Jackin' off to .........
Jackin' off to ....
I said young master it is what you use during that , during your time releaving pressure , jackin off it is those , dreams ideas thoughts visions , that honestly you push them so far down that they in fact effect you in negative ways ,,, and the idea of expressing your DOM. SIDE COMING OUT OF THE bdsm CLOSET you get to clean up the repressions and free yourself ,,,,,, plus you will do nothing with any girl that the girl does not also want but often she is to shy ( like the good girl she ,,,,) she is to shy to express you lead her where she wants to go respecting her safe word ,,,, NOW SOMEthing about safe words it is frustrating when in the beginning they use the safe word to much but remember this is the beginning with her ... as the trust builds she will use her safe less as you guide her to using it less as you pass thru ..... honestly that is where talking must come in to re -difine ,,,RE DEFINE her safe word after trust has be felt by her ....... Ohh fuck I am supposed to be talking about jackin'off and fanasty ........ see for the first time im many months I am alone .... Wow this is weird I do not like it ... so I have had to service myself and that means using the largest sexual organ a lot ,,, the largest organ is your brain and fanasty there in .... I also was using some porn that mygirl frined brought ..... interesting to have this access to her fanasty in her choice of which porn she keeps and carries with her in her travels thru life plus remembiong the porn she talked about seeing etc etc. all hints to places she my want to go but will not say so ,,, she being a good like always , the innocent girl that I want her to stay and your job as master ,,, dipshit is to guide her safely there and back into rel life fanasty and back to being a good girl ... just a girl . Young master if you do not learn to do it then she will live her fanasty with a DUCK yes and no if it walks like a duck and sounds lika duck it must be a duck and old saying ,,, well if it sounds like a man acts like a man maybe walks like a man but but but YOU HAVE TO BUY IT A ........ PENIS .... It is not a DUCK ! it is not a man ! then why why submit to it .... A fantasy of a fantasy ....... There are not enough DOMINATE males no there are not enough to satify the amount of girl who dream because they all dream every girl every human dreams of things ,,, and why do we dream why do they dream ......
What have I dreamed these last few days ,,,,, I said I am coming out! And I have been saying things to the whole world now for over a year self publishing my book ,,, and world wide web blogging ........ I have taken on the part of teacher and mentor again like I did for Phils Bait and Tackle ,,, taking my limit love for something my limited experience then growning in experience and skill and study then teaching ,,,,,,, her video was a 2 on 1 vidoe many many double pentrations , well that is something I do some what regular anyway using toys and it is great all girls get fanstic orgasisms .......... But that leads me into the idea of more than one girl ,,,,,,, WRONG , my girl needs to know she is special and that she will never never be put aside ,,, that she will be ( I will use the slave words for weeks to explore the swing of a pendulum in the mind of her myself and you dipshit ) she will be my numbe 1 slave ,,, but means she realy realy has to learn to serve me as I realy deeply truly need to feel the peace in my life I have always searched for and she still needs to maintain her freedom of choice and her right to speak ,,,, but the effect of her DOM nature sometimes has caused me stress , a sence of buck lil' thng s in lil' ways small subconsiuio tones of voice ans shit things that are very hard for her to change to switch off like a lite bulb , but things that would leave her in time sometimes what is needed for person to make such changes is extremer levels of training ........ do you got the guts you master do you trust her enough to lead her where she wants to go ..... next for me is the idea of having The Byrd come over and re-build the garage into a good sound proof play room that is big bucks and a year long plan plus ...... ohhh the time needed to explore turst to build her into some one I can not live without ( no I am sorry the idea of some I can not .. can .. like I am trapped that will never happen ,,, but someone I will never ever want to lsend away of to leave ... now that is different )
Now I have a desire to explore some of my theories to the point I was trying to get a young master to work some of my street pick up ideas ,,, to live only thru online picks I feel is weak eventually we all must be reall be face to face so ,,, doing street pick up of girls is good for a males skill level ,,,,,,,, ( THE MENTOR TEACHER IS ME IS ALWAYS THERE my old love , sprot of fishing and now coming out and saying that girls were as important NO! more important and now it is time to creative in that arena ) but to do that type of thing means I will I will end up with submissive girls of al ages shapes and sizes .... Since the demand for male service is there and the masters are not ... I know me I will end up with girls .... And then to qualifiy young masters in a way I feel I truly have men worthy of training of being master those who in some way can master themselves first ,,, then they have the right and responsibility to master the girls who need them
Remember yesterday the idea that the pleser in the girls I being stressed torn apart by the need to please everyone ,,, but if she choose to serve 1 master and only 1 master then ,,, she can quiet the world and finnaly find peace ! the service you provide dipshit ....... Is by letting her do what comes naturally and un... un /// unnaturally to her , what comes in her fanasty life which you will learn by experimentation over the trust building days and thru means of talking .... But I see myself in fansty teaching girls to be submissive , and young men to be Dominate ......but what does that have to do with me ... with me right now as I am thinking and exploring my ideas before I write my first draft of a relationship contract ..... oh the use of wording the importance of words to the deepest parts of the mind ....... That is why in the book they make sure you use words like slave and master the formality I have shunned in my past 10 or so years ago the ideas that over this past summer I started to question myself about ,,, the idea ... am I ready to hear the word SIR ... and what about love ....... Her bing my lover ,, well did my girl friend ( my special friend who is a female ) well did we not do the gushy I love you honey stuff and did it not ........ collapse ? like all the others we each had done in the past ,,, the formality of the MASTER/slave has in it the day to day remeinders of the reason why we both freely choose to be in the relationship ,,, now the idea the use of the words DOM/sub , is kinda surgar coating the MASTER/salve roots ........ but since master slave is often very pain slut oriented and very etreme I understand the reasons why the use of surgar coated words is important ....... But the truth is every relationship is special and with its own rules choices and shit ......... not some black and white rule book thing ,,, each person is needing something and what are my NEEDS ?
Sexual and especially non sexuall ,, the sex part is pretty easy it is in all the other shit ,, the other parts of life where the problems build in ili' things we each do that bug the other ,,, and it is here where the choice of DOM/sub can help 1 leads the other put up with ,,, now dipshit ,, you got a good girl following you putting up with you so that she can see you smile? See your smile , well dipshit some day you may shit on her once tomany times and the subbie may not submit ,, all that means is that you will have to go back out to the street of course .....but ,, but .... That subbie your good girl .. is human .... In the outside world she has to have a safe word also ,,, when your attitude and cations hurt her like you hurt her in BDSM play ,, she has to have a safe word ..... to tell you she has been hurt and needs her master to help her ! you should bwe reading and studing ,, if so you will already understand sexual safe words ,,, now I feel I must give her a everyday safe word ,,, THAT WAY I CAN BE MYSELF AS I AM ,,,,, not worry and think if I do this or say that will I hurt her feelings? No I just be mayself the fuck head I really can be ... and if I do hurt her she will tell in her safe word ... and since she is important to me ,,, will stop the pain ! .... I will listen and learn something ( maybe learn something I do have a thick skull in some ways ) ...... but atleast she has a sfe word she can stop the pain ,,, but maybe like in sex , she also will learn .. she will pass certain levels accepting me more and more for who I am ............ her safe word .........
I sex is easy ,, but I bring up other chicks poly and shit ,,,, but that hurts most girls in fact the idea of seeing her tied and fucked by other men that idea hurts ,,, ( I honesty feel that her being fucked by other mean 4 times a year is a gentice deep urge we human fulfilled thru the rituals of festival times of the seasons .... Read TWISTED INSTINCT 4 season for ........ but there is the reminder ....of buying the duck a penis ,, and my delight in her pleaure of using a dildoe on her , that another male is just my right to use a living dildoe in her ,,,,,,,, but what if .. what if she meets another male falls in love or cheats on me .... Behind my back ,,, all these things prove one thing I DIDN NOT MEET HER CORE VALUES ,, it does nean that it does not hurt ... yes , but I have not met what she really did need so she in her free choice has omoved on and I should wish her wll and happiness ...... MASTER YOURSELF dipshit or live in fear ....... Are you master dumbfuck? Am i? .......... But this is where trust is needed .. and our last 5 months have been a great start ... START .... On the road to trust ...... end this blog here and then write a simple first draft incomplete realtionship contract ,,,,,
