Contract? like a Bussiness ? but this is LOVE?
Contract? Like a Bussiness ? but this is love?
And we todays lovers have a 60 percent chance of divorce ,,,, our dating relationships are like a 95 percent level of break ups ,,,, and it is my opinion that shit like this , the paim felt by like fucking everyone ,is because we believe that the word ... the fairy tale the word promises ,,,, is , is , is ......... it is real . but not by trusting in something as broad as the idea of what a word can possibly mean .. what is love , and just saying I love you ,, well how many people have said that to you and how many times have you said that to someone else ,,, and well now look at you ,, YOUNG MASTER ... huh dipshit it has been fucking hard your pain is being expressed in the music you listen to ,,,, dumbfuck you do know the lyrics of your favorite songs right ,,,? Listen to them ,, like I explored KOrn's music in TWISTED INSTINCT .... I understood that I was .. I was ..felling .. LIKE A FREAK ON A LEASH . I understood Jons feelings his thoughts you were supposed to be a cheap fuck for me to lay ! LOVE? TO JUST TRUST TO LOVE IS NOT WORKING .... We each want to see the other happy and in that is confusion leading to not smiles and love but ,,,hurt .
So , the contract ,,, spells out the motives of each ... general terms , motives expected from the other .... I personally am not talking about BOOT LICKING club scene bullshit but yet like pain gives a sensation of flying and freedom to the subbie so , does humility ,,, but that is some very strange shit when done like so many do it ,,not my trip .... What is YOUR TRIP dumbfuck ,, knowing your wants , me right now knowing my real wants , and clearly describing them is the first step ..... and we my subbie and I had to go down the regular road of trusting to the word of love ,,, to again seee it fail ,, and our inner desire for each other has brought us into understanding all the regular solutions which were not solutions to all our past marriages and relationships ..were not! Solutions , so why still do them ,,, huh why do the same old thing ..... how about thinking out side the box of failure ! BUT DOES SHE HAVE TO BE CALLED YOUR SLAVE ,,,? Hey that maybe her limit maybe she can find no pride in that word , but maybe she can find a pride in that word ........ her pride her motives .... Her real deepest inner wants , the ideas she has thought about from time to time since she was like little now , these drives are to be explored slowly in the hands of a loving DOM ,,,, a wise king and leader she trusts to act in her behalf ........an benefit ,,, and if it is truly for her benefit then you GOOD MAN get what you realy want deep down to see the woman who you love smile ,,, YINI AND FUCKING YANG ,,,, not boot licking unless some how that level of humility serves her because it does serve some girls who am I to judge them ..... writing the contract dipshit is your job as leader not hers ,,, do it for her .... But like we have done these last months going down the regular road of relationship failure ,, honestly trying ,,, but letting a failed system prove again its inherent failures can be needed ..... to get the MO-TI -VATION on both your parts . The internal honesty , you each need to realy be honest , and not just being nice to the other ,,,, it gives each of you time to trust the other ,,,, for me to believe that she realy wants me to lead and discipline ........ and discipline ? wow that is a concept what is discipline ,,,, is it the game of spanking? Or is that erotic play ( I feel it is erotic play mainly ) discipline is just saying NO ..... and having her stop long enough to listen and not buck not question ,, not complain not fight .... All things that no woman will do with ease . unless she is motivated . I kept talking about motives brought about by competiton in the poly .... The self controls brought about by the urges of nature thru the poly relationship that was built by the women involved .. the poly of my theory also was complex in that the girls have to think and believe and understand ............ THE BDSM contract is the same ,,,,,, the thinking and belief and understanding of motives your inner wants , her inner wants ...... OH dipshit is pussy important enough to study? Yes dumbfuck it is , you really gotta really look at how much of your money your life your efforts are tied in some way to PUSSY ... the car the cool ego you project ,, your choice of jobs to get the cash to get the toys to have the fun that ...... attracts the pussy or keeps the pussy you already have ........ so mush of your life is in part effected by your sex .... Your fucking DNA dipshit ....
So , I need now to brain storm about my own desires and be fucking true , let the chips fall hwere they will ,, be fucking true ,, but like the good and wise ruler ,,, I try attempt to present it in a wayt to allow for the evolution of what we all want ,,, and what is the constant ... since she does loves meshe wants to see me smile.... Simple basic motive ,,, and what makes me smile what makes me sad ,, what makes me stressed ( hey when I am stressed I do not smile ) what do I want , well I want to see her smile why because I love her ,,,, and she smiles when I smile .. so I gotta lower confusion and stress in our relationship ? hmmm wow fucking simple ..... but why is it hard because ,, you YOUNG MASTER you are not being true , you are lieing to her ,,,,, I say one thing then write another ,,, yes I have been doing that let my subconsiuos mind express itself in my writing not judgeing my words but just writing and what comes out is not the same as the lies the words and manipulations I say to try ,,, try ,, try to make it all better make her ahppy ... I TWISTED MY INSTINCTS .. to fit the femisnt ideals of today ,and got all the unhappiness this new age can give ........ just look around you dumbfuck do the same old thing get the same old results ,,, so it is no gamble to trusth that your are truly a GOOD MAN , and like the good wise king your attempt is always honorable ,,,, so be true to her ! explore your deepest thoughts your deepest inner nature ,, your animal DNA ......
Example ,,, the buck , I must define what I feel the buck is ,, but explore the buck ,, with out the fear of hearing her buck of me describing my ideas of the buck ,,,, just read that line and see understand the level of fear of separation all males have and why we have become so passive on average eventually just becoming drunks out of frustration ..... the buck ,,,, I am male , it is in my DNA accept this ,, work from this idea , and forget for the most part the lies of the fairy tale world that says ,,, just trust the beauty of love ,, ( yes I love ,,, love ... hell that is why we are writing a DOM/sub contract to preserve LOVE ) ... understanding the buck and expressing your ideas without fear or blame ,, to express your ideas may ,,, mya ,,,may ,, feel like BLAME to her and often it is blame ,, you are only human shithead ,,, and if she feels a buck coming a fight a defensive feeling it is because she does feel it it' truth that she does this ...BUT , BUT , but .... The opening of a buck .... Expect first a trust ....form her then as you both go down the road of life explain your ideas ,, guess what your inner ARMY GENERAL will feel better about her after she trusts you first then you are much more open to explaining your whys and aas you feel she understands your logic you are more likely to her spin because her spin now comes from the girl who really understands your motives .......... Wow much more comples than just saying whatever you think will keep her ahppy or just giving in to whatever she wants or bringing her flowers to say ou are sorry .... Submitting . then leaving her to go get high ,, becaue of pain deep inner unhappiness to the point living under the influence of a drug is better that living !
IT IS EASY AND IT IS NOT EASY ,,, BUT dipshit my friend ,, are you a leader ? yes you are it is iin your DNA now fucking lead .........
