always feel like it was me... ME who was coming on to them .... When I felt many many  many times I was being led to the bed by their hand ........ CONFUSIONS .... That later on expresses it self over and over in the lack of sex in the relationship ,, you do and did respect her ,,, in your mind she was ALMOST THE AGGRESSOR sexually , you ,,, mr. nice guy ,,,,yuyou were not being bossy demanding or disrespectful ,, the girl was hot and you fucked her ... and fucked her , and fucked her ,, and ,, and ... and ... THIS DEEP confusion , the fucked up fairy tale shit kept her from doing exactly what I wanted and that meant I had to LOVE HER ,,, to teach her to become what I want ........ and words ,,, words will not do the trick ...... I do not care what all the books say ...... HERE IN THE MALE/ female REALTIONSHIP  the expression of pyshical dominace is needed ...... real discomfort ,, embarrsement ,, hum ... mil .... Lity ( humiliation ? ) being human .. a female human the 1 who is penetrated ... by a penetrator ...  she is designed to be submissive , in her body in sex ,,, it is the natural design of her kind .. of her sex ..... I AM BUILT to pentrate to force myself into her body and continue to ram myself into over and over ,, THINK DUMBASS ,r eally think see feel ..sex! So to love her to prove I think she is worth my time I must give her that ,,, that ,, my time ,,,I must want her enough to go out of the way to discipline ,, to teach her exactly what I want .   Or I could just say from a distance ,,, just words traveling thru empty space whether the space is 2 feet or the other side of a mountain valley way over yonder ,,, I could have just told her to discipline herself .... And NOT GIVEN HER MY TIME ! she knows what was wrong she is super smart ,,, educated , a manger my equal .... The idea  that I need to whip her to teach her ... MY LESSON .. well it honestly fellt so fake to each of us .......... But we did  IT!

In discipline with kids you set up a special for time out , that way displine is not subconciuosly associated with regular life ,, like wise with YOUR  subbie YOUNG MASTER   you must make this separate for a spanking or whipping for SM sexual excitement ! in SM she in her mind trips she gets high on endorphins and she enters " Subspace " some of the best drugs MONEY can not buy .... The purchase price is submission !   so make sure your discipline is different .... I took off the fuuzy covering from the ahnd cuffs .... The idea  of bondage in discipline ... go hadn in hand BDSM  bondage and discipline ... BD .... Then I just exposed her ass , not sex no kissing ,,, just bend over and I used an item a STRAP  a leather barbers strap that she already told me hurts .... And reddened her ass ,, I honestly was holding back ,,, but that things just cuts into soft ass flesh like nothing else ,,, you can not bring it down in a non - painful way ... and during the discipline we went over what I wanted to hear from her .... Now understand I was patient , I encouraged her to say the humiliating expression the offer .. the words , and " do you want another coffee honey? And would you like to fuck my pussy MASTER ! "  I waited , and she stammered ,,, I whispered the words into her ear , and she shyed away .......... I said again this is what I want form you ... I want to you to ask to offer yourself to me for my use ,,,  and with a giggle she said she could not do it , to say those few words .... And I aid IT IS OK but I will have to discipline you , ... well it was right at the time dinner was being finished the buzzer stqrted buzzing as we entered the house  it was time for the FAMILY dinner ,,  a DAD a mom and 2 children having dinner ,,, The DAD and the mom knowing all the while when dinner is done she will get disciplined she will get HIT! Buy the male in her life her lover , the guy she loves that she trusts ,,, this guy is going to hit her body ,, to teach her something !!! isn't this agaist the law or something ? isn't this ABUSE !  ( honestly , young master my well trained legal law abiding inner self was saying that to me! Isn't this abuse ? )  NO .... NO .... NO  a 1000 times NO!  

Todays woman wanted to be equal ,, and she is unhappy on anti depressants .... Hiding in recreational drugs and alcohol in number reaching 3  three women out of every 4 .. in pain ,, sure she has equality and and and ,, INTERANAL unhappiness ,, emptiness and pain ! they ,, so women still drunk with their own equality think their happiness will be found in further controlling you young master ,, in directing you in taking control of the familya dn relationship ,,, but the figures the STATS they do not lie ! the un happiness is every where ,, her inner animals    cry out in pain then hide in escape ( food , TV , drugs beer or work or hobbys ) or medications , illness and doctors getting their attention by purchsasing the attention of a Therapsit or doctor ........ purschasing attention ,, pursching the the concerm of the time of another person ....

I gave her my concerm , my time .... My love with that leather strap across her ass! Then covered her bottom and held her and kissed her ,, both of us felt confusions ... there was not sex or fun or passion .... This was DISIPLINE ! not a game. .......... Think about this dipshit it is way deeper than the words I write fuckhead way ficking more confusing against the grain of your life long PROGRAMING AND HERS .

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Would like a blow job with the coffee?

I am laughing to myself like a teenager when I think about that phrase , we ,,, we adults t hink about sex as the same as teenagers we ...You also young master fucking play ili' games and chuckle and laugh hiding you discomfort and shyness ........ and I gotta realized my own tendency to atleast feel it , not ignore it , because everytime I gnore reality it comes back later creeping back into pyshce  into my personality and bites me in the ass , and that hurts , and fucks things up ........... WHAT DO I WANT ! she wants to be my TREASURE ! the idea of being treasured by me made he weep her head down hiding it to herself ,, her deepest inner desire to be wanted and needed by some one who feels her presence in his life makes her his greatest treasure ..... MY GREATEST TREASURE . but to realize that I must realize myself and my wants ,,, and those wants reflect things that I feel are personal and private weakness on my part ......... ( even though it may not be really weakness ... but male egop views it as such )

In advertising ... sometimes the headline must first ID the need ,, the problem that the reader my have in their life , the subhead hints at that your product/service satifies the problem the reader has ,, then the body goes over the details .... Often my style of approaching my girl is to first present my logic ,,, to talk about the problem ( which maybe my my own ) then the logic the benefit to her then the solutions ......... it can seem every much a hassle ,,,, but to just present the soloution often leads to a buck form the people I am looking to lead ......... old mamagement habits .

So , the issue is sex ..... great fun for her great fun and a need of mine .... Now a good girl does not like to ask for sex ,, she has been trained by the world not to ask for sex or ... or offer sex ... good girls do not do that .. right ! .... But is my treasure my slave is she supposed to satisfy the world  OR ME?  Me I need to train her to satify me .. what I want .. what will make me happiest amd most relaxed , yet a part of me is always tied to my own old programming of what is correct and moral ( kinda moral is the worng word ) but what is right .... I gotta pass these things or the old problems will return ,, that is a fact ,, we have seen it in our own life just over the last few weeks ,,, I saw it yesterday in meeting a friend at the supermarket and finding out hee is in divorce court ,,,, again over and over the fairy tale the WAY that SHOULD work DOES NOT ! work .  And I want this very pretty girl Debbie to be my truest treasure ,,, I gotta have the wear with all to do what is right for us! .......... And that meant thinking about wants and whys ,,,, and the whys were important but I amy get into them later important young mster for you to think about your past and learn form it ,,,,

So my problem is sex , amking sure it is the constant recreation ,, that we engage in sex first watch movies , or do other things second , because when a couple is engaged in sex play in the sexual teasing like I did to her yesterday ,,, she and I are closer than at any other time ,, I am totally focused on her and she on me , and we are high our blood streams full of feel good hormones the drugs of love and desire ....... There is no real good reason that any thing else should interfere wit our BEST time our closet time our ex time,,, really every time that fairy tale idea that other things like sports or movies or work or money or anything else  is equal in importance to sex , the people who live as the Fairy tale recommends ,, well they become the friend I met in the supermarket line ,,,, now , look at DOM/subbies who truly live the lifestyle fully ,,, that she gives totally of herself , gives up her ego with her DOM ,,, then they make it and make it strong for ever that I have seen ,,, but the EGO of both must mesh ,, the DOM must build his in terms of the relationship and she must decrease hers in terms of the relationship .... I was reading about submissive ego in a book about a female Domonmatirx pro who became a Subbie/slave and found happiness becoming a treasure by becoming an OBJECT .... The extreme lead to actually her becoming the most important thing in her masters life by becoming something that form the outside was treated as having no ... no .. value .. strange ( yin and yang if you think deeply ) 

The problem stated above .... The solution we already both accept the MASTER/slave contract .... The 3 month training contract .... Think of it like a plant ,, the seed of a relationship will germinate in a few days ,, the love willl grow .. the baby plant pokes it's leaf above the soil ,,, but it takes a season for the roots to grow for the plant to become stable ..... a season a summer ...3 months ... now 21 days will make a habit but even positive habits are very easy to fall out of ...... so the 3 months helps the need ,, the roots to grown deep into our souls and understanding .........

Here is a detail .... An order from MASTER  ( the I want you to form a DOM to a true subbie who hearing those words thinks first of his want .... Or does she ? what comes to mind first ? honestly later ia the relationship goes into the Fairy tale state what does come th mind of the subbie after the first dating weeks passby ? ) she already askes me if I want this or that , if I want another coffee . or if she should take away the paltes or the coffee cups .... are you done? Do you want me to take your cup ? ..... what would you like for dinner ? so many thing she offers to do for me .......... Well now add something to each and everyone of those loving questions of service offer ... yes offer .... Offer YOURSELF slave girl ( I have been using salve girl in person at certain minutes of desire and passion to prep the  mind to touch the fansty ) oooh the want K.I.S.S keep it simple sam ..... after each of her questions I want her to say ... do you want a blow job with that .. and to make sure that she offers each genral type of sex act I expect her to change the offer each time , blow job ... do you want to fuck my pussy .. my ass ... hand job .. do you want to tease and play with me just to watch me cummm MASTER ?  mpw saying master out in the vanilla world can be uncomfortable for both of us our family listening even though the adults family members know our LIFE STYLE  chooses the younger ones will be confused and also strangers ....... Asking things like that aloud can also be uncomfortable but a whisper in my ear can work wonders ... so ... in the presence of other whisper your other offer in my ear .  

We have not realy gotten into DISIPLINE to spanking for a real reason .... Here is an OP ... ( honestly this ties big time into my past confusuions about BDSM over a decade ago having a girl who I spanked to satify her sexual desries , but was finding that she was twisting it in her mind and experience into pusnishment ... wow I was not ready way back then .... But NOW ... I am more ready ... WHEN THE STUDENT IS READY THE TEACHER WILL APPEAR )  to disiplein ,,, to live and understand the truth under lieing a current popular movie Running With Scissors .... The idea the love of putting out limits and holding the ones you love to those limits ,,, especially in a MASTER / slave learning contract .  I have to discipline her , to spank her for real with my RIGHT TO DO IT  understond and wanted ... wanted .. by both ... she in tears weeping on her knees in front of me ... wants to be A TREASURE !   I must be a man ! and spank that qwhich I love an respect ... I respect ofr her strength her intelligence her guts ... her in every way the fairy tale says should be enough for us to live happy ever after YET WE WOULD FAIL IN THE FAITY TALE WORLD ...... can you feel young amster the confusion have you felt it in your own life ?

Now the idea of offering sex ..... gives me the right to take her up on the offer 10 times a day ........... we will be doing that activity which we human animals were designed to enjoy as our main ,,, main form of recreation ,, the core ,, that brought her and I together ,, you andevery woman you have ever been sexual with became sexual because of ... our animal deepest DNA drive for sex .. recreational sex ,, we as animals are NOT ! limited to having sex during a rutting season like many animals NO! we are designed to enjoy lots and lots of recreational sex ... like we did bofre all the great fun things that money can buy came into our lives before stores and shit and buyin beer and watching TV .. our animal recreation was to spend all day just fucking slowly watching your female CUMM!

By forcing her to offer sex to me ... I force her to break her good girl persona.. her fake fairy tale self .. in my presence and become a treasure to me!  A TREASURE TO ME .... To me , my treasure . She offers her body for OUR RECREATION . ( why do I want this , that oges back to all my past training and programming to deal with females stemming as far back as the interactions with the mother ... dipshit my friend you gotta kinda go over all your programming and interactions and learn what is GOOOD FOR YOU ! ,, THEN let her satify that that need for .. the BOTH of you . what is good for you is what is good for her RiGHT that is what she says when she askes to become your subbie your slave girl )

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Sexual peace and ........

That translates into life peace , understanding she has earned a piece of the world finally somewhere and with wome one where she has proven that she has worth .  The world has lied to the submissive girl to often saying YES we respect you and love now ......GO AWAY ... and this reality every where she goes has hurt the girl that comes to you until the point she really nneds of you ! you ... YOUNG MASTER to change to become what is deep in you a MASTER , dipshit a master like I was talking with you Saturady night and I was talking about that feeling you have , that something you keep trying to push down , because you have been told all your life that you should be NICE and POLITE that you try to ignore the feeling of INSULT you feel in the words and actions of the girlsin your life , to the point you have confused your own nture ,, TWISTED  your own INSTINCT ... an instinct to be a dependable reasonable Mr.  MR.    that prefix we still use that spems for the history of the human animal that we all realy deeply feel ,,, you my fine young friend are a MR. ,,,,, MASTER . TO BE RESPECTED  in and out of the sexual bedroom ... to amny good men ... dipshit are so confused that we can not even accept ,, feely given total submission ,,, FREEDOM OF CHOICE ,  she has gone out of her way to show you her submission to prove it ,,, and when she fails you she says " I AM SOPRRY "  she feels bad in fact she wants discipline for her trangressions to learn to be better to porve to you that she is really really trying to be a girl you will always want ...... earning a place in life finally ,,, somewhere she can believe she will be VALUED ,, and by some one who will not throw her away but see in her a value that he ... you dumbfuck  , you are her .. he ... you will make the effort to trin her into whatever it is that you desire ,, whtever it is that you can not live without ... WHATEVER you want !  receive her gift do not confuse her any longer with to many choices or decisions ,, having her guess at what you want .........

This NICE GUY  age ,, has confused both of you ...... both wanting the other to be happy neither one can read the deepest thoughts of the other or feel those little tiny injury and insults we by accident cause in the heart and mind of the other ,,, so instead of continueing in the world of confusion ......... The MASTER says ,, enough ,,, I want you I care enough to trin you exactly into the type of girl I have ALWAYS needed ..... and guess what , dipshit ... guess what fool ... that , that , act on your part to say that you will put in the effort to train her ,,, you love and desire her enough to teach her how to love you ,,, RESPECT  you in and out of bed .. in the exact way that you will finally be happy and calm and relaxed and peaceful ... your effort ! to become her private MASTER ,...  gives her concrete evidence of your love for her !   concrete ,,,, and the best way to make sure you both rmemeber , because life is busy so much shit going on ,,, WRIT E THE GOD DAMMED ..... CONTRACT ....  OR YOU BOTH WILL FORGET THE CONCEPTS RETURN TO FAILED PLANS AND FAIRY TALE BELIEFS ,,, AND WELL YOU WILL EACH START TO DEEP DOWN hate the other for small insults and hurts ,,, when in reality she wanted in the first place to become your property to become trained by you as you have always dreamed a girl could be trained by you ,,,, but you ... your deep nice guy training has not allowed you to think outside of the polite nice guy box .... The failed box of the fairy tale ....... Just hink about it ,, finally one girl who will be absolutely everything and anything that you want when ever she is in your presence ,,, in fact even long distance in another state still she will look to you to be her anchor ,,, you provide so much for this girl ,, and you desire it ..... YES DIPSHIT YOU DERSRVE IT .... You are a good man ... you deserve it!  Get that ideal in your mind ,,, and thenm taking her submission and training her into what you want will be easier ,,, you dumbfuck do deserve it .... She is agood girl and she deserves to finnaly be able to relax and traut that finnaly atleast one man one person in this crazy world see VALUE in her ,, when everyone else has lied to her , left her ,, fired her at work ,, used her abused her mentally physically ,, her money and respect ,t aken stolen used .... Just listen to the stories she talks about .... You finnaly now give her a stable world ,,, and it is that you have creaeted a some what stable world for yourself first ,, that you prove to her ,,, your worth ,,, and now she wants , she begs you PLEASE ACCEPT ME for who I am deep inside ,, do not laugh or think me strange ,,, love be protect ,,, I want nothing more than to serve really!  I will fail , but do not cst me away ,, but train , please train I will listen I will understand your logic in time please take time with me !!!! that is what she is sying .. over and over and over ,, can you here it ,,, is it hard to understand a new language OK , Young Master think about it like a new language ,,,, like Dutch , Spanish , French , your Jargo at work ... she speaks in female-eeeze ... learn to translate her body language and spoken language ,, and the make her happy ,, how BY TRAININ HER TO BE EXACTLY WHAT YOU HAVE ALWAYS WANTED ! every fansty you can live , with a little time and training ,, when she trusts that you have her well fare her safety and life in your heart ,, there is nothing wh  will not be able to learn to do ,,, slowly ,,, so she get used it ,,, and TRUSTS YOU .

THE CONTRACT .... Will help ,,, you will not even neeed to demand her to sign it , she is waiting for you ,, for you to write it ... she is with you knowing that she will sign or do anything for a good man , and she seeing in you a good man ... her MR. Start out with the word master in sex play  I should write about that and how getting close quicly can confuse the slow evolution of " so you say my god my god  ,, who is your god ,, who is your master , feel my cock girl who is your god your master ,,, SAY girl , SAY FUCK ME MASTER say it ! ".... Getting to close to  quick can destroy the op's for that type of play ,,but now make it more than play make it a commitment

Oh here ...her words ,, to you , the words that you want to hear from her .. tell her that!I want to heat this these type of words from you ... for me to really understand and feel ... how important my job is in your life .... I your submissive beg you master for your assistance in my life , in controlling my actions and handling my feelings and desires in and out of your presence . I want to be your slave and to provide you with pleasures and peace in all aspects of your life and world , to please you in any way you want at any time you want . I need your DOMINATION , your control and training to become whatever you want me to be . I am grateful that you ove me ehough to make this effort to own me to teach me to love you as my master and that you desire to have me in your life as your submissive slave . Please teach in any way  you desire , training reaning and discipline me to become the best I can be to make you happy Master . I promise that in the deepest part of my body and mind and heart I want to be submissive to you to kneel before you and love you . I want and ask that you test my trust my reslolve and allow me to prove to my effort and where I fail I will submit to your teaching and training in all good faith and with total effort and concentration on my part to become better in all ways to serve you and there by earn my place in the world my world , which is in your world ..... master pleae I take this list of activities as evidence of my commitment to you , I prosmise to serve you MASTER in these ways and put all my effprt into learning to serve you in other ways as you request ....  AND WELL AFTER THIS is alist of actions that you two have already some what discussed , the things important to you master and realize they are important to her ... remember the depth of her longing to find a GOOD MAN !

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Walk ,, go walk today and tomorrow

It will be an impostion ,, she is outa town with family and friends it is their time with her , ( their time remember ... no master before you ... to please her family and friends the submissive will feel the nned to respect them and not you ) they become to the submissive the master ,, they become a master of sorts a pleaser .... ( notice this in you young master and notice the unfelt resentments you hold ) so I ask her long distanst via email ........ honey go for a walk   just to the end of the block yes I know it maybe wet it maybe clod ( it will be cold that is why I ask only to the end of the block , I expect it to be cold this is amental cleafication as much as physical exercise)

What does it benefit me? If she does this how does this make her DOM smile , well she is important to me the habit she ahs been starting of her daily walk will strengthen her back , her weakest point in the way best and natural for her ,,, ahbit are easy to fall out of and hard to start .... So just making the token the lil' effort keeps her habit in place her choice ,,, next the effect of doing this for PHIL ,,, to leave her family and friends for a few minutes is a mind set on her part a remeinder of her choice of Mr.? master or mister . Letting everyone else wait patiently ,, will they not give her 5 minutes is she not that important ..... she is that important to give her 5 minutes alone .. ( hey kinda like the importance of a son in calling his mother is she not that important ? to just give her a call) the 5 minutes alone outside , cleaning the mind and spirit and she breaths fresh air ,,, and moves her body and heart .... Plus plus a hidden benift ,, to the people important to her is her example! Her going out to walk is an example ! setting this example exercise is important  to someone important to her ......... SO WHAT DO I GET OUT OF THIS ,, as a DOM I am supposed to be expressing my self hidden fanstys right? Why do you like seeing a woman cummmm? Huh why ? well she walking is good for her , the better she is the happier I am ,,,, so I ask walk and I expect to hear ,,, but but but , if I were to talk to her in person ,,, that DOM by default we have trained or let the world train our girls into becoming the girl they in reality fantasize about not being ! ... she will say but but but , she will be thinking about the other masters in her life ,,, pleasing them . yes I know it will be cold but the cold is good for you it is healthy to expose your self to the elements safely to feel nature . sanely .. I just came back from my run the grass wett and cold ... my wett became cold and numb ... it is ok , in fact good for a person in limited ways .

The but but but translated in your heady young master is ..... buck buck buck .. that is what you feel you hear ,, the trust that you will not receive bucks is hard , that is the long time term training and trust building ,,, her in that your request are in reality for her benift no matter how weird ,,, remember your smile is hers ... so so of your wiereder requests mayb ewelll , just semm weird ,,, but they help her because they make you smile ... ohh back to walking ........ she can say yes , and then not do it ,,, do I care will I know ,,, NO I will not know but her inner self will no ,, and the slip down the rod to where she odoes not want to go will return .... Her inner motivations .  to be able to say all this to a DOM girl is difficult to say all thses ideas to your girl will be difficult ..... does not mean you can not find other methods of talking some times , talking in a way that she can not say but but but about giving herself what she wants ............ why did she choose you ? and you ask her to do what ? walk to the end of the block and then back ... today and before you leave tomorrow ............ what will she feel ,, how will she learn ,, and best is that she keeps up her positive habit of walking .

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Jackin' off to ....

I said young master it is what you use during that , during your time releaving pressure , jackin off it is those , dreams ideas thoughts visions , that honestly you push them so far down that they in fact effect you in negative ways ,,, and the idea of expressing your DOM. SIDE COMING OUT OF THE bdsm CLOSET you get to clean up the repressions and free yourself ,,,,,, plus you will do nothing with any girl that the girl does not also want but often she is to shy ( like the good girl she ,,,,) she is to shy to express you lead her where she wants to go respecting her safe word ,,,, NOW SOMEthing about safe words it is frustrating when in the beginning they use the safe word to much but remember this is the beginning with her ... as the trust builds she will use her safe less as you guide her to using it less as you pass thru ..... honestly that is where talking must come in to re -difine ,,,RE DEFINE  her safe word after trust has be felt by her ....... Ohh fuck I am supposed to be talking about jackin'off and fanasty ........ see for the first time im many months I am alone .... Wow this is weird I do not like it ... so I have had to service myself and that means using the largest sexual organ a lot ,,, the largest organ is your brain and fanasty there in .... I also was using some porn that mygirl frined brought ..... interesting to have this access to her fanasty in her choice of which porn she keeps and carries with her in her travels thru life plus remembiong the porn she talked about seeing etc etc.   all hints to places she my want to go but will not say so ,,, she being a good like always , the innocent girl that I want her to stay and your job as master ,,, dipshit is to guide her safely there and back into rel life fanasty and back to being a good girl ... just a girl . Young master if you do not learn to do it then she will live her fanasty with a DUCK  yes and no if it walks like a duck and sounds lika duck it must be a duck and old saying ,,, well if it sounds like a man acts like a man maybe walks like a man but but but YOU HAVE TO BUY IT A ........ PENIS .... It is not a DUCK ! it is not a man !  then why why submit to it .... A fantasy of a fantasy ....... There are not enough DOMINATE males no there are not enough to satify the amount of girl who dream because they all dream every girl every human dreams of things ,,, and why do we dream why do they dream ......

What have I dreamed these last few days ,,,,, I said I am coming out! And I have been saying things to the whole world now for over a year self publishing my book ,,, and world wide web blogging ........ I have taken on the part of teacher and mentor again like I did for Phils Bait and Tackle ,,, taking my limit love for something my limited experience then growning in experience and skill and study then teaching ,,,,,,, her video was a 2 on 1 vidoe many many double pentrations , well that is something I do some what regular anyway using toys and it is great all girls get fanstic orgasisms .......... But that leads me into the idea of more than one girl ,,,,,,, WRONG , my girl needs to know she is special and that she will never never be put aside ,,, that she will be ( I will use the slave words for weeks to explore the swing of a pendulum in the mind of her myself and you dipshit ) she will be my numbe 1 slave ,,, but means she realy realy has to learn to serve me as I realy deeply truly need to feel the peace in my life I have always searched for and she still needs to maintain her freedom of choice and her right to speak ,,,, but the effect of her DOM nature sometimes has caused me stress , a sence of buck lil' thng s in lil' ways small subconsiuio tones of voice ans shit things that are very hard for her to change to switch off like a lite bulb , but things that would leave her in time sometimes what is needed for person to make such changes is extremer levels of training ........ do you got the guts you master do you trust her enough to lead her where she wants to go ..... next for me is the idea of having The Byrd come over and re-build the garage into a good sound proof play room that is big bucks and a year long plan plus ...... ohhh the time needed to explore turst to build her into some one I can not live without ( no I am sorry the idea of some I can not .. can .. like I am trapped that will never happen ,,, but someone I will never ever want to lsend away of to leave ... now that is different )

Now I have a desire to explore some of my theories to the point I was trying to get a young master to work some of my street pick up ideas ,,, to live only thru online picks I feel is weak eventually we all must be reall be face to face so ,,, doing street pick up of girls is good for a males skill level ,,,,,,,, ( THE MENTOR TEACHER IS ME IS ALWAYS THERE my old love , sprot of fishing and now coming out and saying that girls were as important NO! more important and now it is time to creative in that arena ) but to do that type of thing means I will I will end up with submissive girls of al ages shapes and sizes .... Since the demand for male service is there and the masters are not ... I know me I will end up with girls .... And then to qualifiy young masters in a way I feel I truly have men worthy of training of being master those who in some way can master themselves first ,,, then they have the right and responsibility to master the girls who need them

Remember yesterday the idea that the pleser in the girls I being stressed torn apart by the need to please everyone ,,, but if she choose to serve 1 master and only 1 master then ,,, she can quiet the world and finnaly find peace ! the service you provide dipshit ....... Is by letting her do what comes naturally and un... un /// unnaturally to her , what comes in her fanasty life which you will learn by experimentation over the trust building days and thru means of talking .... But I see myself in fansty teaching girls to be submissive , and young men to be Dominate ......but what does that have to do with me ... with me right now as I am thinking and exploring my ideas before I write my first draft of a relationship contract ..... oh the use of wording the importance of words to the deepest parts of the mind ....... That is why in the book they make sure you use words like slave and master the formality I have shunned in my past 10 or so years ago the ideas that over this past summer I started to question myself about ,,, the idea ... am I ready to hear the word SIR ... and what about love ....... Her bing my lover ,, well did my girl friend ( my special friend who is a female ) well did we not do the gushy I love you honey stuff and did it not ........ collapse ? like all the others we each had done in the past ,,, the formality of the MASTER/slave has in it the day to day remeinders of the reason why we both freely choose to be in the relationship ,,, now the idea the use of the words DOM/sub , is kinda surgar coating the MASTER/salve roots ........ but since master slave is often very  pain slut oriented and very etreme I understand the reasons why the use of surgar coated words is important ....... But the truth is every relationship is special and with its own rules choices and shit ......... not some black and white rule book thing ,,, each person is needing something and what are my NEEDS ?

 Sexual and especially non sexuall ,, the sex part is pretty easy it is in all the other shit ,, the other parts of life where the problems build in ili' things we each do that bug the other ,,, and it is here where the choice of DOM/sub can help 1 leads the other put up with ,,, now dipshit ,, you got a good girl following you putting up with you so that she can see you smile?    See your smile , well dipshit some day you may shit on her once tomany times and the subbie may not submit ,, all that means is that you will have to go back out to the street of course .....but ,, but .... That subbie your good girl .. is human .... In the outside world she has to have a safe word also ,,, when your attitude and cations hurt her like you hurt her in BDSM play ,, she has to have a safe word ..... to tell you she has been hurt and needs her master to help her !  you should bwe reading and studing ,, if so you will already understand sexual safe words ,,, now I feel I must give her a everyday safe word ,,, THAT WAY I CAN BE MYSELF AS I AM ,,,,,  not worry and think if I do this or say that will I hurt her feelings?   No I just be mayself the fuck head I really can be ... and if I do hurt her she will tell in her safe word ... and since she is important to me ,,, will stop the pain ! .... I will listen and learn something ( maybe learn something I do have a thick skull in some ways ) ...... but atleast she has a sfe word she can stop the pain ,,, but maybe like in sex , she also will learn .. she will pass certain levels accepting me more and more for who I am ............  her safe word .........

I sex is easy ,, but I bring up other chicks poly and shit ,,,, but that hurts most girls in fact the idea of seeing her tied and fucked by other men that idea hurts ,,, ( I honesty feel that her being fucked by other mean 4 times a year is a gentice deep urge we human fulfilled thru the rituals of festival times of the seasons .... Read TWISTED INSTINCT 4 season for ........ but there is the reminder ....of buying the duck a penis ,, and my delight in her pleaure of using a dildoe on her , that another male is just my right to use a living dildoe in her ,,,,,,,, but what if .. what if she meets another male falls in love or cheats on me .... Behind my back ,,, all these things prove one thing I DIDN NOT MEET HER CORE VALUES ,, it does nean that it does not hurt ... yes , but I have not met what she really did need so she in her free choice has omoved on and I should wish her wll and happiness ...... MASTER YOURSELF dipshit or live in fear ....... Are you master dumbfuck? Am i? .......... But this is where trust is needed .. and our last 5 months have been a great start ... START .... On the road to trust ......  end this blog here and then write a simple first draft incomplete realtionship contract ,,,,,   

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No MASTER before you

Wow has that ever worked for the catholic church or what ,,, the idea that people will choose to serve a master even a master they can not see .... Give it their money , go to war and die for it , adjust their ex life because of it ,,,, 1000's and 1000's of years this idea has HELPED millions find a place in the confusion ........ YES I SAID HELPED even thought governments and churches have abused the trust of the people and had them die in the name of their master - god ...

The subbie the slave ( remember I will use the slave word to explore extremes to mentally swing the pendulum of conditioning you have been exposed to in your life young master ) she is a pleaser she is searching for something ,,,, YOU? Maybe maybe not ......... like in a church people will gladly find peace in service , and to stop the confusion of ages past with to many gods , the Romans learned that 1 god was the ticket ( THEN AND ON SUB GODDS  in the form of the trinity and all the saints and shit ,,, but in the end they are like you just part and parcel of INFINITY the Toa .  So your subbie can get confused to easy and by joining with you she has 1 focus you , your happiness , her esteem in your eyes first .... Everyone else comes second ,,, she must trust that you work in her best interest and that may mean in the best interest of her family or kids , like a religion a good god ,  a good father .  BDSM is so very complex when you study and not just see the sex play of the scene .  Her day to day focus is all about how you feel and think .... WWJD what would jesus do .... She thinks about you .... And the subbie the pleaser all to often can get distracted by the demands of life it causes her stress o , by thinking first about you she has a focus .... No longer is she a victum to " divide and conquer " she can move away from any stress and put the responsibility on you .... Here is some thing tghat happened twice today ..... divided attention on the phone and my reactions to it ... one was my girl friend ..... ( no she is not a slave or even truly yet a real subbie , yet ... no I am wrong  she is inherently subbie but not a lead/ dominated subbie let me say that )  so on the phone with me she , was bing interrupted by 2 other people ,,, I could feel her stress in her voice , the type of stress that brings out in her ... her dominate side the side she realy does not like because having to be DOM is stressful to her ........ no one got her attention she was being torn apart ,,, in the MASTER/ slave contract that she ( a subbie  will have choosen free will like choosing to serve a god from a book an idea a theory)   she would stop and put her attention her focus on just 1 thing 1 person me ..... AHHH freedom , no more reason to be a PLEASER TO THE WHOLE !!! WORLD  any more she only needs to please 1 person and that is me ! Of course because her best interest is my best interest ,,, finding a good girl subbie ain't easy .... I will choose quickly what I feel is best for her ....... And I said " honey 1 thing let me say the car will get fixed isn't that cool , now go do what you gotta do and have a great lil' vaction .......""  I do not have to wait on the phone feeling ignored by her she does not have to worry about me being unhappy .... And the rest of the world , well the rest of the world will have to wait politely because she ahas responsibilities that come before the rest of the world ,,,, she has her MASTER TO  think about ,,, do you get it dipshit ,, do you seee the level of deep helpful service you as king bring to those who let you serve them by ruling them ........ YOU MAKE HER LIFE  way simple she only has to worry about that male you young master who she will come home who she will ( or is planning to ) serve for the rest of her life ,,not these other temporary distractions in her day to day life ........ they can wait patiently or go fuck themselves .

Now dumbfuck when you encounter this I want you to feel if you hesitate for second if your mr.nice guy comes back and you start to let her control you and the phone conversation if she is delaying you and you are letting her do it ?  fine tothine ownsself be true learn dipshit realize what you are doing the .. old programing that  pussy beggar which you were trained to be ...... feel him show up all to often . Yes there seem to be other men more what should I say more DOM bigger stronger their presence send off waves of threatening power ,,,,, but in reality the threat of DOM by power I sweakest in todays legal world ,, if that DOM acts he goes into a cage where he has no pussy into the legal system , so YOUNG MASTER , understand learn for the ancient romans about the mental aspects of SELF CONTROL ... informed choice .

See , the other call later today was from one of my daughters .... That relationship is way different since the day of her birth they talbes have been turned .... I was and still am the beneficial father a leader who cares and protects and yet demands ....... So when she was distracted , I responded without hesitation ....... With " are you talking with ________ or me ? "  forcing her to make the choice at her age is fine she is no longer my lil' girl but our relationship and way of treating and interacting is respectful and carring towars each other ,,, two important people in each others lives .... Respect and love ....

YOUR slave young master ,,, is not a game ,, some one who you will just put a collar on and put in the corner ,,, no that is just fanasty stuff scene stuff .... Study pussy young master study and learn the complexity of BDSM and realize the complexity and meanings and benefits behind the exploring and writing of contracts ....... Explore the extreme because remember the failed relationship of your present and past are only the extreme of todays FAIRY TALE ..... just as MASTER/slave is the extreme of DOM/subbie .....  

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Sex fantasy honesty

We are expected to go for our dreams in things like work to let those dreams guide our choices of carrers and schooling and where we will live even ..... we tell our kids to go after their dreams ,,, but when it comes to one of the deepest most basic drives the basic drive that forces us human to become social in the first place way back in time 2.5 mikkion years ago when we changed probably from and animal that could only enjoy sex during the SEASON like dogs and cats etc ,, to animal who can enjoy recreational sex any time ........... this acting force of sexual recreation is why we are social and not single solitary animals  this most basic drive ,,, we are expected to ignore these DREAMS but live for the dreams of making dirty green sutff to become slaves of happiness thru buying it ,, make money buy shit be happy ..... yet when we look at ourselves and really feel understand our motives we see and understand how much of our happiness it related to socialing , and sex is a social activity ......... deep chemical drives that our body produce chemicals with out our control which force us to think about sex sex sex on a regular basis ,, girls whose lives are interrupted regularly with actual ..! real bleeding for sex .... That warm desire and feeling of lust ,,,, the nned for another person ,, to be social .... DREAMS fanastys ,,, when it is to do with sex , we call it fanasty ,, something unreal that we should not expect to happen ,,,, should no ,, a should , something of outside control ,,, do you like to be controlled young master ,,, YONG MASTER . do you like being controlled I ask ? your shoulds control you dipshit ........ and the idea that you ahould not expect to live your sexual fanasty ..... your dreams ,,, live your dreams we are taught and we do it! We go to college study a trade something we have a desire for ,,, to serve to create in that arena ,,,,, we move to different towns to explore those jobs , we buy houses in neighborhoods that people like ,,, of like careers live in ,,, and dress in the clothes of thoat income level ,,, fitting into a dream .... Yet ignore the most basic drive of humanity to be social , and enjoy FREE natural healthy recreation ..... FUCKING FUCK !   YES FUCKING YOUR DREAM HER DREAM ......... !  yet ignore that and focus on money because a slave to money .

So ,,,,, in the BDSM world , the world of fanasty ,,, the idea that you must , finally tell eome ( in my case everyone ) your sexual fansty ,,, is paramount .. without the dreams there are scenes .  YO DUMBFUCK if you work a job you hate , a job which is not relted to your dream in some vague way ......... you start to hate your job . be hide in dope and drink ... and you search everyday for the chance to change jobs , you complain and live in hell .......... Live your dream job or atleast the core value of your dream job ,,, I wash windows now for 14 years and love it ,,,, I was a Professional sport fisherman my name everyday on the daily news in Miami Florida the world fishing catpital traopical paradise ,, and me ,, yes me PHILIP VANDERMUDE was a frontline everysingle day name in everyhouse of everyfisherman .... I was on top of my sport in the biggest fishing city in the biggest fishing state of the largest fishing country in the whole fucking world ,,,, in ths sport of fishing during the 80's not fucking shabby ! and now I would not go back there and give up my life of today ,,, no fucking way! So the job of your dreams is a deep thing a deepest motive of how you serve your fellow human and yourself .......... BDSM is the idea of living your dreams and how that serves the other humans and yourself ......... YOUR FUCKING DREAMsex ..... and with out knowing what is your dreams ex and then ,,, addressin it , accepting it ,, studing it , and talking to the other humans you want to socialize with ( your choosen partner your girl/s ) ...... how can the dreams your dreams be lived with out the guts to say these are my sicknest dreams ,,, I am awhack motherfucker with fresh pussy smelling panties in my glove compartment not this month's latest copy of the fishing magainzne but my girlsfriends gift her her panties , the smell of her hormones gets me HIGH !  ARE YOU A SICK MOTHER FUCKER AND PROUD OF IT! ,,, IT IS WAY HARD TO COME OUT OF THE CLOSET  !  gotta respect the gays and lesbians who have done it ..... coming out of the bdsm closet is hard ... got the guts YOUNG MASTER?

Living your dreams well , what are your sex ,,, dreams ,,, hint they are those dreams you use when you jack off ,,, accept those dreams , understand the deepest motives in the sickest of them ,,, now do not live the sickest ones except in that you find the true deep thing in it ,, what is the deepest common theme ,,, and then realize there are loads of girls looking to meet you! YOUNG AMSTER , aman with guts enough to come out of the closet and help them live their dreams ,,,g irls are way more sexually free than us ,, remember they have to actually fucking bleed thru their sex oragans for days and days each other , they carry those large heavy tits .... We donot think about sex like they do , the way they color their dface and worry about their looks while we live in jeans and stained t- shirts ....... Realize you dreams , talk about your dreams in fucking detai ,, remember th details ........ of your dreams , and then TREAT THOSE DREAMS like you would treat the dreams you have for your job/career ..     so work just as hard to live your basic desire dreams .... YO ! DIPSHIT EVERYONE HAS THOSE DARK KINKY DREAMS YOU ARE NOT alone ! EVERY fucking priest ,, doctor , shringk ,,, ice good person has deep kinky sex dreams and desires ,,,, in BDSM we say SAFE SANE CONSENT !  ........ but how can you get your dream job until you accept it ,, and then desribe the job to others , who can help you ,,, who will help sexually ? girls will help you sexuaaly .... Not your drunk fishing buudy hanging around the bait shop !   

   YOUR DREAMS , think write accept them , come out of hiding the closet with them ... you exial dreams are only dreams about becoming social in a nautral healthy way ,,,, no matter how sick your dreamsa re ,,, most often the sickest dreams are expressions of repressions ,,,, the deepest drive of humanity is to be social to creat new life ,,, not hurt each other but support each other the drive you have young master is to protect that female you just fucked and stuffed her pussy full of your sperm ,, your inner drive is to help protect her , to make her life comfortable so the child from your sperm will be healthy and strong !   your deepest sex  fansty is in realtiy good!

It is from this your dreams the contracts with your subbie will be written the contracts that help each of you be honest to the other and yourself ,,, the contract both of you can remember , that you have stated , this she stated that ,, a true understanding of LOVE and what it realy means to each and what is expected of each ,,,, truths ... not just happy lies of trying to make each other happy ,,, would you work or study with out knowing understanding certain aspects ... why live love blind ,, and FAIL  like everyone else ?

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Contract? Like a Bussiness ? but this is love?

And we todays lovers have a 60 percent chance of divorce ,,,, our dating relationships are like a 95 percent level of break ups ,,,, and it is my opinion that shit like this , the paim felt by like fucking everyone ,is because we believe that the word ... the fairy tale the word promises ,,,, is , is , is ......... it is real . but not by trusting in something as broad as the idea of what a word can possibly mean ..   what is love , and just saying I love you ,, well how many people have said that to you and how many times have you said that to someone else ,,, and well now look at you ,, YOUNG MASTER ... huh dipshit it has been fucking hard your pain is being expressed in the music you listen to ,,,, dumbfuck you do know the lyrics of your favorite songs right ,,,?  Listen to them ,, like I explored KOrn's music in TWISTED INSTINCT .... I understood that I was .. I was ..felling .. LIKE A FREAK ON A LEASH .   I understood Jons feelings his thoughts you were supposed to be a cheap fuck for me to lay ! LOVE? TO JUST TRUST TO LOVE IS NOT WORKING .... We each want to see the other happy and in that is confusion leading to not smiles and love but ,,,hurt .

So , the contract ,,, spells out the motives of each ... general terms , motives expected from the other ....  I personally am not talking about BOOT LICKING club scene bullshit but yet like pain gives a sensation of flying and freedom to the subbie so , does humility ,,, but that is some very strange shit when done like so many do it ,,not my trip .... What is YOUR TRIP dumbfuck ,, knowing your wants , me right now knowing my real wants , and clearly describing them is the first step ..... and we my subbie and I had to go down the regular road of trusting to the word of love ,,, to again seee it fail ,, and our inner desire for each other has brought us into understanding all the regular solutions which were not solutions to all our past marriages and relationships ..were not! Solutions , so why still do them ,,, huh why do the same old thing ..... how about thinking out side the box of failure !  BUT DOES SHE HAVE TO BE CALLED YOUR SLAVE ,,,?  Hey that maybe her limit maybe she can find no pride in that word , but maybe she can find a pride in that word ........ her pride her motives .... Her real deepest inner wants , the ideas she has thought about from time to time since she was like little now , these drives are to be explored slowly in the hands of a loving DOM ,,,, a wise king and leader she trusts to act in her behalf ........an benefit ,,, and if it is truly for her benefit then you GOOD MAN get what you realy want deep down to see the woman who you love smile ,,, YINI AND FUCKING YANG ,,,, not boot licking unless some how that level of humility serves her because it does serve some girls who am I to judge them ..... writing the contract dipshit is your job as leader not hers ,,, do it for her .... But like we have done these last months going down the regular road of relationship failure ,, honestly trying ,,, but letting a failed system prove again its inherent failures can be needed ..... to get the MO-TI -VATION on both your parts . The internal honesty , you each need to realy be honest , and not just being nice to the other ,,,, it gives each of you time to trust the other ,,,, for me to believe that she realy wants me to lead and discipline ........ and discipline ?  wow that is a concept what is discipline ,,,, is it the game of spanking? Or is that erotic play ( I feel it is erotic play mainly )   discipline is just saying NO ..... and having her stop long enough to listen and not buck not question ,, not complain not fight .... All things that no woman will do with ease . unless she is motivated . I kept talking about motives brought about by competiton in the poly .... The self controls brought about by the urges of nature thru the poly relationship that was built by the women involved .. the poly of my theory also was complex in that the girls have to think and believe and understand ............ THE BDSM contract is the same ,,,,,, the thinking and belief and understanding of motives your inner wants , her inner wants ...... OH dipshit is pussy important enough to study? Yes dumbfuck it is , you really gotta really look at how much of your money your life your efforts are tied in some way to PUSSY ... the car the cool ego you project ,, your choice of jobs to get the cash to get the toys to have the fun that ...... attracts the pussy or keeps the pussy you already have ........ so mush of your life is in part effected by your sex .... Your fucking DNA dipshit ....

So , I need now to brain storm about my own desires and be fucking true , let the chips fall hwere they will ,, be fucking true ,, but like the good and wise ruler ,,, I try attempt to present it in a wayt to allow for the evolution of what we all want ,,, and what is the constant ... since she does loves meshe wants to see me smile.... Simple basic motive ,,, and what makes me smile what makes me sad ,, what makes me stressed ( hey when I am stressed I do not smile )    what do I want , well I want to see her smile why because I love her ,,,, and she smiles when I smile .. so I gotta lower confusion and stress in our relationship ?  hmmm wow fucking simple ..... but why is it hard because ,, you YOUNG MASTER you are not being true , you are lieing to her ,,,,, I say one thing then write another ,,, yes I have been doing that let my subconsiuos mind express itself in my writing not judgeing my words but just writing and what comes out is not the same as the lies the words and manipulations I say to try ,,, try ,, try to make it all better make her ahppy ... I TWISTED MY INSTINCTS .. to fit the femisnt ideals of today ,and got all the unhappiness this new age can give ........ just look around you dumbfuck do the same old thing get the same old results ,,, so it is no gamble to trusth that your are truly a GOOD MAN , and like the good wise king your attempt is always honorable ,,,, so be true to her !  explore your deepest thoughts your deepest inner nature ,, your animal DNA ......

Example ,,, the buck , I must define what I feel the buck is ,, but explore the buck ,, with out the fear of hearing her buck of me describing my ideas of the buck ,,,, just read that line and see understand the level of fear of separation all males have and why we have become so passive on average eventually just becoming drunks out of frustration ..... the buck ,,,, I am male , it is in my DNA accept this ,, work from this idea , and forget for the most part the lies of the fairy tale world that says ,,, just trust the beauty of love ,, ( yes I love ,,, love ... hell that is why we are writing a DOM/sub contract to preserve LOVE ) ... understanding the buck and expressing your ideas without fear or blame ,, to express your ideas may ,,, mya ,,,may ,, feel like BLAME to her and often it is blame ,, you are only human shithead ,,, and if she feels a buck coming a fight a defensive feeling it is because she does feel it it' truth that  she does this ...BUT , BUT , but .... The opening of a buck .... Expect first a trust ....form her then as you both go down the road of life explain your ideas ,, guess what your inner ARMY GENERAL will feel better about her after she trusts you first then you are much more open to explaining your whys and aas you feel she understands your logic you are more likely to her spin because her spin now comes from the girl who really understands your motives .......... Wow much more comples than just saying whatever you think will keep her ahppy or just giving in to whatever she wants or bringing her flowers to say ou are sorry .... Submitting . then leaving her to go get high ,, becaue of pain deep inner unhappiness to the point living under the influence of a drug is better that living !

IT IS EASY AND IT IS NOT EASY ,,, BUT dipshit my friend ,, are you a leader ? yes you are it is iin your DNA now fucking lead .........

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MASTER/salve contracts

The name Master or slave ,,, DOM or subbie ,, gives a feeling to people of the sorth or importance of one [person over another ,,,, nothing can be more wrong ,,,, it is 2 people realizing the animal within and then fighting with life reality and old programming to get back to SYNC with their inner nature ,, onw can not be ... without the other .... Like the title SIR the daily rep[eating of the nature ,, the something my words are not flowing . but the recongning of our ... our choice .... The contract is written ,, it is there to describe our ..our wants ... to help us remember who we realy are and why we went down this road in the first place ....

When we first read about the contract , I said , this is not for us ... at this time ,, we need to study more , to learn about ourselves ...and for us to encounter and address the old habit patterns we will fail back into ... well we did fall back into old patterns ... and now after reading contracts form others in books we are studing about the DOM/sub lifestyle we can no more appriecate ,, the benefits of written contracts and time lines .... The idea we can frame the contract hang it on our bedroom wall to remind ourselves of WHY ,, why we are together ,, it is not just sex and spanking ... no it more real more deep ,, more important ..... it is the everything else that fucks up the great sex ,,,, those parts are what are expressed in the sexual contract , the under lying themes ,, and motives .

Lots more to be writeen by me on the contracts I will suggest . ,my  view of the mountain range ,,,, that consists of 2 mountains .... Each mountain only seeing the other mountain  form one point of view at a time .... Not seeing the volcanic action taking place within. Hidden within .

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Poly Amor Us

Hmmm .... Interesting to find that word in MY FAVORITES on the comp . who was searching it ? I wondered at first , but then more importantly was as I read about the word , the idea of it being a PHILOSOFY ( however you spell it .. ) ...love as a philiosphy .. hmm interesting the idea as said by many many people that men and women see the SEX act differently for the women it is a show of love an expression of love ...( whatever love is honeslty whatever love is ,, it is a word that has meaning from the point of view of your ,, your experience ..... are you the PENETRATOR or the penetrated ? ) so the idea that love is a philosophy that is what I got ,, I wondered again about ... yes love I love the women in my life that I have today ,, the girl I pledged to be in a 1 on 1 with ,,, I must have started to write about the poly because the 1 on 1 was breaking down , I felt like I was going down the same old road as before ... the idea of DOM/sub it seemed disappeared , fault is not important except that I take my share .......... And honestly in that the DOM/sub relationship was failing was my fault ,,,, my want to see her smile ........that is pure SUBMISSIVE behavior on my part ... hmmm interesting . We both had started our relationship committed to being different and I allowed us to go down the same old road ....

 .. kiss kiss I just make the noise and she stops everything her important project , stops right in her tracks and turns to come back to give me a kiss ...... the idea that from the tone of my voice she could sense I thought her actions were a buck and she goes and does the thing I wanted ,,, it makes me wonder ..... the devotion the idea ... the idea that when I allow my self be natural and I enjoy seeing her .. squirm in discomfort she gets devoted to me .... And I let myself like it .... Do the evil thing to like seeing some one in discomfort .... And admit it ... hmmmm interesting I am in reality doing the BEST THING .. but do I  enjoy discomfort as part of nature ? YES ,,, my forcing my hard dick in her pussy is discomfort ... that gasp every girl makes when we enter them , the shock of penetration ! a good ahrd fucking the type of fucking that every girl really likes ,,, AS per data girl like good hard fuckings )  given the choice between long slow and soft , versus hard strong and true ... if they could only have it one way for the rest of their lives .... Only 1 way - not a reality just an question ... the choose hard and true .. why why ?? the girls knew they can self stimulate to get off during the hard and true and get off cumm harder and better , that being stuck the rest of their lives with slow caring and soft where they also have to self stimulate to get off and never feel passion .... True desire animal desire ... hmmmm so why does my nice guy worry so much about her smile? When in reality I do not understand what makes a girl smile ... I AM NOT A GIRL .... How can I really understand them ... so be myself animal self and guess what they are happiest ! then and only then .

THERE was the is girl I knew years ago who did  not know her father ,,, and then later in life he contacted her ... and the reason he gave for not seeing her or talking with her or being daddy to her ,, was .... Was ... WELL it was that he did not want to rock the boat with his current wife ,,,, the female  he had given his honor to his word of love to .... ( the I love you slave effect )  the smile of the woman in your lfie is extremely powerful ,,, one of the cores in TWISTED INSTINCT  is that concept the power of weakness , but look to universe and undertand the power fo dark matter versus visible matter the weak forces that are being studied now a days .... So many times lately I think about the idea was I hiding when I wrote about the POLY ,,, was I living without commitment ? no I the idea of poly needs extreme  commitment on the part of a good man ......... not getting totally tied to just one person ... but is being tied to just 1 person reality or fairy tale ,,,, I love my woman my children my family all in their own way ....... The dream about 1 and 1 meeting and becoming this tory book of love that in reality ,,, in reality ... in reality ... know one can find ........ hmmm interesting .. ( reality no one can find , you really gotta look at all those happy marriages you think you know are happy and look deeply at them )   so , my Debbie and I said we would become DOM/sub do ,, not! .. do the same old thing , but I let us down and I did not lead ... I did not have the guts to chance not seeing her smile ... I did not rust her devotion ,, a devotion I do not understand .... A devotion I have never seen or experienced in my past form any ... any ... ANY  other female towards a male , ( this includes my mom to my dad a couple who from the outside looked like they lived the FIARY TALE , AND FROM THE INSIDE OF THE FAMILY HONESTLY THEIR LIFE WAS VERY CLOSE TO FAIRY TALE LIFE OF HAPPY EVER AFTER .... ONLY because dad was an I love you slave and very happy ... they were just lucky and from an age that divorce was ont common so they made it . )

So ..... the DOM lives his ideas of what life should be and he depends on the subbie to find happiness her own happiness in seeing his ( mine ) ... HIS DREAMS COMING TRUE .....  with that in my mind as my new fairy tale ..... when I say a I WANT YOU TO ... and I get what I want I smile ,,, and then a day or two later it changes ,, my expectation is not met ,, ( even though she thought she did something ,,, her ideas ... not mine .. hers ) my expectation not met ......hmmmm what to do what do say the male in me ,, how to motivate her to get it ..... that what I want may have many different aspects in the want .... Her beeinfits my bennifits ... but in the end ,, is the trust that what I wanted will be what I get , so that I can live my life without to much stress with out her actions being another viariable ..... som one else I have to woryy about letting me down ,,, it is enough that my employees willl let me down and I fire them in droves if I do not get the inner motivations form them ,,,, I am let down by my children because they children only visitors who share my life for a few years ( 18 ) , by friends and family .. by customers and event he stores and restaurants I frequent ..... all the world is a variable  ... and when you have a girl a subbie a slave ? ( the salve of BDSM is a slave of choice ,,, a pride in their service and status  ) a girl who is also a vairiable that all to often when you say  ,,, iwant you to ,,, in reality it will be changed into her ideas ,, to the point that I do not want to have my ideas changed questioned to the point I do not want to talk .... ( felt that in us especially when it comes to her business ,, her business ...her and it should be hers ..... and that bing the case the DOM/sub life should be seprated just o insure the buck of hers is not brought into the rest of the relationship destroying everything ............ )  oh this concept of this problem of going form just GREAT SEX PLAY into 24/7 realtionships and respecting the individuals self determination , the subbie's  Dom in their world out side of the DOM/sub    and how that can fuck up the good life each othe lovers want ,, the DOM and the subbie  .... Ohh young master so much to think about to realize to remember to fail at ... nad then to learn form and start over and over and voer ....

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SEX makes feel good hormones

So , why? Not tease her ! sexually tease her start her own pharmacological lab her body producing the drugs healthful and happy your girl will become ,,, whynot touch her pussy? Young Master I am refereeing to her cycle days especially the day before that bitchiest of days the bloating the uncomfortableness that changes the smile you fell in love with into a person you honestly hardly know ..... yet you know the girl you love is ini the person who now is just complaining about everthing nothing is right in her world .... Yo! Dumbfuck we can not understand .... I REPREAT AND REPEAT ,, we are not the same we are not EQUAL ! you young master do not have the chemicals running thru your body telling it to dissolve it's own skin into a river of blood ... nope we males do not have that ...... PMS actually hormones in general are a fact in the world and day to day life of males and females ,,, you dipshit are some what controlled by a constant flood of micro ,,, micro drips of a very pure perfect drug called the big T testosterone  it happens in larger doses every what is it 45 minutes but the drip is almost constant in micro doses happening every few minutes

Girls have this dissolving of skin cells time , a re- building and richening of those cells time .... A ripening of egg time ..... a traveling of the egg down the tube time ..... and all these times are accompanied with days wotrth of chemicals to start the girl thinking UNCONSCIUOSLY about sex .... Sex ... sex and different sexual needs relating to the needs of the body at the time ,,,, as she starts to ripen and egg is getting ready ,, what type of lover is the girl looking for ,, what type of sex ?  her body wants a father for her egg....? Right like th bird which we evolved form the dino ancestor that is all life on this planet ,, ane egg layer ,,, the female looked for the male who could make a good nest and ,, and looked healthy attractive ,, good tail feathers like the peacock .... The NICE GUY ...... now after the egg releases she need good strong deep fucks to insure she is full of sperm .. logical that the body would want lots of sperm to fertilize the egg ... the body is built to have children ,, the DNA ANIMAL ,, not the feminist woman of today ,, but the flesh and blood animal ... tha we all in reality are ALSO .. we are minds but we are bodies ,, yin and yang ,, wholistic mind/body ......... now as the egg dies if it is not fertilized .... She also wants sex because sex massages her psuuy creates blood flow and ,,, and ,,, she the human female evolved to have sex 24 / 7 so that she kept the male around ,,, yes we have been evolved to service females and receive sex in return ,,,, in a way we evolved into submissive relationship due to our protective urges to see our babies live ,,,, the cave man at the door of the cave fighting off lions and tigers and bears .... But the time of bleeding well she yells her UNCONSIUOS  mind yells GO AWAY male .. I am bleeding ....... And we did , and if you study girls if you live in a home with 3 or more bleeding women you will hear them talk about ,,,, ooooh she bleeds first then me , the her .... The air borne trigger , the smell of other hormones comeing from the skin of one tiriggers the nest and so on ..... but  guess what in the poly what happens is that as one gets close to bleeding she needs strong dominant fucking to create feel good hormones to ease the pain ,,,,, to massage her pussy generate good  blood flow ..... and as she starts to bleed the next in line need the good hard fucking and spanking ,,, and then the next inline needs your male services ,,, your MALE HEALTH SERVICES .... And then the first well she is on the road to ripening and she needs the tender nice guy to fuck her often to fill her pussy ,, keep it sull of live sperm to be ready for the presence of the egg ,,,,, the presence of your sperm she camm feel you shoot it in her ,,, and her bood abosorbs it and the chemicals in your sperm your chemical massengers .....  

So you thought the only place to get helpful drugs was from ,,,, BAYER drug company ,,, NO yoo are a drug company that produces the purest form of feel good ... feel good drugs ,, anti depressants intenteed by nature ... so dipshit the cycle of bleeding and re birth is cool if you think about natures motives and then ,,, then respect them ... BUT ! the compartimentalized girl ,,, theintelligent woman ,, the one of the 2 of us who ... I lived more socially while we were dieing fighting lions and tiger and bears and shit they were evolving into complex social animals ,,,, relying on the group for help ,, while we were 1 on 1 with a lion ,,, in fact in many tribes you coulod not become a amle worthy of having wives , until you made your first FIRST 1 on 1 kill of the worst local predator ,, that danger may have been a lion , or a panther , tiger or bear or human , but the idea that the young master could handle the 1 on 1 pressure meant you could be trusted to handle the pressure alone think on your feet ,,,,,     WE WERE NOT EVOLVED TO WORK IN A GROUP .. girls were evolved to compartimentalized to be able to change personalities as needed to survive in a social world ..... YOUNG MASTER , the frontier farmer was a 1 on 1 basic male ,,, and he was your grand father ? great grand father ?  and his DNA goes back to Georgia man the tool maker of 2.5 million years ,,, so our world is a world of changes fucking up our INSTINCT ... TWISTED INSTINCT ......

I massage girls ,, I almost mediate while I touch and massage a girl .... And it has been my sexual ticket since I was like 21 so I got 26 years of habit patterns built around the massage ...... and 25 years of training by the response I got form the numbers of different women I have touched ,,, the girls know they have some control over their body ,,, they have rights ... yes they want to be taken ,,, to create situations where thye will be rapoed even , to feed that inner need to be hunted by the cave man and taken back to the cave to be fucked as her body screams it needs .. ( her bleeding cycle , remember screams it's needs ) and in the cave she is protected so she can give birth and raise a child in safety and and and ,, she expects to be in a nesting colonly ,,, ( back to the old old DNA )  nesting colonly safety and help durning birthing and those days of caring for a tiny baby ,,, she EXPECTS TO HAVE OTHER WIVES ! IN THE CAVE .... Deep down she wants it , and is happy with it ,,,,, but the greed of buy buy buy mine mine mine ,,,, ohhh that changed things and that started only 2 k years ago in Rome really but even after Rome the idea that men had other women was accepted ,,,, the 1 on 1 is not natural ....ohh shit this bolg was supposed to about how to use the massage to start up a flow of positive healthy chemicals in your girl on those first few PMS days when she is bloated .... She does not want sex these days in fact she wants to send you away to fuck one of your other wives ,,, not leave the cave and leave her alone ,,,, that is why girls get so confused thye are grumpy but do not want us to go to farr away ..... just listen to your women talk about my writing and think about how she describes her life.  Ok , godd for the sexual tease dipshit even though she may say no! .. go for the sexual tease ... do not hink about your own dick ,,,, stay dressed while massaging her .... Like in  BDSM scene saty dressed to keep your mind on the job ,,,, and tease her during her those bloated ugly days .... Just a good firm rubbing of her out side of her puusy with out tyou being naked will subconsciously generate hormone flows .... There is no fear that she will be pentrated since her body is SCREAMING go away and fuck my sister your other wife   .. in todays world ,, to activate her feel good hormones and provide the unconscious mind the signal that you got your clothes on ..... DAM IS THIS SHIT COMPLEX OR WHAT? Get the idea why I repeat so much shit , becaue dipshit your daddy and uncle and friends have never realy thought about shit ,,,, they got confused and then hid in drugs and alcohol ..... dating got harder ,,, instead of just hunting catching and bringing pussy back to the cave ... instead of just buying another iwfe with afew goats and acamel ,, instead of your dad , buying your first wife thru his political contacts to cemtn local family bonds .... Getting you your first wife ,,, we have the fairy tale of stress .... Then blend in deep seated animal triggers and chemical messagerngers ..... and you get YOU and your girlfriend and the pain we all are feeling all to soon in our relationships ........ NOW THE BDSM  lifestyle addresses this in a manner which respects our animal self ..... that is whay I say shithead study , buy the books available , and guess what watch which the girl reads ,a nd also incourage her to do like you ,,, and write in the margins of the book ,,, this is your book not a school book ,, you can write in your book  she can write in her book , and make drawings maybe ,, whatever but she will speak ,,, her compartimentailed self will speak when reading the ideas in the BDSM ooks you buy and study .... Ohhhhh but you should not have to study sex?   DO THE SAME OLD THING GET THE SAME OLD RESULTS !    and prove to me you are turely the dumbfuck I think you are ,,, dumbfuck .

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Bionic penis

It felt like you had a bionic penis , to bad I couldn't scream ........ you know that I call for in the 3 tents that you build yourself an office in your " Barn " and in that office you build it insulted with sound dampening ideas ... let the girl feel what is happening and her voice ,,, fuck your voice it drives the mind ,,,, it frees the mind to feel , what is happening to you and her own body ,,, enocouraging her to be vocal ,,, young master is like one of the most important things ........ I have been writing a lot about the mental stress and confusion of the relationship for months it seems .... It is very important your mental state ,, you compassion your love ,, your commitment to honor your word ,,, and the reality of your desire to do just that ,, the stress of perceived bucks to your leadership .......  But while you deal with your reality of the relationship is th reality of great sex ,, the recreation of sex , is better than anything else in the world .......

It realy is the best fun you can have dipshit ... and I am surprised the effects of the draw of TV to draw my attention away for good full mind/body recreation of sex .........  a movie TRUE LIES a good bang - bang - shot'em up movie ..... the sound of the action while I was licking a freshly shaved pussy , licking her lips slowly teasing her over and over .....  I noticed as I started licking her as I was filling my , lungs deeply with the fragrance of her sex , filling my blood stream with the hormones of desire and sex ... getting wonderful high so much better that   weed or beer ,,, never a hang over from sex ... I noticed for about 30 seconds a desire to watch the movie ..... 30 seconds and then then the sound of moans drove my desire ,,, the effects of sounds ,,,, they effect her the same ,,, having you talk to her describe what you see what you feel , telling her that she is a horning lil' slut , a sexual animal you are using ,,,, it all builds her ego her feeling of being beautiful sexy ,,, and her pride in her ability to please you .......... Kinda like being described at the end like you have a bionic dick ,,,, the praise for my size skills , durability .... Praise for ability to force to feel her body ....... Even in my control and uncontrol in spanking and biting ,,, the slow building of the sense of her body healing , the forming of the bruises the nest are each .. each one  memory of a great afternoon and evening and night ......... yet the mental aspects of respecting the body of the one you love comes into the mind of you young master ,,, the nice guy comes back time and time again ,,, the programming is dep and unwanted by her ,,, by the inner animal ,,, the feminist world has programmed her mind , but it forgot ther body ,,, the women who have lost touch with the MIND / BODY  connection ,,, hurt themselves as much as their training is hurting the world for years now getting worse and worse the unhappiness of the LILE ,, the lie about forget your true self ,,, the animal in you in not dangerous of bad ,,,, it is not disrespectful to force youself to fuck like you mean it ... to enjoy yourself ... to fuck for your pleasure ,,,,,, PLAYING STOP hsithead ... coming close to the edge of cumming then resting then doing that over and over ,,, yes ,,, yes I know when I do that enough , I build up a resisitance and when I do want to cum , well I really gotta work it .... I gotta bang her like the bionic man ,,,, hey umbfuck try this while she is your lil' puppy ,,, grab her arms ... just above the wrists lean back ... pulling her arms back .... Now you can force her on and off will you fuck her in and out .... Serios spedd and force and epth ... now Young master ,, the idea of telling to squeeze all the days you have said that to her while your finger was in her ,,, well those training times pay off here also ( I you remember to say anything ) because you may need a snug pussy to get off after playing stop and she being so fucked ,,, I mean fucked to the point she is close to collapse ... her pussy is probably to relxed .... And she needs to be reminded to squeeze ,,, well that is great for you ,,,,,,,,, and great her for her ,,,, she likes the feeling of being fucked ..... BUT BEING TRAINED OVER A LIFE TO BE A GOOD GIRL she can say that ... that she loves being fucking or describe to you how much she needs it everyday ...... even when she thinks she does not .... When she is in the compartment of being a good mommmy or good worker .... The professional the feminist  mind set ... her animal wishes it could release itself , the horny lil' slut

The order versus the recommendation ....... The you should do this or that honey  , instead of the I want you to ...... the " should " command we males feel we can ONLY say out of femeinst respect ... she is our friend... she is our equal ,, we love her and do you force that which you love? The confusion which actually hurts the relationship ...... but the trust in the fact she is DEVOTED  to you ,,,, hmmmm a concept I read about , the idea that in your ablilty to pass your programming and lust and fuck your girl like your inner animal desires .  tha creates a devotion to you in that honestly it is hard to find a male like you .... Yes it is hard to find a male like you ,,, look at all the broken homes the empty love affairs ..... the numbers do not lie .... You young master have been trained to be passive ...... passing that passivity ,,, is something that deserves devotion ... and that means you can be WRONG , you can be a bit of a pinhead and when she does buck and you get mad mad she will re think her devotion ... and come back ... because yes I can , you can get other women ,,, but yuou want the one you have ...you really really do want her ....... So fear of her lose .... Can fuck up the relationship .  the fear of her buck the idea of her not listening to an important idea of yours ... why because she has her own ideas ,, why because well because , she does ......... ohhh the dynamics of this , is life long and and th rust in devotion helps you ( and her )

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Garage living .... Dogs

I have met a few new friends males as of late who are living in the garage one for 12 years now ....... The separation form that girl they first loved so much that they became the I LOVE YOU SLAVE to her thhru the honor of a vow ,,,, the honest try , even thoughin failure he often becomes a drunk out of frustration and pain ...guys living like dogs ....... We are giving up ... young master look around you do not laugh about it understand it , realize the amount of broken love 6 outa ten marriages end ... and of the other 4 ,,, most of the other four are people who are together but living in pain .... So for the last 24 hours I was in pain and frustration ... god I hate pain and frustration ....but I do not give up and just hide like most males ... why because I am a PINHEAD !   I am accepting more and more my loving dominant side ..... it is who we are dipshit ,,,, it is ok , it is in your fucking DNA .... Tell the fucking feminst world that trys to make you an EQUAL tell it to go to hell accept your DOM side and realize you do not want to hurt the girl ......... no like a good wise king you only real desire is her smile and happiness but like a king you desire love and respect .. and respect means being listened to ........ wow the comments left on the myspace by my subbie I wish every reader could read them if you are on myspace search 34957 for a 46 yr old male you'll see the book cover as my foto . then read her reply to my blogs ........ first in reactive , the get back at me the defensive reply ...... then she admits to having re-read my blog and then she writes and writes and really writes toward the end of her writing she is building her wall her pride being ready for the breakup but in the writing she does show weakness ......... a subbie can not truly submit without being weak and allowing some one else to dominant ,, and I am not talking about only dominanting during BDSM sex ,,, but submitting in the day to day

I gotta have that suybmission , the respect that I am who I am in all activities we share or I will be come fucked up ........ the effect of the poly ,, the efeect of dating ,, the challenge of the chase the catching of the eye of the male , the go a woman has in seduction ........... HER EGO ,,,, in waving to that other guy ,,, her ego is very important and plays a great part ....... Do I need to have 3  girls no , honestly I do not but , the dynamics of the 3 forces her to stay in the state of being sharp for the male of her choice , without it ,,,,, the chase is over and she decays ,,, I AM SORRY FOR SAYING THAT OVER AND OVER BUT ,,, DAMIT ... DAMM IT TO HELL IT  is the truth .... As evidence that when she saw the relationship leaving only then was when she finnaly slowed down and listend to me ,, she thought she was listening but she was not ,,, in her female mind she was ,, and I accept yes to the mind of the female she was ,,, yet to my male mind she was not .... AGAIN repeat over and over the facts of the difference in our brains ,, our DNA ,, and it is not just me ,, look at the facts of the broken empty love affaris ..... everyone... the fairy tale love is not happening for a reason ,,, so I say , if you trust the poly ,, and then get the girl atleast one girl who can and will honestly for her own benefit understand the nature of her own EGO .... And then she may see the only way over the long run to control herself is for herself to create ,, FOR HERSELF , the competitive world that she is forced to stay sharp to stay attentive to the male of HER CHOICE ..... she build the relationship with 2 other girls who like her understand the fairy tale does not work ,,, and then guess what I got to service sexually 3 girls ,,,, that is not bad it is a lot of work on my [part , but that also , helps her ... she RECIEVES  dynamic knowing that she does not ever get bored with you young master ,,, she can not have you everyday because she has to shre you ......... HONESTLY FOR  my girl I think if she would realize this truth in her , the effect of her ego ahs deeply on her actions .. she would be the one to develop the poly for herself ......... but the biggest problem is ,, 3 women can not share a house ..... the male traveling from home to home , once she understands how that forces her to to stay sharp like she enjoys the compitive nature is not stressful but actually prevents depression in women making the female happier ........ but for me ,,,,, I got the this real cool little waterfront home ,,,, I mean deluxe little old fixer up that has and is being fixed up always .. in a cool little beach town in florida an artist town ,,, with a national park as my front yard and and my back yard ,,,, I live in fuckin eden , ( the name of the town/ area actually ) to give that up to go inland and develop the poly so I can have 3 homes for 3 women .... Just help my first love then learn to love 2 others and then to understand the poly is also there to help them .......... But give up up EDEN .........

The 1 on1 ........ is hard , but being an open PINHEAD , maybe an answer ,,, but I have to more demanding .. more of a pinhead , more of a SIR in a MASTER /  slave relationship ,,, in the respect of titles and open knowledge of the choice of our life style ,, she is remeinded of why ,, why ,,, why did we choose DOM/ sub LIFESTYLE ,, why because .. why .. because  everything else failed , like so many guys I know have out of frustration becoming gay , also girls are becoming gay ... sure it is cool but the first push of instinct was to have the opposite sex , then only after the pain and frustration came ,,, did these natural people twist their instincts and survive as gay ,, no not survie many have found happiness ,,,, hey look at most gay relationships and you will see a LOVING DOM and a subbie ........ just look .   I have as of now ... said openly to my girl ... we have arrived at failure , I love you that is a fact helping you get Ok I will do happily because your smile is important ..... so what do you want? I asked .... And her reply was ... I want you ! if she had fought me her choice I would have understood was to leave she did not fight ...... but realized her choice was now the same as earilier when we met her choice was for me ........ to be with me .... So again the competive nature of losing the male , comes into play ..... when I said , theis is the end . I love you but you must go , now. MY JPB IS TO BE MORE MORE DAY TO DAY PIN HEAD ..... she wants to be a subbie what do the books describe a subbie as ......the amsters manual ,,, forget about the BDSM sex ,,, but the play ,t he licking of the boots the getting of stuff , the service to the DOM ........ and when she starts to put limits it will fail ......... ohh but in a 3 a poly she is not respondsible for 24/7 submisson ..... her sisters her friends ,,, HER TRUSTED FRIENDS ...it is not as much about you young master choosing the girl as the girls building the life ,,,,, but unfortunately ( and yet fortunaltey , I love my 1 ) I may not give you real experience in the poly only theory ,, and I am sure the reality has its problems especially since , in our culture the poly has gone away , so , the participants do not have the experience of growning up already in the POLY ..... honestly I believe dipshit , that once 3 girls create the bond ,, yes competieion is there it is an animal thing but they become a group that ,, goes beyond sex , and iif the male becomes lazy they will hunt for a better male for their group .. they wll leave a weak master to get a richer and healtier male .... WOW NOW I AM THE ONE UNDER STRESS ,,, IN COMPRTITION WITH THE WORLD OF RICHER HEALTHIER YOUNGER MALES .... And this is happiness ...... yes it is survival in nature ... instinct shit  

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that is me ,,,, i feel it ... " it's back " .... i just wanted to give up curlup into a ball and sleep or go get a beer any thing to stop the confusion ..... the confusion ,, I SAID THAT LAST NIGHT  i used those words i am confused , i did not want to say to her i have had this type of conversation before not exact of course not exactly ,,, i have been trying and trying to to make her feel special ,,, especially after she said months ago she felt like she was not special ,, just another woman in my life coming and going ....... so i did not say anything ,, like so many times i have not said anything but tryed to show to motivate to explain in the only way i can thru writing ... why because to talk . leads to confusion ,,, discusions lead to me feeling for her pain , because i love her , and when that happens i think first about her feeelings then my own later ....... but today i got trapped

HOW CAN I LEAD .... if i do not understand or know where it is i am to go ? and leading is my nature , caring for others also is my nature ,,, but relationships are confusing ..... the fairy tale to me is just that a fairy tale . no longer a reality . I must have started back on the road to the POLY writing for a reason , why ,, why .......... to answer the why would probably bring up blame and it is not a blame thing ,,,, never never is a blame thing it is me trying to do the impossilbe ... trying to make a woman happy . ohhh god knows i have attempted that once more and look what happened ... she opened her heart to being hurt once more ,, and i have and i am right at this minute hurting her ........ blame reasons ... the buck ,, the attempt on my part to lead nicely to say i want you to ,,, but time and time .... instead of yes i got ,,,,, some other answer ,,, her inner motavations .... my NICE guy side .... i failed to lead her ... my bad .

so now , i have said i will do something , and , and ,,,, i started feeling sick today , dizzy and confused .... i wanted to end the confusion ,,, ohh what better way to end the confusion by sleeping , ... sleep awake in a hze of beer or sleep take a nap ,,, forget about work and my responsiblity to all my kids and familys ,, and hide ,,, hide from the job as leader ,,,,,,,, NO i will but i can not lead to place i do not understand where or what it is ........ to the real me? the me behind the wall ? yes i will admit to the wall , but also since i have , i remember this type of issue being brought up even in marrage counseling  ... this pyscho babble ,,, the real me ......... HEY this is why i started writing about respecting something else ,,, the animal ... the animal when the fairy tale fails, and it does fail ,,, over and over

but i forget my own ideas , because i love her so much the idea that she is in pain ,, is unhapppy triggers me , to say or do almost anything to get her to feel better .... i really try .... then i get to feeling like this like not going home .... like walking away ..... hey i said that last also ,,, the speed of real time conversation the amount of things said , so quickly i can reaaly think them thru ..... the reason ... i said ,,, the poly is better for males .... OK FOR ME . since i get to do my male job and she has female friends ..... a family ,,, YET ALL SHE CAN SEE IS THE COMPETITION ... she is so focused on being cute sexy .. the only 1 ...... a dad loves all his kids ........ and she wanted last nite she said , i still want to be your little girl ... you girl .... the subbie ........ but in a round about way .. I SUBMITTED. because why because i love her and want to see her happy .

I had to stop work , to write ,, to re frame ,,, to take this minute to . Next i gotta put on the happy face , act as if nothing is wrong . we have work tonite together , i gotta be a clown and entertain children .... i have to make this relationship work because ,,,, she is a good girl .. yes she has done everything i can expect ....... and i do not want my kids to see another failure .. stay together for the kids ........ ( write write write express all the shit or live in fear and stay silent , that is not me , lead good or bad atleast i will lead not hide ) ... what the fuck is going on ?  why have i been writing about the poly ,,,, well i had my reasons they were there i still do not know what they are really but i must have them ,, things were going so good .... or were they ? dam it the girl tryed . so i am to blame i must be.

why did i ask her in the first place to be in a 1 on 1 with me ,, why because i saw how happy she was in my watter front home .... i saw her smile and her smile is my smile ........ to have the poly i would have to move .. bummer big bummer hassle big hassle . FUCK IT ALL PHIL JUST SUBMIT DELTE THIS BLOG .... ACT AS IF  nothing is wrong ... impossilbe ain't me , i will spiral down , depression and shit will show up ....

I have been feeling i felt that last night as i got confused inside my head i was saying ,,,,, you lead! ..... tell me what to do .... i was in my head asking my subbie to lead ........ dom by default ........ why what do women do to get us males so confused that we can not ... can not ... lead , do anything ....... just go escape get drunk to hide the pain of submission , of the lack of being a leader . And now here i am feeling that ,,,,, you lead .... what is it that you want ?  I do not understand , i have tryed , YES? i asked that last ... i have done well yes? .... look this is not my first time ...

she says maybe i have never been loved nver had a woman who would follow no matter where i was to go .......... she said she will follow , but if i go the way of the poly ,,, she will follow as a she of a person only ...... that is more than a threat to me ....... i ,,, i ,, phil would create a life for her where she can be no more that an empty shell ?  WHAT I WANT THAT FOR A GIRL I LOVE , THAT IS LOVE ON MY PART? ..... when hearing things like that from wife one and wife 2 i ehlped them to leave to go and find happinessbecome a park ranger or truck driver leave me ,,, in fact here i will leave you first ..... if you are unhappy .......... SO MY GOOD GIRL ,,, i am sure ,, i am sure at some level , i felt the vibes way back when ..... 1 to 1 ... or i will be just a shell or worse yet i will not come back .........

I write lately about the poly in hopes of describing the family the sisterhood promised in it ,, the nature of male and female ....... ( hey this hole thing maybe in part to it being that time of month ,, the chemical messages from all the girls in the house are that of ....leave male we are about to bleed .... why should i ingore this , THE TRUTH ABOUT THE CHEMICAL MESSAGERS just to keep the fairy tale lie alive ,,,t he idea of perfection and ahppy ever after .....

she is upset sometimes at the quality of girls i have slept with in the past , that some were not as pretty as she would like to think i ahould ,,should .. should ahve had , as if it reflects back on her ,,,, like i will fuck anything .... but , the idea of sex is a recreation between two humans ,,, recreation fun ,, so even if the girl is not cute as per general ideas of sute ,, her the inner girl is or was important to me ....... my DEB is important to me ....i write worried about what will happen ....... i worry about having to try to talk in real time to her ,,, it is not that i fear it .... like last night i spit out words .... just that the dynamics of relationships are so complex that to talk real time does not allow my mind the time to digest ......... things like ...... I WLL BECOME A SHELL .....

Phil do you trust your ideas? ,, honestly phil do you trust your ideas ..... do you trust her , she says trust me i will follow even unhappy i will follow you ! ok , if that be the case then the friendship dynamics ,,, my own truth that llike a father the male husband will treat each woman as equal yet love each like a child ,, like a girl ...... the whole daddy thing that we all joke about girls " whose your daddy ! " .... there is so much truth surrounding us , in so many ways we all aretelling each other the hidden truths ..... PHIL DO YOU TRUST YOUR IDEAS ?  do you have faith ........ or are you just playing and weak ..... is the 1 on 1 you are attempting to make your girl happy is it working ......... why are you here writing Phil instead of working ........ get the fucking hint dumbfuck get the hint Phil there is a problem ,,, act as if and you know what will happen it will not get better ......... you can lead to somewhere you do not know . and you are a lousy follower it is not your nature ,, leading with compassion with understanding , guiding by logic and information understanding .... with ideas , the best way to get a population to do what you want to get employees to do what you want or even customers or shildren to do what you want is to make what you want thier wants , too .... thier wants too ,, what are Deb's wants , to finally be happy to have a man who loves her ......... she has deep reasons for wanting to be special ,,,,, i respet that pain those reason ......

the poly is it because i need 3 girls for sex , that i am bored with Deb ,, no fucking way , i bet none of the girls i would ever meet would be like ,, her ,, i did not say as good as her because each girl was good in her own way ... like she says each of her husbands were good she had good sex them ..... i know that i am good in my way ,, each before is good in his way .... and like wise each gilr in my past was good in her own way ... i was happy with each gotta go .....

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It is our wall , preventing our touch

 I sit like I do so many mornings petting her hair looking at her face as she sleeps and I love her.....The game , the ideas , the tools ..... the cool the self image ..... hmmmm interesting it is mine ( shit it may have been her's also ) but mine is what I will write about . The aspects of male / female nature the confusion of todays feminist world and dreams the fairy tale of love I call it .... But yet the 1 on 1 has its draw it does seem natural also ... it seems so correct so right so perfect ..... so perfect , a word a state hard to reach that state of perfection . YOUNG master the ideal of male strength and its loss in todays world the inner confusion being expressed in many many stories , again a day ago we watch a movie and in the movie there was comment about MENTAL CASTRATION , that aspect is so incredibly important ....... I think that is where the study of the DOM/sub lifestyle comes into importance ..... a reversal of that which has been sub consciously programmed into the minds of many many good nice males ..... making us way to nice ,,,, yes to nice to the point that we then become confused expressing our confusion in anger and escape drinking and drug use escape .

My recommened tool has been the poly ..... and in the poly since there is no DEPTH no 1 on 1 all parties do stay separated the deepness that is possible in a 1 on 1 is avoided ,, it is safe to be in the poly for the females and the males ..... but a trust to depend on just 1 person is taken out of the equation ..... the trust that she will accept you as you are ,,,, that she will accept you as male whether she is upset with your ideas or not she will respect them ...... but the reality has been that since she knows she can split that idea keep YOU young master on a knife edge ,,, just like the girl is on knife edge of competition with the other girls in the poly . Now from what I understand of people who do form polys this is a non issue in time .

But in my past , in commited relationships , the idea that if I express my ideas my desires , then there will be a fight all to often ,, and each and every fight brings with it the un said and all to often directly said threat .... Of   I WILL LEAVE YOU  or divorce .... Now dipshit you are not with this girl because you hate her , right ? you did not get married to her ask her to marry you or live with you .. because you hated her ...... no you love her , her presence in your life was and is important it gives you a strength to have her in your life , you feel better about yourself because she is in your life ,,,, so the said or unsaid threat of breakup , that threat is in your mind each and everytime you think about opening your mouth about any aspect of life ........ now many guys who , give up in reality gave up on the relationship,  hell on life  itself , well they get the girl in their life all is OK and they express anger and stay high every day in some form all the time in reality instead of having the break up in the back of their mind ,, the idea of break is their life ,,,, the choice to live day after day , drun or high , is that male breaking up with ALL OF HIS LIFE .Breaking out of reality .

The other male who does not speak his mind until he is mad ... the passive aggressive style ...... he does not speak his mind because of the fear of losing love again and again . Afraid of the break up but atleast he tries to live , until whatever it is that grows or festers that expectation not realized , that grows until the . threat of the loss of her is not enough to prevent his RISK of break up . each fight with your woman at some level carries with it that threat .... The risk that this is the 1 that will end it and the dream . the 1 on 1 . now the poly in that youong master you have 3 , you still have love .  she has friends to help to deal with the issues that are the problems that come up in life so the fights are less ,,, girls talking with girls ........ OHHH , but the competition aspect ,, not the risk that I will someday be in an other relationship .... A some day thing , but the day to day seeing me with another female that knowing that I will never realy be totally hers ,,,, owned I have said .... Whe I use that thought of greed and owned .. it is negative ... there is a deep positive in the 1 on 1  the depth of the love trust in 1 other person .

A deep positive love of 1 person in another .... Not for another ,  but in .. now the word in is important , because the word ..  for ...  is to describe her as outside of you some who can and will leave in a minute after for example a figth ..... you know they the girls do not need us ,,, no depending realy on us ...... she can live just fine with out us ,,, so love is just a want ... want like wanting chocolate changing hard to trust in . so not FOR , but in ,,, in means inside not on the surface of but inside ..... a trust my friend young master that has been broken time after time during your teens which each and every new girlfriend that trust get destroyed ...... when you loved her and the fighting got so that you to broke up a piece of your trust left with her ... when you just used her ......  you knew you were just using her ..... well no trust loss . Years ago when we each knew that life was complex , that survivial depened on the idea that the female had a male and the male had a female ,, we depened on each other so much that risking losing or offending the other ,, the risk of basic survival .... Kept the 1 on 1 together ......... deep seated motives ...... and so many games , ideas and tools for dealing with confusion of not realizing the deepest of the deepest ....... Depending on another human being to aceept the other and stay with them . investing in 1 person forever.  Games be they calling myself DOM and she calling herself subbie , tools the poly relationship , ideas all the books the study the recomenedations of experts and professionals who guess based on looking at people and coming up with their own books of games and tools ..... when the basis is the base , the trust that things .. that I will that we will not break up each and everytime I open my mouth . that threat that is there always in all ways of break up , I did not say I LOVE YOU  because I hate you , and that love the fear of that lose of love , so basic a fear , that walls are built to protect the self , and and other self lives life outside the wall . A self that seems so real it becomes the only reality a self that can enjoy life atleast the only life it sees as possible in a world that threatens destruction each minute . but to trust 1 person deeply . hmmmmmmm interesting. Trust , I gotta let that sink in .... Like an energy that can pass thru a wall of concrete no destroy the wall but pass thru like a radio wave and then be listened to on the receiver I have have behind that wall I created way back when

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Because you are to dam cute

Honestly , honesty , will help us , and help readers , your ego I do respect ( ooh this is communication , but it would be safer and easier to say nothing .... My future can be so difficult and just shutting up with luck I could hide like most men  ) of course but the real time the reality of my blogging someday will help my 3 sons when it is they who are trying to figure out the  , why and hows of the most important thing in their life PUSSY . So for me to not write just because in the past you felt uncomfortable in others knowing our truth , well honey remember actually I expose myself more than I expose you and I wrote when we met you knew I would write .... And I have written about lots of topics ....... Why should this be any different .

Now you mentioned somethings that you fear that I may be upset about yet not be talking about things that you fear are building up in me ...... yes and no ,, the no im[portent in that I see my own faults and remind myself I sure as fuck ain't perfect ........ but but ,, subbie the word you use when talking about you , the name I have questioned in a round about in my writing .. the concept of the inner motivation that I feel the POLY addresses ... but baby today I go into details ,, not blames though , because details only show inner motives and it is in the motives ... where real issues lay ....  Now to me ,,, oooh fuck to write this one part of me says ..... " and who is the slave the subbie in this relationship " but I also remember , see , understand service is the job of the leader like the service a daddy will lovingly do for his family ... like being boss at work , I was responsible 24/7 for every job in the end .........

Last nite , I am suprized how your reaction to me making the bed shows your important side your motivation .... Now I do not have the tye out everyday , one reason is getting the tye out I can not pur inot that mindless habit action pattern .... The un loading the dishes ... again I good but since if the pattern breaks so odes my positive habit .... And not bringing you a smoke an coffee to enjoy after I enjoy sex with you in the morning .... Rare but due to my fault I forgot it once ........... last nite your praise for my making the bed offened me , no worse than offending me .... I see it as positive re inforcement since I made the bed 3 times this last week ..... I got thinking 3 times out of 7 times hmmm .... And when you noticed you praised me , instead of felt ,,, bad about yourself ..... when I do not run do praise ..... with my kids when I want them to take over the duty I took on myself of making MY HOUSE pretty ( to me it is my house they are long term visitors with no real inner pride since they do not pay for it .. remember ... motivation ... ) if they did the bed I would praise to encourage them to take over the job .... Training ..... training of me , do you relaizae you are training me ......... ohhh I am ready for your buck ... baby so many of my ideas my thoughts you buck , I have almost given up ,,,, it is why I started writing about the poly ........ but honestly it is to late .. the inner motivation that you had to be with me in the beginning is gone ,,, you are happier and healthier and now with a lil business , real life long hope again ..... you now are not llike the girl I described , the girl you understand I was saying I should meet , the one who understood pain , because as we get better we forget about past pain ....... You have been getting better your back your health .. your hope .. and I am happy for you ....

If we took time to go over the ideas I wirite about poly ideas the ideas of motivations ,  and If I realy felt I could state my opinion and you would listen and understand  you wouold understand ........ the motives .... Self motivation ,,, not outside , the idea of a DOM always having to say .... DO THIS DO THAT .... Like I have said before if I had na employee like that ..... they would not know but you are already replaced ( your know like you did with your employees )  I REMEMBER YOU SAYING , that you become DOM in relationships , and men who claim to be DOM do not have patience with you ... maybe because of the manipulation of the love ... that word love ... in the 1 on 1 , our male desire to see a cute girl like you to be happy ,, and know it is because of me ,,,, my ego builds knowing that ,,,, in a way that motivation in me , slowly gets me to become the subbie ........ so I make the bed and smile because you praise me? No , I do not smile , I become sadder and sadder .... And say to myself she is not getting it .... She is a struggle the buck she thinks she gives me is not the bucks I feel , event after event ..... growing as our relationship has grown

Now if I talk about my ex's there is stress but do your ealize how much you refer to your ex's ....... But that is shit compared to , that wave and smile you gave that guy yesterday ... ok I have been called by my wife to go , and confront a male who was hitting on her over and over ,,,,, and I said YOU SET IT UP ! it is what you do ,,,, baby you get hit on every night I am with you , yes I proud I have you , I tell guys every nite do not talk to her , like with the NEW YORKER and the guy last , men who I talk with and we shake hands and laugh about what dogs we are ... being cool like 15 years boys .... But I know enough about talking to women ,,, WOMEN WHO DO NOT WANT TO BE TALKED TO their eyes their actions shout , do not talk to me .......... But like in my past when I say that toother women in my past I get in a fight , women and men see things differently ........ so I gave up years ago .... And see enjoy the pride I have in my women until .... It ends ....wow the refence to ending is comeing so often in my writing ... hmmmm I wonder if after trying to talk and not being heard failed ,, and write and not being understood failed ,,, I am just expecting falied ........ but I can be very happy and enjoy your presence in my life like last nite ,, be proud ......... the inner dynamics of your motiavitons are changing ....... Hell I can not and do not seee my own faults ,,, do you honestly believe you see all  ALLL your faults ... your half of the problems that have brought you to the point of dating me in the first place .........

Understanding the self , knowing the weakness of my love for women ,,,, yet my need to lead without bucks , is why I wrote about 3 tenst and a camel , I do my job , and like in each girls house they live and keep it like they want not as I want ,,, I got my office .... All I ask I want me ..... like you did while dating or leave ...... yes the wall ,,,, but baby .... I see it coming baby ........am I a pinn head to demanding ? maybe and if so , again to thine ownself be true it is who I am ........... demanding yet soft .... Give a person the rope ... and watch what they do with it ....  YOU ARE STRONG  you had to be , and it is causing us problems ..... what are your motives now , can you feel the slow inner change as you now are out of hibernation .... My girl is getting stronger , it is ok if she is leaving the nest bucking me in many sublte ways ... and checking out the riches all around her ........ ooh I expect a buck at that ..... my ideas my observations , my reality ,,,, say yes or no , but you must aceept it as mine . 

I listened to you about my kids visitation , and I am happy I encorperated a level of your ideas with also my own .....    with the cleaning of the kids rooms my concepts of self ownership have been ignored demeaned ..... the constant bickering of clean up clean up ... the sound of birds fighting in the nesting colony .... NOT A MALE  thing .... I am male , I unlike most males have written expressed myself like no other male you have ever met ,,,, and what happens .... Nothing .... I get trained to make the bed to get your smile ... no I make the bed becaue I used make my bed , it takes 45 seconds , like my run takes 15 minutes , my writing take 45 minutes , unloading the dishes takes 5 minutes and spenind 120 seconds aday in my daughters room every day as habit a mindless habit on my part insures I wll not hear bickering ,,, plus I create , and environmental sub consiuos training ,,, as a person grows up surrounded by , they create later on their own .... I have written that in much details already ... my ideas ........ ignored my love .... The return to the poly was to say there is a problem .... Let me see if I can get this going in a good way .......... Just ordering bickering everyday like with a teenager ..... no ,, no .. tha is not motivation . I fear the riocher males who talk to you . who leer at you .... Becaue as yo9u change you forget the past or do you ......... I am not in your head , I just see the repeat of old patterns coming on more and more ..... I have stopped referring to past gurls ,, as you desired ,,, the hint should have been to myself ,,,, way back then ..... whose ordered what and I jumped .... Who Dom'd thru sex and weakness and used my love for her .... When I was using the past to prevent a return ... LEARN FORM HISTORY OR REPEAT HISTORY .......  Well baby this is enough ... time to get your coffee and smoke ..... take my pleasure in the taste of your pussy and a nice fuck

( oooh shit it is honestly like your want of me , to wake you to go pee ....... Slowly you have getting harder to rouse to get up ... your want at first your inner motivation .. today with your hands on your hips saying " what do you want me to do ",,,, your presence is a frued slip ..... moths ago you said thank you to me ... now you stand asleep speaking thru your subconscious mind , saying what do you want me to do ...... why are you bothering me ....but you submit ..... bucking a lil' here and there .. the slow erosion the slow change ..... the slow castration ..... history repeating )

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The FUZZY PINK HAND cuff

Ok , well young master I was talking to a young master about runnint the FUZZY PINK PICK UP experiment , when my happy lil' subbie leaves the company of her girlfiriend the laughter talk that 2 girls can engage in ..... and stumbles into the middle of my conversation with a male ..... to hear me talking about the EXPERIMENT , and what comes to her mind suprized me what came out of her mouth suprized me even more ,,,, honestly I thought yes maybe in couple of years she may have said something on the lines of this ..... I was thinking yes in a couple of years when her sister , her sisiter in spirit is ready to change her life free of her commitment .... Maybe then I would hear my good girl say ......... " LET US CARRY ON WITH the EXPERIMENT "  oooh left field , when 1 one your stocks takes a dump do not just follow the market and sell scared study why the dump happened , and  who is taking over thier plan and then choose to stay or sell , remember you mostly likely have already taken the lose the new plan may be inline with the reason you bought that stock to begin with ...... responsible investing young master - part of the game ... she said it ....... And then said she was afraid my writing about the benefits of the POLY was my way of talking with her directly , yet indirectly thru suggestion getting her to think ,,,,, yes and no .... Honestly more no , more I was rwriting to you! Dipshit ....... Continueing the long long long road of re- programming ,,,,,,,, you have years decades of programming to re - write to think slowly about ...... it is like the reading about DOM/sub life style ....

By reading over time little by little the exposure teaches you things ....... Not only the direct words on the page but the opportunity to think to explore others experiences thru their words , helps your minds ,, conscious and subconsiuos  ... to intergrate fanasty , logic , and intention ,,,,,,, intention the power of WANTO .... The deepest level , your wanto is to see happiness in your life which means the people around you must be as happy as possible also ........ that is your real intention for your life ,,, the happiness of those who are important to you ....... And so while my good girl was in the middle of being happy , happy with her girlfriend like I talk about when I talk about the poly , she ... she not I , but she says ...LET US DO THE EXPERIMENT ..... ok'ing it for me since I am to shy to LEAD? Hhhhmmm interesting ...... the dynamic of the leadership thru weakness which is the reality of DOM/sub ..... the king honestly only leads his people into the future he feels will make the most of the population happiest .... Study the TOA a book of guidance for the kings of OLD ,the wise king.  The changes you make slowly dumbfuck by reading are inline with human learning methods when it comes to comples=x new ideas .

But I was talking about a PICK UP experiment , just the dating aspect , the 2^nd stage to the ten foot circle ....... If you have been working your ten foot circle you are much more at ease talking with women , all women but , but numbers , the numbers game is important ....... Not all your eggs is 1 basket ... where it is a girl with soft girlish hands holding the heavy basket ... she my tire her tiny female hands weaken and the basket may fall ........... you gotta approach many girls who you find at some " hunch " level , you find attractive for whatever reason ,,,, not only approaching them because they are cute to the eye , but from the hunch the feeling inside ..... it is trusting magic maybe . then putting you in a positions where you are not begging the girl ......... asking her for anything ....... Asking brings out .....a NO , thankyou ....... most girls have a stock answer to males who approach them an answer they repeat with out thinking or feeling , without themselves touching that feeling of MAGIC .... Why ? why do they not touch the magic , because the girl is working living most likely when you approach her in a DIFFERENT COMPARTMENT ,,,,  the work compartment personality or whatever .. not the HAPPY LIL SLUT  compartment ,,, now  THE FUZZY PINK HAND CUFF PICK UP  is designed to in 1 instant touch her happy lil'slut compartment , the compartment of fanasty ........ then give her the op to say yes , as she thinks later ... alone ........ or with that boring loser of a drunk boyfriend disappoints once more , once to often .......... Your title name and ........ phone number return to mind . but more on this later ........ I am still internalizing the emeotions of how my subbie said ...... " let us continue with the experiment " hmmm interesting , but I feel way to early ,,,, my bonding with my girl is strong so that is not the problem , it is more in other aspects that to move real slow will be helpful , just to socialize like yesterday ......... just that first . hmmmm interesting. The difference in the compartments the different types of female socialization , the dynamics between NON competive female interaction ,,, that of you subbie with her mom or daughters who are female true ,, but not sexualloy competitive females ,,,, the dynamics of friendship sexual competition ....... YET THE WANTO OF THE GIRLS INVOLVED , their desire for happiness to end the repetition of old ways ...... THEY CREATE THE FAMILY THE POLY NOT YOU ! SHITHEAD ...they create the team mentality, each supporting the other in maintining the POLY . YOU ARE JUST THE MALE WITH THE GUTS TO PROVIDE THE ..... the ..... the ( ohh 1 more tease on the pick - up,  the fuzzy pinks are portable and easy to give away )

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She says ....... Thank YOU

Subbie , she came saying she wanted to be my subbie ...... and yet keep some of the vanilla relationship ... so it can be confusing deffinately , not a text book , bdsm relationship .... But young master NOT ,,, 1 relationsip will be text book , fanasty perfect , no each of course will be different , well that is if you and the partner go beyond just fanasty play and sex ... but when building a relationship wih the ideals of DOM/sub used as it's base ......... well BASE says it all ,,,, just a base , a house looks nothing like the plain concrete foundation on which the pretty house walls , carpets , wood work , dinning room furniture etc now stand .......... Just the base .... That is why I write shithead. To get you to think about the reality of lots of variables

Here is one ..... yesterday I talked about .. not having sex was the wrong thing ... it allowed her to be stuck in fucnk ,, where a good fucking would have re-framed here ,, pumper her body with FEEL GOOD  hormones with every push of my dick into her body over and over like I was priming a FELL GOOD  well  and chemical machine called the human brain ,, stimulated to feel good by good old  NATURAL RECREATION ... human recreation , sex ........ basic shit ...... I must admit to feeling REALY REALY REALY !! great whenever she very tired her body still twitching lieing her head on the hair of my chest . her body touching me her legs wound thru my legs .... She is still cumming her body sensitve after sex ......... says to me ..... THANK YOU ..... softly in a panting tired voice ........

Why did she say that ,,,,,, why would another woman not ......... not say that ...? In the women ( plural ) who do not say is the training the re-inforcement that makes you shy young master ..... the girl who says thank you builds you up ........ the others train you not to be the best MASTER you can be ....... Think about shit , shithead ........ but here is a style do some talking especially when she is your puppy describe what you see in detail , the feeling of being in her how her pussy lips move as you fuck ,, how she also is banging into you , tell how that shows how much she likes it . ENCOURAGE HER TO YELL into the bed ( so the kids will not hear ) the largest sexual organ is the brain ,,, to touch the brain you need word pictures so describe the acts you both are doing ........ plus the effect of suggestion , tell her she is getting wett and she will get even wetter  

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Sexual re-framing

It would have been the best way to get her out of her funk last night , it would have realy been the ticket .. to getting her to feeling and thinking to changing her body chemistry .... Yes you are a THINKING ANIMAL but Young master you are an animal .. a DNA animal ,,, bio chemical ..... is it the chemical change that starts the depression that the Doctor eventually feeds you poisins to combat .... Or was it your thinking that came first .... Well you know me I believe it is your thinking first , but to say that 100 percent of the time ,, that anything is BLACK AND WHITE ... clear cut ..... well NO ! nothing is clear cut ......... your bio chemical body does effect you ... even though the effect can be butterfly like ....... Someother thing that developed a chemical change in you , then effects another event ......... like LOVE !  the want of love ....... The fairy tale of LOVE ..... 1 in 25 end in divorce ......... 1 in 25 ....... And from this culture comes books and stuff ....... Like the KAMA SUTRA ... the book we all read now ( the kama sutra's I have read the female verision mainly is what is available ... a fairy tale version on a tradition of oral learning passed down form women to women for 1000's of years only put in book form by an ENGLSIH .... MAN ! ooooh the evil nesss of arranged marriages  ...... the unhappiness that a 1 in 25 divorce rate is evidence from ,,,, the evidence of the culture that brings sex .... Sex and human recreation and lust ,,, into art forms like the KAMA SUTRA ......... but NO ! our western fairy tale of the          want state         .... Now that is realy love ....... And for every 1 marriage there is more than 1 divorce ... a culture where sex is hidden and consider dirty and unnatural .... Versus 1 in 25 and celebrating the recreation of human lust !

OHHH  back to anger and fighting the effect of the fairy tale of love ,,,, the evidence that the western ideaof LOVE once agin is better than any other idea ..... that .... That ..... enough ignoring of history will change reality . Anger and frustration ... there is chemicals that build in the blood stream of An animal......... and guess what like any other drug ,,,, like beer or smoke whatever ,,,,, you can not just turn off the effect of the chemical ... it needs to wash out of your blood be DE ACTIVATED but you get into a FEED LOOP ..... the feelings feed the feelings that cause the chemicals to be re manufactured ....... And your mind stays stuck . Ok , how to change it , well take another drug ,,,,, watch the babbling box with hypnotic flashing lights TV and get the constant message that your life will be better if y ou buy ......... buy inot the system .... The fairy tale ..... of buy happiness . you can meditate but honestly if you are fucked-up then you bring that inot your meditation all to often and only create another so-so ....... RE - FRAMING a picture at a frame shop sometimes entails taking the IMPORTANT PICTURE OUT of the old frame and putting it into a NEW frame ... yo! DUMBFUCK SHE IS AN IMPORTANT PICTURE IN A FUCKED UP FRAME..... the frame is the bio chemical animal she lives thru expresses the TOA  thru ...... the frame is current mindset which is churning out bio chemicals ........ NOW FUCKING HER always changes things ! and is the girl TRULY A SUBBIE ? what did she tell you ?  was what she told you just based on a want ... a transitory want .... Not on the wisdom of 1000's of years like of the cultures with a 1 in 25 divorce rate ,, the cultures which celibrate LOVE to the point that we study their texts ,,,  TRANTRIC and kam sutra ......... ooooh but our westrern ideas have the staistcall proof of success  NOT ! So why not use what she says I your right to .......... Use as you wish ........ because you still do not totally trust that you can use what she said once ........ still holds true every day ..... and why ? why not trust that  .  there we go back to the DOM?sub feelings ..... hierarchy versus committee ..... lone male as compared social female ... the way we evolved ,, even though males did at times hunt and go to war in packs organized packs ... men could also live alone ,, and spread their DNA ... a lone woman with infant children sucking from her tits did not survie they could not hunt and food gather and protect themselves and their young .... Women were social animals ........ the male of a tribe earned his right to be given ..... given as property ....... Given a wife ( yes the girl had the right to deny her animal .. her body ... her pussy that is built to be what ? to be pentrated .... I have to be hard then FORCE MY WAY IN ! BUT THAT MEANS  she was not being a useful member of the tribe to ignore her instincts and she would DIE by stoning... and the men died more often) the young men had to go out .... Out to PROVE MANHOOD  the right to have a wife ..... one way was to live the year alone ... the LONE MALE !  NOT SOCIAL but lone male ...... so to survive alone was how we evolved ! those who ould be depened DEPENED ON TO .... Handle the pressure to be able to lead the survivors of warfare out into the woods and re build a life because ... because ... the male has proven he could just go out into the woods and live and return stron and healthy worthy of place in the tribe and with wife ...... that man can protect woman and child .........        ohh but the fairy tale is better right phil what have you been thinking did you forget that you are not a PROFESSIONAL and the pro is the only person whose ideas should be considered as worthy of ........ being considered .....REMEMBER DIPSHIT  never ever think for yourself listen only to a professional .... Look at how great the world is ,,, forget that we have had 2.5 million years of human life tool making humans with life spans of 100 years people who livde the KAMA SUTRA AND TRANTRA ... not just read about the theory  , ohh I should have fucked her last nite but I didn't ,,, I was tired stressed she als was tired stressed ... I , inside was thinking fucking her would be the best thing for her ...... but I hate so much to hear something like ........... NO!  I have a headache and an too tired ..... that I allowed myself to not . even .. try ....... It was not good of me ... not leadership not caring ......... but in the fairy tale of wants , not rights ... well complexity and stress abound .

In the 1 on 1 .... The closeness of the male and female is not temered by the presence of other females .... The sisterhood , who by choice choose to share a male .... Greed understood but choosen to be ignored for the common good ........ where as the stresses of the work life or a lost coat could be discussed with people who think in like manner , with other women and the male is interacted with as he was designed to ........ with HIS hard lustfull penis warmly hidden in one of the girls wet pussy ..... as you YOUNG MASTER .. was designed to in .. in .. IN.. TER .. ACT .

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PLAYING ......... STOP      

That is a game designed for you young master , the in ... ten ... city , of multiple orgasism for men .... Right to the edge then STOP!  Pull her off her hand off , your hand off and her lips off the head of your cock ,, whatever ...but you do it over and over ,, wait about a 5 count and start up again hard and strong , you will get built up again in about 1 minute then STOP !  tell her voice it ... talk open your fucking mouth ..... 5 count have her start up again .... Over and over till you are totally fucking nuts ..... then let yourself cummm . SHOOT FOR DISTANCE ... since you are so worked up you really can get some great distance ..... not everytime since some times during the game stop you will ½ cumm ooze out some sperm ..... there by losing some of your force for the distance .... But who the fuck cares that is SEX it is never fanasty perfect each time it is exactly perfect ,, exactly wrong and exactly good ! .... Sex . but why why do we men not play the game with our women more often ?

Well one you may not feel ...feel .. ??? confident to lead ! lead your woman down this road .......... Hey leadership ... ... young master the word master hints at a person who does what ? orders? And is not ordering leading ? why? Are you not leading her inot making sex the most playful of activities .... Well one reason is this ,,, you have been stressed by not having enough sex all your life living a life of lack ,,, of shortness ... of begging for sex . begging asking asking for dates for attention ,,, hoping against hope that tonight will be the night and that she does not have a headache ....... The amount of hope and emtion you have even in getting this one ,,, is she real cute , what she is the most beautiful girl in the world ....... Fuck man that is ruff! That is a lot of stress built into what is supposed to be a fun relationship ....... ( I was re-reading twisted instinct yesterday I gave a copy to anew friend .. and I came across some of my ideas sparked by the RED TENT , that book written by a woman about the dynamics of the POLY relationship... well more on that later it can only work once the girls in it realy understand it! And they want it!...it....it ... what is the .... It ? ) ........ so anyways back to stop .... And I am heading there doing my first teaching my first guiding of what I LIKE ... of what I like ...... not what I like in the flavor of coffee ... or clean house .. or in how my girlfriend dresses or looks ...... but what I like in the relaxation and recreation of sex .......... NOW DO NOT GET ME WRONG I LOVE .,love .. love regular hard core fucking , making her head shake ... and hearing her scream ohhhhhhhh MY GOD PHIL .... Yep ... ain't nuting finer than that in the world ....... Giving her a good spanking and then .... Playing teasing forcing her sexually is also DELUXE ...... but , to just relax and be serviced ...... not just great head and a ball washing ( dam I hate that description ball washing ) but to relax and let my self be KISSED AND TOUCHED FROM HEAD TO TOE ........ and then to be the one who is played with till I AM SAYING ...... OHHH MY GOD DEBBIE !   that has an attraction also my frined young master ..... and who is gonna lead your GOOD GIRL down the rod to happy little slut ..... to the point where she is free to be that girl .. who will be kneeling between your spread legs with your hard dick in her hands and n=mouth bringing up up up up to the edge , then stoping at your command .... Stop waiting counting quickly to 5 then doing all over ,, and over and over ..... who will lead her there ... LEARDERSHIP .... MASTER / slave ..... Dom/subbie ... who ,, is it HER JOB ... to read your mind .........

So I have been listening to girls talking with guys going over my 46 years and I have come up with the idea that I have been experiencing do more sexually than the average male .... ( ooh I admit there are much better masters than me . but in the average Vanilla world I am not average ) and . and . well most guys ,,, are like well....... YOU ARE ACTING LIKE A MAN .... We just start getting hard and we want to stick it in and fuck , even myself ,,,, even though I may play stop while I am fucking to the point women wonder if I will ever cummm ....... But I also am average in that I instinctually want to fuck ,, to thrust ,, to force .... ON AVERAGE .... Even while getting head , I need to fuck her face to get off in most times .... Playing stop I must chill and just RECEIVE .... Mainly just receive ,,, no action on my part just receive ... attention , her love expression of LOVING THE MALE BODY ~! ....... Hmmm .... They love the male body ,,, hey young master ever think about that ,,,, you lokk at yourself and say what the fuck can a girl find attractive about me ?   but remember shithead you are not a girl ... we a designed by nature to to lust for female feel form taste and smelll , and girls are designed by nature to lust for the hair the feel of our skin the smell of our body ,,, even our fat .... Being only solid muscle is not ...not .... Perfection ...... just being male is being perfect to her already .... She desires to enjoy you already .... But you will not let her ... why because ,, the fear of loss . of lack ... of I gotta hit it up now because in any minute any second she could change her mind and the scene will end ! ......... think dumbfuck ,,,, KNOW THY SELF ! you will not relax enough to receive playful recreational sex unless ,,, you accept your self ,,,, remember .... In fishing Casting into the tree is not the fault of the tree ..no it is you ! who has the falt ....

( ohh man I gotta talk about ..... the chemical effects of fight/flight chemicals in your blodd stream and her blood stream ,, and that effect on stupid fights ... and mis understanding ..leading up to uncomfortable feelings ... which build up !   dam ,,, the bio chemical factory which is our body ..... those drugs which are body makes to function and ...... HANDLE PRESSURES ...... those drugs , well they . contribute to fights ... in her response to you and you to her .... And now dipshit ... who is the master the leader .... YOU ARE DUMBFUCK  you are ...... be a leader feel the effect in you realize the 20 minute cool down till the testrone and adrenaline are disapated by the body .... Describe this effect to your girl so she understands her own response to you ....... It will help if you feel your DOMINANCE is being bucked or being misunderstood or whatever ...... yo9u do not have to submit to her point of VIEW . just to salvage a night .... Just to keep a smile on the day ....... No understanding can allow the strength of AGREEING TO DISAGREE ........ no matter what she says in the end ...... that LAST WORD SHIT people get into )

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