Kill Hanah
KILL HANAH
I like the band this is my second time seeing them ...... but the other part is is watching you all ... a young woman went with us to the show she was single and of course she was open to meeting a good man .... Some guys caught her eye she was circled by some of these guys ... circled ,, the guys walked around looking but not talking .... The girls are the ones who struck up conversations with the guys that she ( our friend was interested in ) I just liked watching and thinking about ... WHAT IS GFOING ON IN YOUR HEAD young male ? what ? why are you so silent ,, why do the girls have to act like chimps to get your attention ......... like chimps? Yes I was thinking about these two girls who were joking around with this 1 guy ( the OHHH MY GOD HE IS SOOOOO CUTE guy who our friend ended up with in the end ) those girls were piggy back riding each other to kinda get him involved in PLAY ....... Our friend after listening to us just started talking to the guy and touching him while talking holding his arm pulling him close to her so she could talk to him and hear hin ( it was a club show way fucking loud my ears are still ringing ) I tolod her to ask him if she saw KILL HANAH before and then talk about the last KILL HANAH we show brought her to .........but why didn't any other males do that to her ,,,, there was this other guy I had gotten his attention and then she got talking to him earlier another who never touched her she had to touch him ......... in the end she left him why ? why ? he commented on her facial piercing then showed her his pierced nipples and she ... and she ... well she is female looking ofr a DOM male a good male a good man ,, not a subbie ( this guy from the outside did not look subbie ) but his pierced nipples show MASOCHIST male ,, a male who needs a female to cause him DISCOMFORT to hurt him for stimulation ........ a male who needs to be DOMINATED by a girl ... a girl who is searching to be submissive to find a PENETRATOR ,,,, to become submissive and allow herself to be penetrated ... think YOUNG MASTER think .......... Months ago I had recommened this exercise in street touchng to teach your sub conciuos mind that females on average will aloow you to touch them ,, yes some will pull away in fear but many will allow the touch and after the first touch you have them ( almost ) what is the street exercise ,,, it is simply touching them preferably on the skin not on clothes , and then asking them what time it is ...... the more you touch the more you teach ....... Teach yourself that nothing bad will really happen ! you have not been trained or practiced how to approach girls ,,,,,,, and they WANT TO BE APPROACHED ! you are to nice so nice you respect them so much you do nothing young master ........... thus confusing her into becoming the agressors and you becoming the nipple pierced submissive waiting like a wall flower for the girls to entertain you into coming out of your shell ! ok on to another lifestyle topic generated from yesterdays blog.
Feeling Topped form the bottom.................The idea that she may do that to you , young master is totally offensive to a woman who ahs choosen ,, choosen the Dom / sub life ........ so when I said I was feeling topped bells and whisltles went off in the Van der Mude house hold , a flood of I am sorry excuse me , etc flew from her mouth ....... What how did I think I was being topped ( ohh being topped is being ,,,,,, well her spin on my work WHIPPED PIZZA she did not want the world to think I was cruel and whipping her because I found her eating pizza ......... hey that sounds respectful sher concern for how the world views me , ( well I am FTW when it comes to you ‘all honestly , but thanks anyway ) ....... The topping was , the way she said , said her concern .. or my hearing of it ... but MOST IMPORTANT , is that I felt ! the feeling , of being topped controlled , controlled only if I let her of course but thru my love of her I MAY have let her and this ....the idea of being TOPPED that I could have suppressed the feeling and of course ,,, it would build in my gut like shit and eventually come out smelling like shit ......... ( hey as we talked she admitted to almost not commenting on her ideas about my blog as to not be seen as topping but she felt ,,, her feelings were going to turn into shit also ..)
My feelings were that she was telling me , I had no right to spank her as motivation or disipline ( punishment is still a word I have a hard time swallowing , that I have right to do that punish ) HEY then what the fuck am I spanking for ? for fun for fun that is why I am spanking for ... the feeling of the firm pat on the ass ,,,,, the sting of wasabi of a real spanking the flow of endorphine in HER BODY .... I am doing something nice for her creating smiles ,, I make her smile I smile ,,,, in essence I do it for myself ! but back to the topping .......... FAKE IT TILL YOU MAKE IT .. the complex changes in the male female female relationship is so nice yet of course a change so .... Dipshit I find myself confused at times .... It was not important what she actually said as much as how I was feeling during and after the talk ......... the confusion ... sometimes I am in the fake it till I make it mind set ,,, just playing a role game in my mind until I really feel it to be my right .. the trust and faith expectation that this is real ....... Not a game but I use the game to train myself to become myself ......... ohhh more and more I see myself coming out ! morea and more it is no longer a trail or role play ,,, it is just me ...... like a morning fuck with my clothes on her naked like a puupy on the bed still half asleep my hard cock jutting out of of my zipper my skin behind clothes I fuck her for my pleaure just a few minutes thinking and feeling only my pleasure yes enjoying her reactions to my forced fuck ... her touching my my pants to see that I am fucking her again like this ,, me clothed ( DOM ) her naked ( submissive ) her sounds of acceptance .. acceptance she is being penetrated ofr my ,, MY ,, pleasure and it is her job yet pleasure to provide me this release sexually whenever I need it ......... the first time it was a kink a game now it is my life I can return to work easy I feel better more comfortable just using her gift to me ! her choice to give me her body as she feels it natural to be penetrated by the male she feels cares for her and cares about her !
Cares for her and cares about her so .... So .. when we were talking about the pizza in the frig and she was scared about her .. her WILLPOWER to not eat any of it the next day ... she wants to maintain a healthy weight and be attractive and it is so easy to eat without knowing it falling into a abd ahbit ... that at some times you just gotta go COLD TURKEY ,, you gotta get a handle on eating ad STOP but she felt weak ........ and she was happy to allow me to motivate her with a BELT ...... to lay face down naked exposed and feel .... Me whipp her with that ruff leather strap just enough to get a wiggle out of her .......... But that I cared that I put a limit on her that I said NO ! helped her , she now knew she would walk right by the frig the next day ,,, nothing in there could tempt her in any way ........... it was this act of LOVING her caring about and for her thant she was upset that people would not clearly understand .......... Not that she was upset that I whipped her BEFORE SHE ate ......... it was that you reader my think I was being cruel and whipping her for eating ........... that would e fine if we agree on that as a form of BEHAVIOR MODIFACTIOn ,, agreed upon , then it is consenting between 2 adults .......... But my subbie worries you dipshit are not smart enough to understand cruelity and concern and love thru ..... thru what ? whipping ? is whipping natural to me a man who never even spanked any of his 4 biological children or his 3 step children .. how can I can force an adult into changes thru hitting ? ......... well it is still some thing beyond words for me , something ilive but do not totally understand ......... but it feels RIGHT FOR ME ! to show my care for her with the reminder of our choosen life style in the form of a quick whipping with that leather strap ........... and and well and it helped! She felt good about herself ! her motivation was very very strong secure ,,, a change that she didi not feel when it was only her .... Alone and only her who had to help herself NOT do something like ........eating another bad thing .... Like pizza.( so dipshit think about being TOPPED , think about not repressing your feelings and having the guts to always talk ....... Showing your care thru punsishment ........ and of course remember you can never really be DOMINATE if you are living scard of losing your pussy .. losing your pussy scared to go out on the street tomorrow and talking to ten 10 girls working your ten foot circle ... and touching totall stranger - you will not end up in jail as long ay you touch with respect shithead .. nothng will happenm except you will get the time and a smile ) by Philip Van der Mude
